LOGINI didn't sleep.
I lay on Nadia's couch with a blanket she had thrown over me sometime around 3am and I stared at her ceiling and I went over it all again and again until the numbers stopped meaning anything. Eight months. Three years. One year contract. Four or five events. Forty-seventh floor. Walter's bills. His face when he asked about the flowers. At 5am Nadia came out of her bedroom in a giant t-shirt and stepped over my feet and went to the kitchen without saying anything. She came back with two mugs and sat on the end of the couch by my knees and handed me one. "I caught Derek with someone," I said. "I know. You called me at midnight and you were very calm which was honestly more frightening than if you'd been screaming." I had forgotten I called her. "Who is she," she said. "Vivienne Cross. She's in PR. Eight months, Nadia." Nadia was quiet for a moment. Then she said: "I'm going to need a minute to be absolutely furious about this before we talk practically." "Take your time," I said. She took about forty-five seconds. She said several things about Derek that I agreed with entirely and will not repeat. Then she exhaled and said: "Okay. What do you want to do about today." Today. The word sat on my chest like something heavy. "I can't cancel," I said. "Walter's already in the hospital and they said his levels are manageable right now but stress is the thing they keep warning about. If I call him this morning and tell him the wedding is off because—" I stopped. I pressed my fingers to my eyes. "I can't do it. I can't be the thing that pushes his heart the wrong way." "So what then," Nadia said. I told her about Caden Ashford. I told her all of it. The door opening. The drive. The diner. The proposition. The terms. Everything. She sat there and listened without interrupting which was very unlike her and when I finished she was quiet for a long time. Then she said: "Sloane." "I know." "That is completely—" "I know." "But Walter." "Yeah." We sat with that. "You don't know this man," she said. "I know his name and I know he didn't flinch when I asked him to put everything in writing and I know he paid for the coffees without making it a thing." I looked at my mug. "I know he didn't try to tell me it was going to be okay. He just sat there and he was honest." Nadia looked at me for a moment. "That's a very low bar." "Given last night my bar is on the floor." She almost smiled. I almost smiled back. My phone started ringing. Derek. I sent it to voicemail. It rang again immediately. I sent it to voicemail again. Then a text came through: Sloane please just talk to me. Then another: I love you. I'm sorry. Please. Then another: the guests are already getting the hotel information, we need to figure out what we're telling people. I put the phone face down on the cushion. "What are you going to do," Nadia said. "I'm going to call Caden Ashford and tell him yes." She opened her mouth. "And then I'm going to go to the hospital and sit with Walter and hold his hand and tell him I'm getting married today, just not to Derek, and I need him not to ask too many questions yet." Nadia closed her mouth. Then she said: "He's going to ask questions." "He's going to ask one question." "Which is." "Is he a good man." "And what are you going to say." I thought about the diner. The straight talking. The money on the table without looking at the bill. The way he had waited by the car even after I said I could get a cab myself. The way he had looked at me in the doorway of that house with his jaw tight and his eyes doing something complicated and said: step outside. Not a demand. Not a please. Just step outside. Like he already knew I needed someone to make one decision for me so I could make all the others myself. "I'm going to say I think so," I said. Nadia looked at me for a long time. Then she said: "Okay." She stood up. She went to the kitchen. She came back with toast and said: "Eat something before you call him. You can't make a decision like this on an empty stomach." I ate the toast. I picked up my phone. I deleted Derek's messages without reading the rest of them. I found the number Caden had put in my phone last night when I got out of the car. Just his name and a number. No message. No see you tomorrow. Just the number there when I needed it. I called it. He picked up on the second ring. His voice was the same as last night. Steady. Awake. Like he had been waiting without making it obvious he was waiting. "It's Sloane," I said. "I know." "I need two conditions I didn't mention last night." "Go ahead." "You meet Walter. Properly. In person, before the end of this week. Not a five minute thing. You actually sit with him." "Done." "And if he asks you directly whether you're going to take care of me, you answer him honestly. Not the answer that sounds right. The honest one." There was a pause. Short but real. "Done." "Then yes. I'll marry you." The line was quiet for a moment. "I'll have the paperwork drawn up. My PA will send you the details." "Caden." "Yes." "Whatever else this is, Walter is the reason I'm doing this. Don't make me regret it." "I won't." He hung up. I put my phone down on the cushion. Nadia was standing in the kitchen doorway looking at me. I looked back at her. "So you're getting married today," she said. "Apparently." She pressed both hands to her face. She made a sound into her palms. Then she pulled her hands away and said: "What does one wear to a courthouse wedding that one agreed to at 6am after catching one's fiance cheating." "Something easy to take off and put back on because I have to be at the hospital by noon." She stared at me. Then she went to her wardrobe. My phone rang again on the cushion. I looked at the screen. It was the hospital. My stomach dropped. I picked it up. The nurse's voice was careful and even. She said Walter had been asking about the wedding since 5am. He had worked himself up. His oxygen levels had dropped. They had him stable but they wanted me to come in. She said: can you come this morning? I was already standing up. "I'm on my way."I didn't tell Caden about the envelope.Not because I was hiding it. Because I needed to think about it somewhere quiet first and the penthouse was not quiet when Caden was in it with his phone and his jaw doing that tight thing and his lawyer already on a call by the time I had put the photograph back on the counter.I told him I was going to see Walter in the morning.He said: I'll come.I said: not today. Give me this one alone.He looked at me for a moment. He said: okay.Just okay. He didn't push. I was starting to understand that about him. He knew which things to push on and which ones to leave and this was one he left.I took the envelope.---Walter was having a good morning.He was sitting up when I came in, colour in his face, the good tea on the table beside him which meant the nurse he liked had been on shift. He looked at me the way he always looked at me when I came through that door, like the room had just got something it was missing.He said: there she is.I sat down
I sat at the island and waited.I didn't pace. Didn't rehearse what I was going to say. I just made two coffees and put his on his side of the counter and sat on my stool and waited for the elevator to open.It opened at seven forty.He came in, saw me, saw the coffees, and stopped for half a second. That half second told me everything. He knew this was coming. He had been expecting it since he left this morning.He took off his jacket. He sat down across from me. He picked up the coffee.I said: tell me about your father.He looked at me over the cup.I said: not the clause. Not the estate. Him. Tell me what kind of man writes something like that into his will and calls it love.He put the cup down.He said: brilliant. He said it first, before anything else, and I thought that was important, that brilliant came before anything else. He said: the kind of brilliant that makes every room feel slightly smaller. He said: he built Ashford Holdings from one property deal when he was twenty
The elevator opened and he was already in the kitchen.Jacket off. Coffee on the counter. And the look on his face that I was starting to recognise, the one that meant he already knew something and was waiting for me to catch up.I said: I went to meet someone today.He said: I know.I stopped.He said: Felix.I said: Felix followed me.He said: Felix has been following you since the photo last night.He said it the way he said everything. Just a fact. No apology wrapped around it, no performance of one either.I should have been annoyed.I was a little annoyed.I was also thinking about the unknown number and the private investigators and the car outside Derek's building and honestly Felix following me quietly was the least frightening thing on that list so I let it go.I put my bag down. I sat at the island.I said: her name is Helena Marsh.He said: I know that too.I looked at him.He said: Felix identified her when she walked into the coffee shop. He said: I've been on the phone
The message sat on my screen all night. Meet me tomorrow. Alone. I'll tell you everything about the man you just married. I didn't show Caden. I know how that sounds. I know the reasonable thing was to turn the phone around and put it on the counter between us the way I had done with everything else. But there was something about the word everything that made me stop. Everything about the man you just married. That was not a threat. That was an offer. And if I showed Caden he would shut it down before I found out what the offer actually was. So I put my phone in my pocket. I said goodnight. I went to my room. I lay on my bed and stared at the ceiling and typed back: where. The reply came in four minutes. A coffee shop address on the west side. Tomorrow at noon. I said: how will I know you. They said: I'll find you. I put the phone face down on the nightstand and closed my eyes and told myself I was going to sleep. I did not sleep. --- The coffee shop was the kind of plac
I looked at the photo on his screen for a long time.It was not a long lens shot. Not the kind paparazzi take from across the street with equipment that makes everything look slightly soft at the edges. This was close. Clear. Taken from maybe ten feet away by someone standing on the pavement who knew exactly where to be and exactly when to be there.I said: they were right next to the cab.He said: yes.I said: I didn't see anyone.He said: you weren't looking.He was right. I had been looking at the seventh floor. I had been doing the thing I told myself not to do and while I was doing it someone was standing ten feet away with their phone pointed at me.I put my bag down. I took off my coat. I sat at the island.He put his phone on the counter face up between us. I looked at the photo again. Something was bothering me about it and I was trying to find what it was. I looked at the background. Derek's building on the right. The pavement. The cab. My face in the window. And on the left
I found the text again at 6am.I had not stopped thinking about it since last night. I know what you did this morning. We need to talk. I had read it maybe thirty times before I fell asleep and now I was reading it again in the kitchen with my coffee and the city still dark outside the windows and absolutely no idea who sent it.I went through the options.Derek. Possible. He had been calling from different numbers all day. But Derek's version of a message was longer. More words. More justification. He could not say something in six words if there were twenty available.Vivienne. Also possible. She was precise enough. She was also the kind of person who would know about the courthouse before it was public and would have something to say about it.Someone else entirely. Someone from Caden's world I didn't know about yet. Which was a list I could not even begin to make because I had known this man for forty eight hours.I typed back: who is this.I sent it.I watched the screen.Nothing







