Chapter 4- Nadia

I leave Maddox’s office as quickly as I can. I can’t stand being around his mom and uncle. They make me uneasy. I’d rather deal with Olga or any of the other slaves or servants than deal with Maddox’s family. His father wasn’t too bad, he was simply scary. His cousin, Elliot, isn’t horrible, but I don’t trust him. Elliot is all about earning approval from his family. While he might be the Beta to the pack, he’s left living in Maddox’s shadow. 

Heading to the kitchen I grab our meals and then head back to Maddox. I know he will be eating in his office tonight as he does most nights. He likes to avoid family dinners or dining with the warriors. One thing I’ve learned about my Alpha is that he values his privacy. 

I can’t blame him, he barely gets a moment's peace with all the political nonsense he has to deal with, his family up his ass, pack members wanting his attention and females trying to make their way to his bed. Strangely, I seem to be the only one who doesn’t get on the Alpha’s nerves, or maybe it’s because I know how to respect him and not annoy the hell out of him. 

I still can’t believe he offered me to shower in his personal bathroom. I’m not sure how I feel about it. I don’t know why he would do something so nice. I was already thinking of bathing in a lake, or river. We have a few nearby in the woods. A bar as soap is all I need and I could somewhat freshen up. It’s not ideal as an actual shower, but I grew up bathing in rivers. I know how to make it work. 

However, I’m not sure I can say no to the Alpha even if I wanted to. He’s being generous with letting me using his shower. How can I turn him down? He’s always been so nice to me. He’s a good master. Out of all the people who could have purchased me that day, I got lucky. I was never one to really believe in the moon goddess because as rogues we were taught she only favoured pack wolves and that rogues were forsaken to her. If that was true then how come I ended up with a wonderful master. 

It’s insane to have feelings for my master, but I can’t help it. He’s attractive and nice to me. It’s more than that though. There is something about him that draws me to him, some pull I can’t explain. Maybe I’m losing it. Either way, tonight I’ll end up in the Alpha’s chambers to shower and the anticipation that there might be something more happening than a shower excites me. 

Maddox has gone to great lengths to insure I stay a virgin. I’m not sure he’s aware that I know he threatened all the males in the packhouse and whoever comes across my path that I’m to remain untouch. My biggest theory is that the Alpha wants me for himself, but he’s never made a move to indicate he wants me sexually. Well, other than his stares filled with desire. Perhaps he’s waiting for me to turn eighteen which I did a few months ago. I wouldn’t say no to him. I know even if I have a mate that he won’t want a rogue slave, he will just reject me. So, might as well let the sexy Alpha who is also my master show me a good time. 

I need to think straight and get my horny ass in line. I have no idea if that’s what he wants with me and even if he does I dont know how I’ll react. I doubt I’ll be sexy about it. I’ll most likely make a fool of myself, but I guess tonight will be the test. The Alpha will have me in his room at night, if he is going to take me, tonight would be the night. 

First, we have to get through dinner and hope that his family is gone by the time I get back. After we eat then perhaps I will find out if the Alpha wants me like I want him. We woudln’t be the first master and rogue slave to have sex, and I doubt we would be the last. Antcipation and excitement build with in me as I take our food to his office. 

When I enter, I find his family gone, but the Alpha looks a little irritated. I set the food down on his desk and give him a warm smile. 

“Thank you, Nadia.” 

“Of course, Alpha.” 

“Let’s eat then we will go up stairs, you need to shower tonight.” He informs me as he takes a bite out of his fairly raw steak. 

“As you wish, Alpha.” I watch his eyes dilate with desire.

 If anything his wolf wants me. Unfortunately, I won’t get my wolf till I”m twenty-one, or unless I find my mate before then, but I’m not holding out hope for my mate. A mate’s mark will awaken an underage wolf. I guess I’ll be waiting another three years before I get my wolf. 

“Eat, it’s important that you eat, Nadia. I know they hold meals from you when they can. That’s all going to change soon, I promise.” His tone is serious. 

I want to argue with him, but I don’t. The tone of his voice and the seriousness of his voice makes me wonder if there is more to it than the Alpha desiring me in his bed. It can’t be though. I’m hoping for something that isn’t there. It’s better to enjoy the sex and leave the emotions out of it, if that’s possible. 

We eat in silence both of us lost in our own thoughts. When we are done, I go to collect our plates and take them to the kitchen, but Maddox stops me. 

“Leave it, I’ve already mind linked someone to come get it.” 

He stands from his desk and offers me his hand, I take it as he leads me to his bedroom. I can’t help the jitter of anticipation and the flutters of excitement that course through me. I don’t know why I’m wanting him so badly, why I’m drawn to him, but somehow I have a feeling I’m about to find out.