FROM: Felix
I will win you again, Astia. I will.
I didn’t reply to his message and just put my phone back on the bedside table. I sighed heavily and brushed my hair using my fingers. He will win me back? Well then, good luck to him. He won’t get me back. I won’t let him. One mistake is enough and I don’t want to get myself being trap again. He was once a jerk in his life and he doesn’t deserve me. He doesn’t.
There’s a saying, Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me.
So I won’t get back to him. Never. He will just waste his time running after me so if I were him, just let me go for good. If he truly loves me, he won’t do that thing in the first place. Now that we broke up, he will go after me? Is he insane? Did he realize that he love me after I let go of him? I sarcastically inside my mind. This isn’t a game, Felix.
Only you know love her when
“LET me ask you this if you saw me kissing another guy, will you forgive me?” I painfully asked him as tears poured from my eyes. I really hate these tears. I could see from my peripheral vision some people who passed by look at us. Oh, I just catch my ex-boyfriend cheating on me that’s why I am crying. “Damn it, Felix! Yes! You made ONE mistake! But that mistake was I saw you kissing another girl and fucking her.” I was just stopping myself from shouting out loud since we aren’t in the right place. “I’m sorry,” then bowed his head. Here he is again with his sorry. “I’m tired of hearing your sorry, Felix…” I paused. “I don’t want to hear that again because even if you continue saying sorry for doing that mistake,” I shake my head slowly. “Your sorry won’t change the fact that you did that thing. Your sorry won’t turn back time and change everything that happened.” Yes, I love him but maybe that was the way for me to get back myself and
I'M not really a drinker but the heartbreak my ex-boyfriend gave me made me want to get wasted tonight. I just finished my second glass when I roam my eyes around the place only to see some people are now wasted. Just like us, they are here to kill time, chill, and relax, for them to forget their problems even if it is just in a short period of time. If lately I badly wanted to wear a hoodie, now even if I ended up wearing a t-shirt, I find myself being out of place but I think it’s okay since I could also see some people wearing the same outfit like mine.Right, I am here because I wanted to get out of my shell and forget about what happened why I am crying for how many goddamn days. Well, I think I am crying for at least one week? I don’t know. It isn’t necessary to count how many days I have been crying anyway.I had my third glass when I turned my head towards my best friend who seems busy drinking. She’s been drinking one glas
“AUDREY?” Josiah called me again and I quickly looked at him, puzzled.“I’m sorry. What is it again?” I curiously asked. I silently scolded myself for being spaced out.“I’m asking you if do you want to get married?” he repeated and based on the way they look at me, he was measuring me.That sudden question from him caught me off guard. I couldn’t open my mouth to speak and just gulp. It took me two minutes before I could process what he just said, but before I could even open my mouth, Bella popped up from somewhere, cutting my thoughts from speaking them out loud.“Go on, Audrey!” she yelled, drunkenly. “It’s time to forget about that asshole!” she yelled in a drunken tone while raising the bottle of an unfamiliar beverage.I looked at Josiah with drunken eyes who’s raising his eyebrow at
IT was one week had passed since I have received that message, telling me that I should claim my marriage certificate in an office. My whole world was literally shaken by that sudden message I just received. My eyes went wide as I finished reading the message that has been sent to me. I even screamed ‘What?!’ loud and good thing Bella didn’t hear it because she didn’t go to my room to check what was happening why I yelled. At first, I thought that the sender was nuts so I just disregard the message. What matters to me at that time was that I need to go to school and attend my classes that afternoon. I also think that maybe they just send it wrong to the wrong person because why am I married in the first place? I just had broken up with my boyfriend. Not until if, Felix is crazy enough to hire a lawyer and made a marriage certificate telling that we are married together so I have no choice. Tss. As if. If Felix really makes that kind of tactic, I’ll die
He's drinking coffee with a girl, smiling like an idiot, and acting as if nothing has happened. He didn't just come from heartbreak, for example. He acted as if he didn't care about me at all. These last few days have been hell on earth for me. I tried to divert my attention away from studying for the finals, but sometimes before I could even close my eyes to sleep, my thoughts were drawn back to the heartbreak I was experiencing. I used to have sleepless nights all the time. But it appears that my ex-boyfriend enjoys his life so much that he quickly finds a new girlfriend.My gaze darted from Felix to the girl, then back again. I take a close look at her. Yes, she is lovely. IndeedFelix'stype. Tss. I assumed he wanted me back? What transpired? Was he telling the truth about everything he said?It appears that I am the only one who has been suffering and mourning the loss of our relationship in recent days. He said he loved me an
"Pardon me, miss and sir?" said the lady, and I looked at her and blinked three times." I'm guessing she's still in high school."Uh... Are you two... a couple?" the lady inquired, which caused her to look at her with wide eyes open. "Because if that's the case, you two could just share the chocolates. Isn't that what couples do?” she said with a bright smile on her face. What she said made me want to rip her smile off.Both I and the stranger beside me turned our heads 90 degrees towards the lady in front of us.“No!”“Yes!”As a result, I quickly turned my head towards the man beside me. I'd say I'm almost boiling with rage right now. He couldn't possibly do it. Regardless of how attractive you are, mister. I'm not going to give you this box of chocolates. We require this! This is necessary for our brain to function properly!“What?!" I screamed in frustration, but he remained silent. I take a deep breat
“I’M sorry miss for using you. But in this world, people like using one another just to get what they want. If you don’t like someone using you, then use them first.”I blink as my mouth, which had been gaping open, closed. The stranger man looked at me seriously as he said that before leaving me stunned, and I was stuck in my position, not knowing what to say or how to respond to what he had just said.I gulped and raised my head slightly as my brain tried to process what the man had said earlier. It had been a few minutes, but I was still standing in the same spot where that strange man who had stolen the box of chocolate that I was supposed to buy had left me.What he said stayed with me.If I don't like someone using me... then I'll just use them first... Of course, who would like it if they were being used? None. There is no one who wishes to be used. But what about using them first? Not everyone on the planet
THEY SAY that when you're in love, you have to be inspired in everything you do. Perhaps they were correct at that point. Because I was always happy and inspired every minute of my life when Felix and I were still together. He didn't cheat until I caught him. It shattered my world into a million pieces. It was the most heartbreaking experience I'd ever had.I simply adore, but why does it appear that fate does not want me to be happy? Perhaps it is true that some people were afraid to be happy because fate would play on their emotions and hurt them.You are inspired when you are in love. But what if your heart has been broken? You're a frozen corpse? Do you appear to be carrying half of the world's problems? Is that it?If there's one thing I've learned from my broken relationship, it's to never give your entire self to someone, especially when there's no guarantee that you two will end up together. I mean, please make s