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“Bad call,” he grumbles under his breath. He’s just sore because he’s in cahoots with Lochlan. From where I was standing, Tye won without a doubt.

I snag the basket and turn to go. I’m going to “forget” about the bread and duck out the back. The

sun is setting. There’ll probably be a breeze from the foothills. I can cool down.

I want to be outside so bad. The desire hits me so hard, it’s a longing. I need open sky. I want to breathe in the night air. I want to bask in the moonlight.

Mostly, I want out of these clothes. My bra straps are digging into my shoulders, and my khakis are damp and too damn tight. They must’ve shrunk in the wash. Or I’ve ended up wearing Annie’s again by accident.

I take a step toward the kitchen, but before I head back, I glance up at the dais. I have to. I’m called. It’s instinct even though no one said my name.

But there’s only Killian, staring at me.

Heat bursts from my core, surging down my limbs, leaving my toes and fingertips tingling. I hold onto the empty tray for dear life.

Why is he checking me out?

No, he’s got to be looking at the table behind me. He’s probably deciding who fights next. The sparring is incessant, at least until it gets late and drinking and groping take center stage.

There’s no need for me to linger here. I’m acting like he gave an alpha command, but he’s just scowling like usual. If I don’t move, he’s going to flick his hand imperiously to get out of the way like he does. Killian never deigns to speak if he can grunt and point. I don’t think he’s ever said an actual word to me.

I should hustle back to the kitchen as quickly as I can, but for some reason, I can’t make my feet move. I’m hyper-focused on the linoleum floor now, cheeks burning, stuck. Because his eyes are on me.

My heart thumps, echoing in my ears.

And there’s a new delicious aroma weaving through the usual beer and roast meat and other earthy pack smells. It teases my nose, warm and sweet and sticky in the best possible way. It’s not coming from the kitchen. It’s—I don’t know where it’s coming from.

The ache in my leg fades. There’s a pleasant buzz in my head now, softening everything. The constant grating ruckus of mealtime in the lodge fades—the fluorescent lights overhead, the shrill laughter of the females, and the braying of the males. It’s all muted. Like an old talkie movie in black and white.

I peek up out of the corner of my eye. Is Killian sitting taller? He’s still glaring, and his hard, almost craggy face has become thunderous. He’s pissed. That’s my cue to leave, but still—still—I can’t go.

He’s too freaking interesting. His chest rises and falls, stretching the crisp white cotton of his shirt, and it’s mesmerizing. What would it feel like against my cheek? Under my nails?

My claws?

I lick my dry lips. I can taste the yumminess in the air. It coats my tongue, and I’m salivating. It’s so. Damn. Tasty.

Am I drunk? I feel tipsy, but I only partake at the cabin with my girls. Lone females aren’t allowed to drink.

I inhale deeply, trying to shake off this weirdness, but now the lush, decadent scent is in my lungs. Excitement shoots through my veins, a flood of heat rising up and cresting, crashing through me.

Heat.

Of course. Oh, Fate, it’s beyond obvious. That’s why my brain is so slow.

I’m going into heat.

My wolf’s ears shoot up. She yips and chases her tail. She’s not really moving—it’s how she feels. I’m anthropomorphizing her emotions. Or whatever it’s called when a spirit lives inside you. It feels like she’s dancing, though. She’s ecstatic. She can finally come out and play.

I want to meet her so bad. Hope swells in my chest. She’s gotten quiet these past few years, deflated, but she’s letting herself be heard now. She’s demanding. Whining.

Outside, outside, outside.

And then she changes her mind. No, him.

Him, him, him.

I raise my eyes to Killian’s, and even though I know better, I can’t force my gaze to lower. You don’t meet an alpha’s eyes. That’s a challenge. Even from a lone female. It’s ingrained in our DNA. I shouldn’t be able to help but defer. He won’t be able to stop himself from knocking me down if I don’t.

Shit. I focus as hard as I can until my neck bends, but I’m still gazing up from under my lashes. I

can’t stop. He’s fascinating.

I bet he tastes like melted toffee. Or taffy.

I bet he feels like when a summer storm rolls in and the clouds race and there’s the sizzle in the air from the lightning.

Mine, mine, mine.

My wolf paws at my ribs. She wants out. I don’t know how to let her, and this is crazy. I’m scared and shaking, but wild horses couldn’t tear me away from devouring my alpha with my eyes. I need him.

I’m sopping wet. Between the legs. My hand reaches down, searching. Oh, Fate. What am I doing? In the middle of the frickin’ lodge? I snatch it back to my chest at the last second.

What’s wrong with me? That’s Killian Kelly. He’s a tyrant, and a dick, and all he cares about are the fights. He’s the reason Moon Lake thinks we’re backwards, and they’re always making noise about how it’d be better if their pack absorbed ours.

I’ve known Killian my whole life, and every year, he’s worse.

Mate.

No. He’s not my mate. No way. I’d have had an inkling.

Wouldn’t I?

Wouldn’t he?

He slowly rises to his feet, chest thrown back, a fighting stance. A growl rolls from the back of his throat. He scrubs his pecs with the flat of his hand like he has indigestion. His brow furrows. He’s as confused as I am. This doesn’t make any sense.

My wolf replies with a rumble.

She makes a noise!

It’s kind of a sassy purr. I press my palm above my breasts. Holy crap, my solar plexus is vibrating. Whoa. She’s really in there. She’s not a figment of my imagination. I didn’t somehow eat her in utero like a vanishing twin.

My eyes prickle. I’m going to shift. Finally. I need to get out of here. I need wide open spaces, room to run, and—