SASHA POV
My heart and mind are literally at war. Everything in me says to stand tall and walk away. My lycan and Alpha blood are unyielding towards my mate. But my heart feels like it is already in his hand. He can easily crush it some more or repair it.
I scrub the citrus scent shampoo into my hair and sigh at finally cleansing my body of the rogues' filthy blood. It surprises me that killing so many wolves in a short time frame hasn't bothered me. I mean, I have tortured threats to my home pack as part of my training, but I have never killed before this week.
I think over all the males I have ended. I try to find some kind of remorse over my actions, but I find none. They were evil men and gave a bad name to the werewolf species. But still, shouldn't I be sad that I took so many lives.
Natalia- That's what makes us an Alpha. We must do what is right no matter the
BEN POV "You did good," Chels says, and I grin. "I'm going to take her to Marshal's. I think she will like it. Plus, the way they have their booths set up is cozy and private. We have a lot to talk about," I say while I shift through my closet. Chelsea closes the box she is filling and sits down on the bed we have been sharing for three years. She looks down with a frown, and I stop moving hangers. "What's wrong," I ask as I lean against the closets' door frame. I fold my arms and wait. Chelsea looks around. What was once our room and sighs?"Do you think Roland could become a part of White Crest," Chelsea asks, and I pull my eyebrows together. "Sure, I mean he would have to denounce membership to the royal pack, but that shouldn't be a problem," I say sincerely."If Sasha accepts you....
SASHA POV"Table for two," Ben says, and the human females nods.She gives us an easy smile before collecting two menus and escorting us to a cozy-looking booth."Is this okay," she asks"This is perfect, thank you," Ben says.The hostess blushes slightly but doesn't even look towards my mate as she places the menus on the table. "Smart human." I sit down and look around the quaint restaurant. I like it. The lights are dim, and the decor is very rustic.I can feel Ben's gaze as he watches my expression, but I avoid eye contact. I'm nervous. So nervous. I have never been on a date, and I have rarely dined out. Although my parents can't cook, I can. I also taught Ethan how to find his way around a kitchen. So since my life has consisted of nothing exciting, I usually cook dinner for my family."Hi, my name is David. I will be taking care of you thi
SASHA POV The past ten days have dragged by. Yesterday, the young members gave us their opinion of my training course and overall it was mostly positive. A few felt as if my beginning level was a bit too advanced, so I will be altering that. But everyone 15 and up loved it. Chelsea is taking me shopping today, and tomorrow is supposed our last day in White Crest. Ben and I haven't really spoken since our dinner date. Natalia has been growing weaker and weaker, but I am still undecided. My brain has gone over so many different variables. The fact that accepting Ben means accepting his past and tying myself to White Crest doesn't sit well with me. I have spent the past 18 years tied to Riverstone. This is the first pack I have visited outside of home. Do I really want to tie myself down to another pack immediately? Do I want to cut my tour and become a Luna? Is Ben worth sacrificing my free
SASHA POVExcitement hits me like a ton of bricks as I wash my body with my citrus body wash. Chelsea should be here in about thirty minutes to start helping me get ready. Natalia is in high spirits, and I can't help but smile at her.I let her take an extra-long run this morning since this is the best she has felt in days. Ben had seen me returning to the packhouse, but we hadn't spoken to each other. I had tried to smile at him, but he had turned away too quickly. I know I have hurt him, but tonight, I will fix it. I will apologize for not hearing him out. I will try to move on and forgive him for his past mistakes. A mate is sacred, and I shouldn't give mine up so easily. I shouldn't give up before we even begin.Luis- Your Father called.Sasha- I will call him when I get out of the shower.**************"Riverstone Jason speaking," my dad answers, and I smile."Hey, dad," I say, and I hear dad switch
BEN POV"Ben, you need to ease up, man," Vince whispers harshly as he grabs my arm.I snarl and jerk away from him. This is the best I have felt in almost two weeks. My body feels light and not sluggish... My attention drifts, and my eyes begin to watch the flames as they lick at the logs."Ben, you know what drinking does. The doctor told you never to drink again. Ben, listen, man, that shit is going to mess with your brain injury. You need to be sharp," Vince says harshly, and once again, I growl.Ace and I need relief. How does he not get it? My mate is most likely going to reject me tonight."Mates.....I need this. We both are mateless," I slur while poking Vince in the chest. My brain puts together the fact that we both will be mateless.Vince immediately freezes, and his head drops slightly. Guilt hits me. I hurt my best bud."Hey man, it's
BEN POV I groan loudly as I roll over. My head feels like it is splitting. My body feels like it was run over by a bus. I manage to make it to the restroom on autopilot. I empty the tank and head to the sink to wash my hands. When I see my face in the mirror, shock floods my system. I look like warmed-over death. My eyes are bloodshot, and my skin is deathly pale. My under eyes look like I haven't slept in years. What the hell happened last night?Ben- Vince.............Ben- Ace............ My links fail, and panic floods my system. Where the hell is my wolf?Ben- ACE? ACE? I run out of my room and sniff the air, but nothing comes to my nose. No scents. That isn't right. There should be pack members in the house. I sprint to my office, but my pace is human slow.
SASHA POV I sigh as I fold another shirt. Tomorrow we leave Blue Hill. This pack has been nice, but I'm just not into it. Natalia and I can't stop thinking about Ben. It doesn't help that he calls Chelsea's phone every other day. Luis and Roland have been worried about me since my fighting has been weak. But I don't know how to find that spark again. It's like I am lifeless. I don't feel the pain like I did when he hurt my feelings.......I'm just kind of numb. My cell rings, and I glance at the number. Mom. "Hey, mom," I answer, trying to sound happy and not exhausted. "Hey honey, do you have a minute," mom asks, and I get a little worried. "Yes, I'm not doing anything important, just packing," I answer, and she sighs. "What's wrong," I ask, pausing my movements. "White Crest is falling apar
SASHA POV I stare at Ace's mark with mixed emotions. Part of me is happy that I am claimed. My mate and I are halfway to being whole. But the other part of me is worried. Ben and I haven't truly spoken since our disaster of a date. I will admit it is pretty, though. It isn't complete, but it looks like I will have Ben's initials in White Crest colors, which is a typical wolf mark. I finish putting up my hair, and I change into my running outfit. I don't know what the plan is today because last night I ran from the room after Luis assaulted Ben. I don't know if Ben plans to hold a ceremony to be reinstated as Alpha or what. I don't even know what my plan is. Last night was one impulsive decision after another. I jog down the steps, and Ben's scent hits me in the face. My nerves instantly begin to make me feel sick. Is it normal to be this n