My husband, Alpha Hunter, carefully cradled a rogue girl in his arms, right in front of the whole pack, as if she were the most precious treasure.
I never imagined he would treat me with such tenderness. After all, I had never even been publicly known as his wife. So, like the other pack members, I could only watch this scene, reminding myself to keep my face neutral and stand up straight—rather than showing any signs of jealousy.
“Get the doctor. Now!” Hunter shouted over his shoulder.
The new rogue girl named Maya was hurt, and badly. A huge violet bruise bloomed on the her ankle. Her legs were marred by scratches: a still-bleeding spiderweb pattern of injuries.
The voice of Hunter was gruff and loud, but not as steady as usual. I didn’t think the other pack members would notice the difference from his usual even, commanding tone. But I did.
He was angry, but he was also afraid.
I didn’t look away from the scene, but rustling behind us indicated his order was being followed. He waited, cradling Maya in his muscular arms. His brow was furrowed and expression concerned as he looked down at her face.
Hunter gently laid Maya on the flat ground as the doctor arrived. He started his examination swiftly and carefully, touching her limbs to assess her wounds.
A thready wail escaped Maya’s gritted teeth. It sounded pitiful, but real. I wasn’t sure if she was afraid or in pain or both, but she was suffering.
“Stop. You’re hurting her,” Hunter spat, shouldering the doctor away from Maya’s injured legs.
“I have to find the source of the bleeding,” the doctor replied. “I’m being as gentle as possible.” His voice was calm, but his eyes were wary at the Alpha’s commanding voice.
“Get away from her,” Hunter growled. The doctor obeyed, stumbling to his feet and moving briskly away.
Hunter began bandaging the worst of the cuts. He moved slowly, with a whisper light touch that seemed at odds with his powerful body. I thought I saw his lips moving, too. Was he whispering comfort to her while he worked?
I shook my head to focus. I should help.
I knelt down beside them and reached across to help him clean one of her cuts. He batted my hand away.
“I’ve got it,” he spat gruffly and returned to his bandaging. His hands were shaking as they applied the gauze.
I opened my mouth to tell him he should let me help, but was worried my voice would come out wrong: shaky, or too-loud. Not my usual brisk, calm tone.
Besides, arguing with him wouldn’t be behavior befitting the pack’s Chief Delta. And complaining certainly wouldn’t be in keeping with the persona of ruthless competence I was known for.
I looked around at the other pack members. I half expected to see my shock reflected on their faces. I’d never seen him touch a woman in public, as long as I’d known him.
Hunter had always held himself at a distance from the opposite sex. He believed romantic entanglements were more trouble than they were worth.
Still, females absolutely threw themselves at him. They always had.
I remembered how I used to be amused by watching it. The women were so desperate, and he was so obviously not interested. He used to make this face that was a combination of disgust and detachment.
Even after we were married, it didn’t bother me. I knew he’d always be loyal to me.
But he’d never looked at any of those other women the way he was looking at Maya now.
I’d been in love with him for years. It was painful, but at least there was the comfort of knowing that if he wasn’t with me, he wasn’t with anyone else either.
When he finally noticed me, it hadn’t been romance or lust, but that I was different from the others. I was competent, obedient, and dedicated. So he married me and promoted me to his chief delta.
As a powerful Alpha, second only to the Alpha King, one of the few things Hunter was lacking was an official Luna for the pack. And werewolves had long held the belief that only packs formed by fated mates were strong.
I’d always thought it was ridiculous. It’s not like Hunter needed some ancient magic of destiny to be a good Alpha. He inspired the pack’s loyalty because of who he was.
But we’d kept our marriage secret. We couldn’t risk anyone suggesting that the pack was weak because it lacked a Luna. Besides, Hunter was a strong candidate to join the Alpha Council, but he’d never be chosen if there was any doubt about the pack’s loyalty.
Hunter finished the treatment. His hands stilled, but he didn’t move. He continued to stare down at Maya.
The emotions flurried between them, almost visible in the air. His gaze was protective, like he was looking at a priceless thing he couldn’t imagine losing. Maya was looking at him like she was seeing the stars for the first time.
The expression in her eyes felt familiar to me. The admiration and awe written on her face were how I felt about Hunter, too.
She looked up at him from under lashes still clumpy and wet with tears. She spoke shyly. Her voice was high and soft, but still slightly croaky:
“Does your pack have a Luna?”
I held my breath until he spoke, though I knew what he was going to say.
“We do not,” Hunter replied. There was something else in his expression now. Lust was warring with soft protectiveness. Looking at them was making me feel ill.
I couldn’t watch any longer. I cleared my throat and stepped forward.
I could feel the pack’s eyes on me. Their stares felt warm on my back. It seemed like I was moving in slow motion.
“Maya, I will be responsible for your follow-up as our newest member.” I was pleased that my voice came out steady: brusque and decisive.
The tension in the air around us was thick. The pack members must feel the power of the confrontation.
Even if they didn’t know we were married, they knew I was Hunter’s right hand. They knew I was more than a Chief Delta. I was the only female he trusted. The most loyal member.
The pack members speculated about our relationship. Of course they did.
They knew we were close, and wondered what I was to him. I pretended to close my ears to their theories, but I heard them.
But I’d never spoken out of turn before. Never overstepped. It was the Luna’s job to settle new members, though, and I’d just confidently suggested that I was going to do it. It was as close as I’d ever come to declaring what I was to Hunter.
Maya’s eyes were still shy. But I thought I saw a knowing expression behind her wariness.
“Oh, are you the female leader of the pack?”
I opened my mouth to reply, but Hunter spoke quickly, firmly.
“No. She’s Chief Delta, no more. I have no mate.”
His words were an arrow: fast and sharp as they stuck in my chest.
“There’s no difference,” Hunter said. His voice was still icy, his dark eyes still hooded.I felt a pit open in my chest. I was empty and numb, but at the same time raw and exposed. My physical symptoms weren’t helping either.As we’d been talking, the nausea and headaches that were becoming more and more constant had worsened.I couldn’t go on like this much longer. Neither my heart nor my body could take it.“Why not just reject me and divorce me now?” My voice sounded more pleading than I would have liked. Like I was begging him. I wanted to continue talking. To tell him I couldn’t go on like this because it was breaking my heart.Instead I kept my face still and tried not to cry. Or throw up.His face didn’t change.“This matter is under my control. You just need to follow my orders. After all, I chose you because you know your place and make things easier for me. Or is it that you’ve found someone else and want to get divorced?”Every time I thought he couldn’t break me any more
Leo recovered first.He dropped my hand and walked toward the bench.“Hey guys,” he said brightly, waving a hand limply at Hunter and Maya. “We were about to head back to the office. Shall we debrief my trip and the new member initiation ceremony plans in 10 minutes?”Hunter didn’t respond.Maya cleared her throat and piped up, eyes bright.“I promise I won’t tell anyone about you two.”She looked pleased with herself. Probably relieved at the thought of me being interested in anyone besides Hunter. And probably eager to do me a “favor” and make sure she was back in my good books after her outburst.Leo looked toward Hunter, who still hadn’t moved or spoken.“Oh, Kara and I are just friends,” he said, addressing Maya. “We’ve just known each other a long time. She’s always been clumsy, too.” He smirked, playfully punching my upper arm.Maya raised her eyebrows. She didn’t look convinced.“Oh, okay, I just thought—” she started. Hunter cut across her.“Kara, I need to see you in my offi
She was staring at me intently. I felt itchy with her gaze.I reached up and brushed my hair behind my ear, subtly adjusting the collar of my blouse to cover my neck as I brought my hand back to my side.Her eyes followed my hand. They snapped back up to my neck. She grimaced.“I know it’s none of my business,” she said in a small voice. “But it’s making me crazy not knowing.”“You know how people like to gossip,” I replied flatly.She nodded slowly. I had a feeling she knew I was being evasive, but was still too intimidated to ask a follow-up question.Maybe I could distract her with work. And flattery.“Anyway, this is good work.” I lifted the hand still holding the papers she’d given me. “Real improvement. Next, could you—”Her eyes skittered away toward the door, which I heard open with a click. She looked back to me. Then back, mouth opening very slightly, toward the door.“Hey, Kares.” The voice was a warm, wry tenor.I smiled, distracted from my awkward interaction with Maya, a
HunterI leaned over Maya, trying not to get too close. Trying not to fall even harder at the way she narrowed her gorgeous eyes to squint at the supply list. The wrinkle in her nose as she concentrated, wanting to please me.The way she needed me. I adjusted my body so our arms weren’t touching. I felt an electric current of energy radiating between our skin.I wanted her.I gritted my teeth. It was infuriating that she undid me like this. I’d never wanted to feel this way.But I wouldn’t act on it. Not until she was older.I startled as she stood up quickly. Her chair fell backward and she whipped her head toward the doorway. My eyes followed hers. Kara was standing in the hallway, looking in. Her face was impassive. Blank. Why was she just standing there? As soon as I wondered, though, she moved silently away.Emotionless.“Oh no,” Maya said breathlessly. “I think she was just starting to like me. I hope she doesn’t misunderstand.”I narrowed my eyes and hardened my tone to re
In other circumstances I would be delighted with Hunter’s trust in me.Now it just felt cruel.“Consider it done,” I said brusquely.He looked at me, his eyes slightly bright.With desire?He reached his hand halfway across the desk toward me, then dropped it and cleared his throat.I stood before he could speak. If he was attracted to me at this moment because of my calm competence, that would be extremely irritating. Especially since being needed seemed to turn him on so much when it came to Maya.I didn’t let him say anything, just walked quickly from his office and straight to Maya’s desk.“Hi,” I said quickly. “I have a task for you. Can you come into the conference room?”She leapt to her feet, nodding furiously.I thought she looked determined, like she was desperate to prove herself to me.“Okay, I need you to organize these purchase lists for the new member supplies. You’ll be helping me with preparations for the new member initiation ceremony.”Maya nodded. She didn’t questi
She looked hurt and baffled. I wanted to open my mouth to explain.“Idle gossip,” I whispered softly. She nodded.I grappled with an emotion that was convoluted, but becoming more familiar by the day.Feeling sorry for her and myself at the same time.Wishing we could both be happy, but knowing we never could be at the same time.I smiled at Maya, cleared my throat, and walked briskly into the break room.“That’s enough,” I said coldly.Laila and Elle both looked down toward their feet.“Get back to work,” I said quickly. I spoke quietly in part because the nausea was threatening to overtake me. But my voice sounded tense and authoritative. They nodded and immediately exited the room.I peered around the doorframe after they left and waved Maya into the break room. She collected her medicine from a cabinet, and I wordlessly offered her a cup for water.She filled it, looking like she was about to cry.“I feel so useless compared to you,” she said in a small voice. “Everyone hates me.