A Mother's Silent War.

ERYN

“Luna, your son has been diagnosed with MCD, otherwise known as Metaphase Collapse Disorder.” The instant the words left the doctor's mouth, it felt like a huge weight had been dropped onto my lap and I didn't even realize I had begun crying until I felt hot liquid run down my face.

“What? I mean, No. No, that's not possible.” I disputed, vehemently shaking my head as I turned to stare at my son, unconscious with tubes and wires attached all over his body.

“Luna—” The doctor began, his voice smooth and savoury with a pitiful look etched on his face but I was having none of that as my eyes blurred with tears.

“No!” I said sternly.

“Something must have gone wrong, redo the tests. You must have made a mistake. He's from an Alpha bloodline, not just his father's lineage but mine as well. We’re both healthy too but so there's no way some obscure illness…” I trailed off as the words got caught up in my throat and the doctor placed a hand on my shoulders, soothing me.

“I know it's hard to process right now, Luna. But we already ran the tests over and over again and the results are the same. It usually occurs to young pups who are extremely gifted and awaken their wolf earlier than usual.” He handed me a manila envelope filled with scan results and lab charts, cold and clinical proof of the nightmare that had just begun.

“Oh my goodness.” I choked, letting the tears streamed down.

“Luna, this could equate to good news but there's an experimental inhibitor on trial. I could push to have Niko undergo it and from there on, we have to wait for a miracle.” The doctor informed me.

“Mom..” Niko stirred, calling out softly and I immediately turned my back to him, trying to wipe off my tears.

“Are you crying? Am I gonna die?” He questioned and I turned to him smiling softly.

“Of course not, why would you say that? The doctor only said you'll experience your shift soon, you should be excited.” I admonished, moving closer to him and ruffled his hair while placing a soft kiss on his forehead.

“Really? That means I'll be able to help Dad protect you from the big bad wolves who bully you.” He chirped happily and seeing how much that meant to him broke me to my core.

I just couldn't wrap my head around the fact that soon, he'd be gone as well. If there was something I could do to stop it, I'd give my life for it.

I had left Westonvale for Veloria for marriage, left my home and everything there but right now, that marriage was on the verge of collapse and the only thing holding me together, Niko, was also going to wither right in front of me.

The moon goddess isn't fair, I didn't deserve any of this.

Niko, especially, didn't deserve to undergo all this pain, he was just a baby.

“You're going to be fine and ready to go home soon, alright?” I stated and he nodded, smiling brightly and happily.

“Can we go for a camping trip before my first shift? You, me and dad? If that's okay with you?” He finally questioned and I clenched my teeth together trying to keep up the happy look.

The way he picked his words carefully whenever he wanted to request something which he rarely did, he shouldn't be doing that.

He didn't have to experience all the broken home wars and everything else he had to see.

My poor baby.

“Of course, just you rest now and we'd be free to go anywhere else later. Mommy wants to go get something and she'd be back soon, okay?” He nodded in understanding and I picked up my bag and walked out of the ward.

Immediately the door to the ward locked, all the tears I had been trying to suppress began pouring down and it seemed like I was experiencing a mini heart attack as it felt impossible to breathe.

I kept gasping for air, I couldn't breathe, I couldn't think. Every breath I drew in felt like fire down my veins.

I had gotten to a turn in the hallway and I let myself fall to my feet there with my back pressed to the wall. I let the tears run free as I mindlinked Torren.

“Hey Torren, umm, do you think you'd be able to create a little time to go on a camping trip with Niko…?” I questioned though somewhere deep inside of my heart, I already knew what the answer would be, “He really wants to do that before his first shift.”

The first shift that would claim his life in death if a miracle wasn't wrought faster, I wanted to say that but I decided to leave it out. He didn't need to know now.

“The way you cook up schemes just to delay the acceptance of the divorce is quite charming but not impressive. I can't have you stalling, Saela’s back and I wouldn't want her to think that I would choose someone like you over—” He was saying but I had already heard those words over and over again so I cut him off.

It had been repeated too much, I already had it rehearsed by heart and it was all my fault. I shouldn't have let the temptation years ago overwhelm me.

Till this day, Torren still believes that I climbed into his bed that night willingly and on purpose after his childhood sweetheart, Seala suddenly disappeared.

And when the result of that one night stand came on to be a baby, I was blamed for it.

I knew for a fact that if not for his grandfather, I would have been discarded years ago even before I gave birth to Niko and I had clung on because of Niko.

But now? Saela is back. He didn't even want this marriage to begin what so I was being discarded. There was absolutely no point to hold on even though I knew from the very first moment we met that he was my mate.

“I'd accept the divorce but it would only be effective after Niko's shift. Until then, you have to be a good father to him.” I snapped, my voice cracking in tears and there was a huge pause through the link. It was as though he wasn't expecting me to accept the divorce.

“Then come to City hall, we would put that down in writing but I need those papers signed.” He ordered.

“I'm on my way.” I cut off the mindlink as I let myself, bend there and cry my eyes out.

Few minutes later, I decided I was done crying. I had already cried for three years, it was okay not to cry anymore now. All I had to do was make sure my son was fulfilled before anything would happen to him while awaiting a miracle.

I ordered an Uber and in a few minutes, I was on my way to city hall.

Stepping out of the Uber, I caught sight of Beta Kael walking towards me.

“I didn't actually think you'd come. Saela's inside with him.” Of course she is. I straightened my shoulders hoping that I wouldn't make them see how broken I was inside as I stepped inside of the hall.

“Kael, I already accepted the divorce. You don't have to worry about me, I'm fine.” I pulled off a small smile and he opened up his arms for a hug while my eyes suddenly felt itchy.

I can't cry! Not now, not today anymore. I moved in for the hug because truthfully I needed it and a few seconds later, I detached and walked in.

“Just for the record, all the three years you've lived with Eryn, you've never loved her or felt something for her even once?” I heard someone questioning as I was about to walk into the office.

“How could I feel anything for her? She schemed against me, took advantage of my father's dying wish. I could never. The only person I've ever thought of loving and loved is Saela here.” The walls around my heart cracked and I saw my wolf at the back of my head seated with fallen ears while she howled in pain.