Thankfully Daniel completely understood why my mum had acted the way she did, and he says heโs well and truly scared of her. Now itโs my turn to meet his mum and Iโm feeling extremely nervous. I sit and play with Izzy while we wait for her to arrive. My babies are with Dylan, itโs only a week until Christmas and Iโm ecstatic that Christmas falls on my weekend this year.Danielโs house is decorated beautifully with handmade creations, you can see what a wonderfully doting father he is.Daniels mum arrives. Izzy runs to the door to greet her, โNanny!โโHello sweetheart, are you having a nice weekend?โโYeah, Iโm playing with Rosieโs mummyโ,Daniel walks his mum into the living room, I stand up to greet her.โMum this is Alice, Alice this is Anne, my mumโ,I put my hand out to greet her, โplease shake my handโ, I think to myself,โNice to meet youโ I say as she takes my hand to shake, โyes, success!โAnne looks me up and down, โHelloโ she replies and then walks into the kitchen. Anne ign
Iโm waiting for Dylan to pick the children up and I know Iโm going to get an ear full from him about seeing me with Daniel earlier but he needs to get used to it because Daniel isnโt going anywhere.I hear his car pull up, so I call the children downstairs. I open the door and just as I expected, Dylan looks furious.โWhat the fuck does that prick think heโs doing putting his arm round you!โ he shouts, his face red and askew.โCan you please keep your voice down, the children will hear youโ,โI donโt give a shit, not him, anyone but himโ,โYou donโt even know him and you donโt get to choose who I can and cannot date. Donโt forget this relationship ended because you were sleeping with Stacey. Iโve moved on, you need to as wellโ. Iโm feeling terrified and my voice is shaky but Iโm proud of myself for sticking up for me. Dylan steps into the house and puts his face right up to mine,โI swear to Godโ he spits through his gritted teeth, โif you keep seeing him, I will fucking kill him and
Thankfully Danielโs neighbours had noticed the flames quickly and called the fire fighters before the fire caused any damage internally, so he and Izzy still have a home to go back to. Iโm disgusted at Dylans behaviour, he could have killed an innocent man and child. Stupidly I didnโt screenshot his messages, so I have no proof it was him to offer to the police. I donโt know whatโs going on in his head, but I know what I must do. I need to break up with Daniel.Iโm devastated, but itโs the only way to keep him and Izzy safe. I canโt tell Daniel about Dylans threats as I know heโll never accept that breaking up is the right thing to do.I tell Daniel I need to drive the children to school the next morning as I have an appointment with their headteacher and asked if we could meet afterwards. I informed the head of Dylanโs actions, and the school is aware that under no circumstances is Dylan allowed to collect the children, and if he is seen they are to call the police immediately. I als
Itโs been months and Dylan is still on the run. It has been an extremely trying time. Iโve tried to pull myself together for the sake of the children and have started working again, however I am a nervous wreck. Any time I hear noises outside my house, I panic, thinking it could be Dylan. Iโve been driving the children to and from school every day so thereโs no risk of us bumping into him on the journey. When I pull up at home, I run from the car to the house and triple check everything is locked. The police are still searching for him, but theyโve had no sites whatsoever.My mum has stepped up and visited often, I hate seeing the worry in her eyes.โYou need to get away darlingโ she had said the last time she visited, โlet me take the children away for a while in the summer hols, and you get yourself a well-deserved breakโ.Sheโs aware of the reason why I had to break up with Daniel and seeโs how much it still hurts. Iโve managed to avoid him most days on the school runs, he keeps hi
Waking up the next morning, I feel rough, my head is pounding, and my face feels wet, actually, my whole body feels wet. I open my eyes, and Iโm covered in damp tent. I hear the lads outside giggling.โLiana are you awake?โโmmmmโโThose dickhead boys have pulled all the pegs out of our tent!โ Liana attempts to sit up, but weโre lost inside the wet material. We struggle around trying to find the zip to get out of the tent and the laughter from outside gets louder.โYou wait till weโre out of hereโ shouts Liana โIโm going to hunt you down!โI feel like hiding in my sleeping bag for the rest of the day. Iโm tempted to message Daniel to see how heโs doing. I just want to know that heโs ok, itโs driving me crazy not speaking to him.Liana seeโs me staring at my phone,โwhatโs up chick?โโI just want to know that heโs ok. My heart didnโt hurt like this when I found out about Dylanโs affair. I feel like mine and Daniels paths crossed for a reasonโ,โSo, tell him why you had to break up with
I wake up the next day nestled into Daniels arms. I watch his chest rise and fall as heโs breathing, still fast asleep. This is the best sleep Iโve had in months. I feel calm and content. The police have finally caught Dylan and Iโm back where I belong, lying in bed with Daniel.I finally feel like we can move on from all the drama and negativity and I can see a light at the end of the tunnel. Last night Daniel and I spent hours talking about where we want our relationship to go, we feel like we have so much time to make up for and this time thereโs nothing and no one standing in our way.Weโre going to tell the children that weโre together when they get back from their holiday with Grandma and if that goes well, we desperately want to move in together. As my house is bigger than Danielโs we would live here to start with, but because this house holds a lot of bad memories, we are going to look at moving as soon as possible. I can see us making a lot of new happy memories here though a
Daniel:Alice calls me over to the front door. To my shock and disgust I see Hailey standing in the doorway. I never thought Iโd have to see her again. Iโm full of hatred for this woman because of how she treated me and for leaving Izzy without a mum. Seeing her there now makes me feel sick, I donโt want this woman anywhere near Alice or the children, sheโs pure toxicity.โIโll leave you to itโ says Alice as she walks back into the living room, shooting me a look of concern.โWhat do you want?โโNice to see you too! Iโd like to see our daughter thank you very muchโ,โHailey, you left, you donโt get to walk back into Izzyโs life whenever it suits youโ,โSheโs MY daughter, I can do what I like. Iโve moved just across the road. I knocked on your door, but your old landlord was there and said youโd moved here. Nice of you to let me know youโd moved on!โโI donโt need to tell you anything, we havenโt seen you in yearsโโ,โYes, well sheโs still my daughter and my other children are now enro
I donโt know what Daniel has been through with Hailey but seeing him so angry and stressed with her sudden arrival is starting to upset me, so God only knows how he must be feeling right now. After we settle the children into bed, we snuggle up on the sofa and I decide to see if he will open up and talk about it because I think he is about ready to burst.โDaniel, are you ok? You seem really stressed and anxious right now. I know itโs none of my business but if you want to talk about what happened between you and Hailey, Iโm here for you, no judgement. Bottling things up can really mess with your mental health.โA silence falls between us which is a first as we are always laughing and joking around with each other. I can see his face going red, tears welling up in his eyes and Iโm starting to wonder if I did the right thing in asking. The silence is broken when Daniel takes a deep breath and says,โAre you sure you want me to tell you? This Iโm sure is going to upset you and I donโt w
Daniel is clearly devastated after I tell him what Rosie said about Hailey not wanting Izzy to be at ours anymore. He sighs and holds my hand. Weโre cuddled on the sofa and the children are finally asleep after demolishing the treats Daniel brought home for them.โI always knew this day would comeโ he says, โI knew sheโd come back and take Izzy from meโ,โWe wonโt let that happen, she is safe here and happy, she canโt turn up after youโve raised her on your own for years and then take her away from you. Weโll have to speak to a solicitorโ,โI looked into a solicitor a while back, in case this situation ever arose, itโll cost me five thousand pounds to go to court and apply for full custody of Izzy and thatโs only if things go smoothly and Hailey doesnโt put up a fight, which she will, so it could end up costing around fifteen thousand and then weโd probably end up with fifty-fifty shared custodyโ,โThatโs shit, Iโm so sorry this is all happening. Weโll make sure she doesnโt take her,
โMiss Baker, Dylan Baker has been found guilty in regard to arson with attempt to harm. He has been imprisoned for twenty-four months but can make bail after eighteen months with good behaviour. We have already contacted Mr Duggan to inform him. Once Mr Baker is released, we will re visit you to see if anything needs to be put in place to ensure your safetyโ.โThank you so much for your call, I really appreciate itโ.โNot a problem, please call us if you have any concerns or questionsโ,โThank you, good byeโ.I hang up the phone. I feel relieved but sad at the same time. Sad for my babies, how am I supposed to tell them that their dad has gone to prison. They havenโt asked about him since he was taken away, but they must be curious. They have been brave little souls.I ring Daniel to see what he thinks to the news,โHello poppet, I was just about to ring you. How are you?โHeโs so sweet, I love that heโs more concerned about how Iโm doing.โIโm ok, just worried about talking to the ch
It seems as though Iโve been silently staring into Danielโs eyes forever waiting for some kind of response, when finally, Daniel breathes a huge sigh of relief.โI thought you were breaking up with meโ he says, โIโve been worried sick all afternoonโ,โIโm so confused, why would I break up with you?โโBecause youโre too good for me, I donโt deserve such a wonderful person to be in my life. Let alone be in love with meโ,Has he even listened to anything Iโve just said to him, as if heโs been worried about me not wanting to be with him anymore, heโs perfect. Iโm the one that clearly doesnโt deserve him. Again, Iโm staring wide eyed at Daniel waiting for a response to everything I just blurted out at him.โDaniel?โHe begins to laugh out loud and I can feel my face heating up, Iโm becoming increasingly mad at him, why is he laughing at me?โIโm so sorry poppet, Iโm just so relieved, itโs like a huge weight has been lifted off my shouldersโโGood for youโ I snap back,โOh shit, Iโm so sorr
Daniel gets home in time to walk to the school with me to collect the children. I love the time we get together on the walk; he holds my hand and asks about my day. I tell him that I facetimed Liana but avoid the subject of Hailey. I know heโs going to be furious, and I want to enjoy this quiet time we have together.Itโs a warm September day and being in Daniels presence is calming, however, the closer we get to the school the more my tummy starts doing somersaults. Itโs like Daniel knows how Iโm feeling as when the school gate comes into view, he holds my hand even tighter. We walk in and the first person I see is Hailey. It looks like sheโs made friends with all the bitches of the school playground, why am I not surprised. She seeโs us enter the playground together and shoots me a dirty look, says something to her new group of friends and they all laugh. I honestly feel like Iโm back at primary school being bullied by the โpopularโ girls all over again. I had one friend at primary
Weโre busy getting the childrenโs school clothes ready for the morning. The summer holidays have gone too fast as usual. Weโve had a wonderful time together as our new family but there has been a constant feeling of anxiety in the pit of my stomach as I worry about the possibility of Daniel having another child with Hailey. Would she really have his baby and not tell him? After everything Iโve heard about her, Iโm thinking it sounds just like her. I havenโt dared speak to Daniel about it as I donโt know how this would affect him and since coming back from holiday, heโs been stressed again due to Izzy going to see her mum so often.Daniel agreed to let Izzy go to Haileyโs every other weekend, much to his dismay, this was what Izzy wanted, and he does everything in his power to make her happy.Dylanโs trial date is the day after the children go back to school. He had been released on bail under the conditions that he was not to make contact with me, the children or Daniel. If he did so,
Daniel:Itโs the second day of our family holiday and I am loving every second of it. Iโm so grateful that Alice had this idea. I canโt remember the last time I had a break, and I can already feel the weight being lifted off my shoulders.Iโve asked Alice if I can borrow Joshua for a few hours. Iโd like to spend some one-on-one time with him, so he gets the chance to know me better. I think out of all the children heโs struggled the most with the mess his dad has caused. I want him to know that Iโm not trying to step into his dadโs shoes or replace him but Iโm here for him anytime he needs me.Yesterday Joshua showed an interest in the bikes you can hire so we walk over to the hire shop to get one. As we step inside Joshua notices a wall covered in fishing gear that can also be hired.โWow, Iโve always wanted to go fishingโโAlright mate, weโll do that after our bike rideโโYes! Thank youโ.We hire a tandem bike but instead of sitting one in front of the other weโre side by side. We h
I wake up after a blissful nightโs sleep and see the room is covered in dappled light where the sun is shining through the trees. Iโm the first one awake so I quietly get up and make myself a coffee. Penelope walks over for a fuss, so I give her a big squish and then take her outside. Although itโs still early morning, the sun is warm, and I enjoy the hot coffee as I settle down on a garden chair. Penelope is sniffing around near the woodland, and I notice a deer standing dead still in the overgrowth. Iโve never been this close to a wild deer before. It's so majestic. I quietly call Penelope over before she catches the deerโs scent and as she trots over to me the deer quickly darts away.I hear little voices coming from inside the caravan, so we head back in and see Daniel with boxes and boxes of mini variety cereals trying to get all the children the one they want, it looks like chaos as theyโre all arguing over whoโs having what.โGuys, weโve got loads, donโt panic, youโll all get w
After Daniel opened up about his past, I now understand just how much Hailey affects him.โWhy donโt we all go on a family holidayโ, I suggest. โWe could stay in a caravan somewhere close to a beach, where they have childrenโs entertainment, and we can relaxโ.โDo you know what, that sounds perfectโ.We look online and find a cute little place near Great Yarmouth called Wild Ducklings. We can all fit in a deluxe caravan, and they even allow dogs. They have availability for the following weekend, which gives us plenty of time to pack and get everything organised.The children are super excited to be going away as one big family.The drive to Great Yarmouth was much louder than when we went to Cornwall but nowhere near as long and everyone seemed to enjoy the journey.We pull up to a wooden sign overhead saying โWelcome to Wild Ducklingsโ. The road leading to the reception is lined with logs and weโre surrounded by woodlands. It looks like the perfect place to relax for a week. We get o
I donโt know what Daniel has been through with Hailey but seeing him so angry and stressed with her sudden arrival is starting to upset me, so God only knows how he must be feeling right now. After we settle the children into bed, we snuggle up on the sofa and I decide to see if he will open up and talk about it because I think he is about ready to burst.โDaniel, are you ok? You seem really stressed and anxious right now. I know itโs none of my business but if you want to talk about what happened between you and Hailey, Iโm here for you, no judgement. Bottling things up can really mess with your mental health.โA silence falls between us which is a first as we are always laughing and joking around with each other. I can see his face going red, tears welling up in his eyes and Iโm starting to wonder if I did the right thing in asking. The silence is broken when Daniel takes a deep breath and says,โAre you sure you want me to tell you? This Iโm sure is going to upset you and I donโt w