Dark obsession

In a world where no one loved me, you were the only one willing to stay with me. In my life filled with boundless darkness only you were the source of lightning. You were more important to me than my own flesh and blood, but you still chose to leave me.

I was blind, I agree. I was unable to see the love in your eyes, because of my own guilt I never really tried to know your feelings. I was a coward who was afraid that if you know my feelings, you'll think I'm disgusting.

A coward who was not able to save you, who failed your expectations as a brother, a guradian and your only closest blood relative. If only I had tried to take a step towards you, should that tragedy never had happened.

If only I knew that you my dearest sister loved me as much as I loved you and suffered because of that love, suffered because of my ignorance you would not have died.

I failed to protect you as a brother, and I failed to recognise your feelings as a lover. God has give