LOGINVanya.
My body hurt all over, and my head ached from crying all night. I had no idea how much time had passed since I was dragged into this cold cell. There was no window or any reliable source of light. I collapsed on the floor as emotions rushed through me. Now that I was alone, I felt every wall holding me in place crumble to nothing. I held on to the rag that had been given to me as a dress, and rocked hard with tears and tremors. I wouldn't be in this position if Father had just listened to me. I wouldn't be here if Mother was still alive and everything was fine. I never wanted marriage like Father did. Did he know what hell I was going through at the moment? I was cold, and now, I’d die without him ever finding out. ~ ~ I jerked as water drenched my face, beating sleep out of me and making me gasp for air. One minute, I’d fallen asleep on the floor crying, and the next, I woke up to find myself standing with my feet and legs tied to a rod in a dimly lit room. The icy water dripped from my face down my body, and by the time I could see clearly, I felt my soul leave my body at the sight in front of me. Not far from where I stood, Ivan Petrov sat on a leather couch. His dark eyes were fixed on me. What the hell is this? I wished I could scream the question out as I took in the rest of my surroundings. It was just him and another man—the man he’d called Marco, the same man who had dragged me into the cell the very first day. Ivan’s deep voice drifted across the room. “You are finally awake.” He stood up, his gaze still pinned on me as he took long strides across the room toward me until he stood right in front of me. I glared at him, unable to stop the curses that formed so fast I wished I had the voice to haul them at him. How dare he treat me this way? What in God’s name have I done to deserve any of it?! If he didn't want me, all he had to do was send me back home instead of subjecting me to such inhuman treatment… “Look around you, Vanya.” Ivan drawled, shrugging out of his suit and tossing it to Marco as he folded the sleeves of his white long-sleeved shirt until the fabric hugged his toned arms. “Do you know where this is?” he asked. I frowned. I looked around but had no fucking idea where he had brought me to. “Right. I forgot you are supposed to be mute.” He let out a dark laugh. “The thing is… I don't quite believe that, and we just have to make sure you are not lying to me, don't we, mmh?” Panic crept down my spine at the sinister tone in his voice and just as I wondered what he meant by those words, Marco brought a box over from a table by the corner, where many tools had been spread carefully on the table. My eyes widened when he set the box carefully beside Ivan, then turned to leave The door shut heavily behind him, leaving me and Ivan all alone in the room. I felt a shakiness in my limbs as Ivan’s tall figure towered in front of me. The playful mischief in his dark eyes was gone and in its place was pure malice. “So let's try this one more time, Mute. Who are you keeping your voice for? For Anastasia or your father? Who will you sell my secret to?” Absolutely no one. I shook my head, wishing the words would come out so I could convince him. His legs, lame or not, his secret was none of my business. Was that what all this was about? I had no reason to tell anyone anything! “Use your voice!” he yelled, and I felt a shiver rush through me. “I know you can fucking speak, pretender!!” I can't. I’m working for no one! “Fine,” he said coldly, and with one last glance at me, he walked toward the table and returned with a knife. My eyes almost popped out of their sockets at the sight of it. What did he plan to do with it?! His response to my silent question was a rip. And before I knew it, the rag I wore as a gown was reduced to shreds at my feet. Cold air bit into my skin, and shame and awareness filled me at the thought of my body so bare before him. Clad in nothing but my underwear. I tried to force my hands together but the ropes were harsh and I could only get so far. I had no idea how I’d mustered up the courage to do so the first time in his room. Ivan’s eyes darkened even further. The corner of his lips twitched. He rounded me, stopping behind me and leaning close until I felt the hotness of his breath fanning down my neck. “I heard you are a virgin. Your father mentioned it so proudly to Anastasia.” I held my breath. My heart pounded uncontrollably in my chest as my fear increased a hundredfold. He cannot be thinking of… Oh God. Ivan dropped on one knee and I gasped when the ropes holding my legs sprang free, leaving only the one on my hands. He patted my legs, instructing me to spread them apart, but I clenched my teeth stubbornly and refused to budge, only to regret it the next moment when Ivan kicked me forcefully from behind and forced them apart himself. “Your virginity is definitely the only reason he has the guts to think you could ever be a fit for me. You wanted to be in my bed so badly you stripped and waited for me.” “Let me see how much of a virgin you are. Let me know how quiet you can be when I tear your cunt apart.” At the last word I kicked hard, aiming for him only to strike nothing but air, failing miserably. Ivan laughed, and a tear slipped down my cheek as he grabbed my hair and pulled hard, forcing my ear to his lips as he whispered hoarsely. “I’ll fuck you until those broken little cries rip free from your throat. You will scream… and it will be my name tearing out of you.” Rage exploded through me. The moment his grip loosened, I wrenched away from him. My free hand shook violently as I raised it between us and signed the word into the air with sharp, furious strokes. “Bastard.!” His smile vanished immediately.Vanya finally snapped.“You are so stubborn,” she said, her voice shaking, “and so self-absorbed. You think the world revolves around you. I didn’t raise you like this. I don’t know where you learned to be so cold, to look at your own sister like she’s a burden. Sofia sat beside you through every scraped knee you ever had, and this is how you repay her? Maybe if you spent half as much time caring about people as you do staring at that stupid phone, you wouldn’t be so empty.”Tasya flinched, only slightly, but Vanya saw it. She saw her own words land and wished instantly that she could take them back.Instead, she turned to her husband.“Ivan,” she said stiffly. “Would you please tell Tasya to go upstairs and bring her sister down?”Ivan lifted his eyes from his plate.“If she says she’s not going, then she’s not going,” he said calmly. “There are maids. They can bring Sofia.”Heat crept up Vanya’s neck. The maids were within earshot. “You don’t have to disrespect me in front of everyo
Her daughter’s dark hair fell in glossy waves down her back, her nails were perfectly painted, and her eyes were glued to the glowing screen.“I’m starving,” she announced, and walked right past her mother, going to kiss her father on the cheek.Vanya watched her go.Motherhood hadn’t turned out the way she had imagined it in the hospital twenty years ago, with two small babies breathing against her chest.She had pictured herself raising both of them. She had pictured the three of them growing up together, with Senya’s cries echoing through the halls and Tasya’s laughter chasing after.Instead, she had raised one child with one eye always on the door. She had been present, but part of her was always somewhere else, waiting for a phone to ring.She knew it had made her sharp and bitter. She had snapped at Tasya for things that didn’t deserve it and smothered her with rules out of fear that she would lose her too.And somewhere along the way Tasya had learned to give back exactly what
Of course, Vanya had always believed finding someone was something Ivan Petrov could do effortlessly. As one of Moscow’s godfathers, his influence stretched across the city. Nothing seemed beyond his reach, and no secret stayed buried for long when he wanted answers. So why was finding one missing child proving so difficult? Sometimes, she couldn’t help wondering if he had truly exhausted every possible lead or simply given up.“I have torn this city apart,” Ivan said, his voice becoming hard. “Every street. Every house. Every connection I have ever made, and every favor I was owed. For twenty years, I have looked. If you think it isn’t enough, then there is nothing more I can do.” He took a step back. “If you want to carry on this way, then carry on. But forget that you have two other children who are right here.”He turned toward the door.Vanya’s fingers closed around the small crystal ashtray on the nightstand. She didn’t pause to think.She threw it.It struck him just behind t
Vanya. Twenty years had passed, and the Petrov mansion had never stopped remembering. Ivan was sixty now, though he hardly looked his age. The black hair that once made him look carved from stone was threaded with silver at the temples, but his handsome features, broad shoulders, and tattooed body still made him look like a man in his early forties. The man all of Moscow feared still commanded the same respect and authority he had twenty years ago. He no longer left at dawn and returned at midnight. His men ran the business for him now, and they came to the mansion with their files and their reports instead. His title had grown too. He wasn’t only the Don of Moscow anymore. He was a godfather, a name spoken in lowered voices in rooms across Russia. And still, he had not found his son. Vanya sat alone in the bedroom with the curtains half drawn, her fingers curled around the edge of the armchair. The evening light fell across the floor, and she didn’t see that she’d been at
Her finger was wrapped gently around Senya’s hand. “Who are you?” I demanded, startling her. “How did you get in here?” She turned at my voice and retreated from the crib, but she didn’t look surprised or bothered to see me as she smiled. “You’re Vanya, right?” she asked. My throat tightened uncomfortably. How could she not know who I was if she was amongst the guests. “I’m sorry, who are you?” “My name is Nisa,” she said, smiling. “Nice to meet you.” “Nisa?” My brows rose. “How are you here?” I asked. “You’re one of the guests right? Isn’t this area restricted to guests?” “I’m one of Ivan’s cousins from his mother’s side.” Nisa smiled. “Mother’s side?” I repeated. “Still, relatives also shouldn’t be up here,” I said. “So why are you here?” “I know, I’m sorry, but I couldn’t stay away once I saw them on the projector,” she said, glancing at where the babies lay. “They’re so lovely and I wanted to see them properly.” “I’m sorry, but you are still not allowed up here,” I cut he
My throat tightened. I’d forgotten that I’d extended an invitation to her, but at the same time, confrontations such as this were meant to happen, and I had nothing in particular to feel guilty or cautious about except her bitterness.“You must be pleased,” Svetlana said, her voice dripping with condescension as she smiled ruefully at me. “Everything has worked out so well in your favor, hasn’t it?”I said nothing, maintaining a steady smile as I glanced around casually at the crowd.Svetlana scoffed, but obviously my silence wasn’t enough for her to back down as she pressed on furiously. “You used Ivan’s pity for you to work your way into this family the same way you had used it to trap my son,” she sneered, her voice rising slightly enough to make the two people not too far from us glance toward us.I met her eyes. “Whatever has happened to your son is not something you get to lay at my feet, Svetlana. Nikolai made his own choices. It’s not my fault that he fell for me. I never beg
Ivan.I’d just scrubbed the stench of Katya’s blood off my body, yet it remained clear that people no longer valued their miserable lives.I had spent years building order out of chaos. Every living, breathing person in this estate operated according to my rules. Every guard knew his place. Every s
Vanya I had heard the stories. Ivan Petrov was a ruthless man, a monster every soul in Moscow feared. A man who walks in secret, kills without mercy, the world believes he’s crippled while he tightens his grip on Moscow’s underworld. No one dared to cross him, not even now, when he lost the ab
Ivan. The basement beneath the Petrov estate was always colder than the rest of the estate. Concrete walls, dim industrial lights, blood-spattered floor with the faint metallic scent that never quite washed away.I sat motionless in my wheelchair at the center of one of the cells, my black suit c
Vanya. “Vanya!” The cold hit me first. A shock of freezing water slamming across my face and chest. I gasped, bolting upright on the thin mattress, my thin nightgown clinging to my skin like a second, shivering layer. “Vanya! Get up!” My stepmother’s voice sliced through the morning light l







