Past Pregnancy

I read my notes numerous times that day, repeating the words that Renald told me. He had a rough childhood, and surprisingly, Alexander was the one who helped him. But after our… rendezvous, I suddenly felt weird at how fast my body succumbed to the lure of pleasure. Okay, too dramatic. Yet, it was true.

I have never felt anything like it before. Never felt attraction nor have sudden pleasure urges. I didn’t even touch myself a lot–which is sad, now that I think about it. Look, it’s not that I didn’t find myself attractive. It’s just that I didn’t have the time for it.

But when I was with Michael and Renald, it felt just… right to do it. Even with Alexander, after some thinking of nostalgic thoughts, I started to question why I was comfortable with the three thousand years old male to take my virginity even though I just met him that night. I started to think that it was “The Lady” thing all along. That I wa