Long after Ian was gone on his two-day trip, his words and thoughts played on my mind. The weight of uncertainty and heavier emotions kicked in as I tossed and turned on the bed, trying to catch up on some sleep.
Ian being Ian, kept me awake until dawn when it was time for him to leave. The sandalwood and citrus notes of his perfume lingered in the air and on my body. The way those stormy grey eyes looked at me one last time, sucking me in before he kissed goodbye.
He was a completely different person with me as opposed to the rest of the world. I watched him put his mask of indifference back on that gorgeous face as he walked out of my room and nodded to the guards. That tender, vulnerable side of him was instantly replaced with dominance and confidence. His strong voice was void of any emotion except for the firm authority that had taken over.
It took all of my willpower to not call his name and hold him from the back to stop him from leaving. The despera
After drenching in the rain for over an hour, stuck in the chair and lost in my thoughts, I realized Lydia needed me. I told her I would be back soon.Grief from losing a loved one was much more painful. It doesn't compare to the pain from losing a deceptive Ian. She needed me more.She was with Mason for four long years, waiting with patience and hope while diligently performing her duties. Did she not deserve to be happy after going through with everything with not a single complaint ever? He kept her going, and he was no more.My thoughts kept wandering back to Ian. Was he really deceptive? Did he have the heart to keep me in the dark about something so big and important? I guess I will be in limbo until his return.No matter what anyone said, I should trust him until he clears things up. Was I in denial? Maybe. But what if he was innocent, and these women were playing me? Our bond shouldn't break so easily just because people don't want us to be happy
"You decided that I should have Ian's babies, and so you did shit without talking to me even once?"Why am I even surprised? I should definitely get her removed from my room right away."I did what's best for you. You are so pea-brained, it makes me wonder if you were really born to me. Didn't you see how your aunt wanted you out of this contract in a year? She wants Julia to get her chance as the Prince's mistress.""I am not worried about what she wants or doesn't. Let's talk about what you did without my consent.""Do you even hear yourself? Our folks would trade an arm and a leg to be where you are, and you don't know a thing about how to keep what you got. Be nice to the Queen and the future Duchess. You don't want them plotting and scheming against you.""Future Duchess, huh! So the plotting and scheming vamps didn't include you in their plans and lies?""What are you talking about?""Apparently, Ian got married to her last week
I packed my stuff to be ready when Noah could sneak me out, wondering if I should take any of my pretty dresses with me. I bought them with Ian's money, but they look too pretty to be left behind.Was this part of his plan? To get me carried away by all things rich and beautiful, so I got distracted and blinded about what was really going on? While I got my hair done and nails polished like a fool, he was screwing Bella.He can keep his dresses and his money. I took my earnings out of what he gave me and left the rest next to the letter. I opened the side table drawer to take something I wanted to keep with me—A picture of us in Mountbatten.It was on the day we went dog sledding and stopped for campfire lunch."It would be a crime to not capture how cute you look in this outfit," Ian pulled me into the frame when I was reluctant to pose with him and the six Siberian Huskies.He kept the other picture from the next day at dinner after t
~Ian~Just one last stop and it was time to go home. These past few days were pure agony, and I couldn't wait to be back in Nadia's arms. It was the fifth and last day without her.I stopped on my way to pay my condolences to Mason's parents. He meant more than just a field officer to me over the last four years. He was one of the best. It was less than a fortnight ago that I went to the town square with him. So young to leave us all so soon.If it was anyone else messing with Nadia in the barracks, I would have killed him right on the spot, but I couldn't get mad at him much. Besides, he told me many times he had a woman to who he never introduced me. 'I don't want her to leave me for you,' he used to joke around.It surprised me to see Lydia at his parents' house. I was even more surprised to find out that it was Lydia he was going to get married to in June."Wow! I wouldn't have believed even if he had told me.""I... I, Your Highne
~Third Person's POV~"He's going to ask me if I knew about Nadia and Noah. What should I tell him? I'm sure that's why he asked me to see him," Lydia asked her mother."What kind of stupid question is that? Nadia loves Ian and only Ian. Why wasn't I aware of this Noah's existence until today? That idiot girl!""But I don't want to lie to him. Nadia did meet Noah. I saw her get dressed to meet him in secret once. I'm sure it was him, but she wanted to protect his identity.""So what? Even if Nadia slept with Noah, you will still tell Ian she only loves him. Is that clear?""He trusts me. He considers us family because of Nadia. I feel like lying would only complicate things even more.""How is this little truth going to help the situation? I am getting tired of you girls and your stupidity. I warned Nadia over and over to stop acting on an impulse. Look at what happened now. Not sure if she's even alive.""I won't tell him then."
~Nadia~Sadness, aching and hurt engulfed me for days. After spending three days in Ivaris, it dawned on me that Ian would not come for me, ever. Why would he? All his predicaments must have been automatically resolved once I left.After screaming and thrashing and wailing for days together, the pain still stayed. The only silver lining was the support I got from Noah's grandparents. This is all I ever wanted from my mother instead of those disapproving banters for not being on the same level with her constantly scheming mind."The pain doesn't stop my dear. You just learn to cope. The important thing to help you heal is that you acknowledge the pain but not let it overcome you." His grandma said witha sad smile on her face."How can I think about healing? There's no more hope left for us.""Trust me when I say you will be fine. You will slowly put it all behind."Do I really want to put Ian behind and forget about him? I can never get
"Nadia! What are you doing?" Granny stepped into my room with a frown on her face."I can't decide if I should let Ian know about the baby.""Can't decide would be an understatement," she said, picking the mess I made.I was sprawled out on the floor in my nightclothes amid dozens of crumpled unfinished letters to Ian. Would he care about the baby? I definitely didn't want one, at least not this soon.An unmarried pregnant girl!There was only one time when a courtesan got pregnant despite taking birth control. Prince Damian took no responsibility. In fact, he threatened to kill her if she kept the baby. Her family banished her, and she was forced to live somewhere away from the community. No one heard from her again."Granny, if I don't tell anyone about this and give the baby up for adoption, will someone take it?""I doubt it. There are countless homeless children on the streets. Foster cares and orphanages are not reli
"Let me guess. You want to continue working at the coffee shop?" The Prince asked."Y-yes, Your Highness. If you could be so kind to--""Sorry, we are not hiring," the new owner cut me off."Please. I swear I make the best coffee in this area and you don't even have to pay me much."The Prince replied rudely. "All we can pay you right now is a penny. We are trying to restore the economy by generating profits from small businesses. We can't let the employees suck up all the revenue we generate."What does he mean by 'restore the economy' when it is the common people who make up the biggest chunk of that economy and we are suffering right now? How does letting a new coffee shop owner get rich help the economy? What does this Prince smoke to be so stupid? It is the King who is sucking up all the revenue and even these small businesses managed by them will be in their own interest."Are you saying the coffee will make itself, Your Highness