1.78 CAROLINE

We spent nearly two hours in the diner, as usual.

After two hours of eating, crying, and venting, we decided to take a walk down the park across the street.

“Do you know which option you are leaning towards?” Amanda questions, glancing down at me as we walk.

I take a deep breath before responding.

“Well, I'm not sure how much longer I have to decide. An abortion is still an option, I believe. But fuck, i dont think i can live with myself i i did it. So I think that is pretty much completely out of the window, you know?”

She nods as a response.

“I get it. Like I said, Stephanie could not live with it for a long ass time.”

“Yeah, I can't even imagine going through that process. Besides, it's not that I'm not happy about being pregnant. I am happy. It's just a tough decision. I used to want to be a mom so bad. But then everything went down, and having to witness my family being destroyed, it broke me. It got to the point where I decided I would never have children. I didn't think