“Knox came over to my house again last night.” I whisper to Casey. We’re in her bedroom in an apartment. We just got done with a study session. We have these sessions at least once a week; it always helps to have a study partner. It always gives an opportunity to see the material from a different perspective.
“He did what? Wait why are we whispering?” She asks whispering too.
“You have a roommate and I don’t want her to overhear our conversation.” I continue whispering.
“She’s not here, she has class on campus and if you don’t want to say his name you can just say him. I’ll know who you’re talking about.” She says talking normally.
“Okay, he came over. I don’t know how to make him stop doing this. I’ve asked nicely, I’ve screamed at him and I’ve even kicked him out but he just won’t stop. I don’t know what to do anymore. ” I say moving from her desk to her bed. I lie on my side looking at her.
“I’m not surprised he doesn’t strike me as the type to listen when you ask him to do anything.” She says looking at me with pity.
“What do I do?” I ask turning on my back. I need to find a way to make him stop coming over. I need to stop him before something big happens. I know that last night was a preview of what’s to come. He was showing me that he can make me do whatever he wants. And I know I don’t have the strength to stop him.
“You need a boyfriend.” She says looking at me very seriously.
“A boyfriend? That sounds like stress I don’t need.” I say closing my eyes. I don’t need another boy to add to my problems. I already have a boy I want to get rid of, what am I going to do with another one?
“You’re too available, you need a man in your life to show him that you’re taken, you’re desired and he should go kill himself.” She says getting up and sitting next to me. I look at her terrified at the thought of meeting new people, let alone a perspective boyfriend.
“I don’t know if that would work.” I say knowing I’m not brave enough to do this. I don’t know if I want a boyfriend.
“You’re probably right, it might not but you’ll never know unless you try. You need to try something or else you’ll be stuck with this guy for the rest of your life.” She says and the thought terrifies me. What if we do this for all eternity? Him coming to my house at all hours of the night, he fucks me and then leaves in the morning to go to his perfect and rich family.
I’ll be stuck as his secret thing for the rest of my miserable life. I can’t have that.
“I don’t even know where to start. I wouldn’t know where to start, where do you meet boy?” I say feeling overwhelmed by the thought of looking for someone.
“That’s where I come in. I’ll introduce you to all the boys.” She says smiling at me. This sounds like a disaster waiting to happen. I’m not sure if involving an innocent guy in my mess is the answer to getting rid of Knox but I need to do something. He needs to go.
“Okay, I’ll try.” I say sitting up. I have to try something, I have a feeling Knox is planning something big. After what he said to me last night, I know I’ll be in trouble if I let him back into my life. I need to close that door and lock it before thinks of coming back and ruining my life.
“Awesome, we’re going tonight.” She says and panic setting in. I didn’t know she meant tonight. I thought we would sit down and come up with a strategy.
“Tonight?” I say and I hear the panic in my voice.
“Yes, don’t worry you’ll be fine.” She says sensing my fear. I’m terrible in social a setting, that’s why I avoid them. I’m scared.
At a house party
When we walk through the door, I instantly feel out of place. There are so many people here. Guys downing mountains of beer cans, couples tangled on sofas making out and the music is so loud I can’t hear anything. This is not my type of place; this is definitely not my idea of fun.
“We need to go find Travis.” Casey says close to my ear so I can hear over the thudding music. I nod and she starts walking through the crowd. I hold on to her hand and walk behind her.
We find them in a room upstairs; he’s with another bunch of people drinking and smoking. We walk in. I let go of Casey’s hand so she can greet her boyfriend. Someone closes the door and the noise subsides. My ears pop at the change, I’m going to have a bad headache tomorrow morning.
She introduces me to everyone but she gives extra effort in introducing me to a boy named Michael.
She winks at me when we’re done with the introductions to show me that this is the guy she wanted me to meet.
“Is this your first time at a house party?” Michael asks when he comes to stand next to me.
“Is it that obvious?” I ask looking at him. He smiles and I see his perfect, white smile. He has a beautiful smile.
“A little, you look very tense.” He says and I shift from one foot to the other, I don’t know what to do with my body. This is an uncomfortable situation for me.
“Yeah this is not my idea f spending a Wednesday night.” I say forcing my body to stand still.
“What would you be doing tonight, if you weren’t here?” he asks turning his body to me. I take a deep breath and let it out. I need to relax; I don’t have to be worried. Casey is here; if something goes wrong I can just scream. And Michael seems like an okay dude so far.
“It’s my day off so I would be home studying, catching up on assignments. But if it’s my no work, no school night; I would be watching Seinfeld on Netflix.” I say and he smiles, leaning in a fraction.
“Seinfeld is amazing.” He says and I smile too. We sit there talking about school, 90’s sitcoms and music.
The whole time we’re sitting there talking I realize that this was not as bad as I thought it would be. Michael is a chilled and cool guy; I don’t feel anxious around him. I am completely relaxed. There are a few people in my life that make me feel that way. I’m glad Casey made me come here and I’m glad I met Michael.
“I’m hungry; would you like to get something to eat?”He asks at one point.
“Yeah, I would like something to eat.” I say and he smiles.
“ Cool there is a nice pizza place around the corner from here.” He says and I look around the room for Casey. I point to her letting him now that I’m going to talk to her.
“Michael and I are going to get pizza.” I say to her and she gives me a big thumbs up, with a big cheesy smile.
“We’ll catch up with you guys. Don’t forget to turn on your location.” She says giving me a hug. I head to the door where Michael is waiting for me. We head out of the house and walk a few minutes to the pizza place.
“What’s your favorite pizza flavor?” He asks me as we walk through the door. I open my mouth to answer him and my eyes land on Knox. He’s staring at Michael with a deadly look on his face.
“Are you okay?” Michael asks me when I freeze in place. Knox is here right now. I didn’t expect to see him tonight, what is he even doing in this part of town. He’s sitting at a table with some guy I’ve never seen before. He’s not one of the usual guys Knox hangs out with.He’s looking at me completely ignoring his companion. The other guy is eating, while Knox is drinking water. He’s not having any pizza. Maybe that’s why he’s staring at me instead of concentrating on his conversation with his friend. He’s mad he can’t have any pizza and he’s taking it out on me.“What? Yes, I’m good.” I say and start walking to an empty table.“You’re sure?” He asks pulling a chair out for me. I sit down and look up; Knox is still staring at us. Michael sits down and his head is blocking Knox but I can still feel his eyes on us.
“Hi are you Melody?” A Samantha says standing in front of me. I look up at her and she smiles. My heart is in my throat, she and I have never met but I know who she is. Why is she here? Does she know who I am? “Yes.” I say smiling back at her too but I am dying on the inside. What if she decides to pull my hair here in the middle of the campus coffee shop? “I’m Samantha; I heard you’re a tutor.” She says pulling out a chair and she sits down. I let out a breath I didn’t know I was holding. This a scenario from one of my nightmares and it ends badly. I don’t want to die for a boy that’s not even mine. “Oh yes. Are you looking for a tutor?” I ask looking at her, she’s so beautiful. Her face is perfect. Why is Knox bothering with me? She has a perfectly perfect girl right here? “Yeah, I’m looking for a chemistry tutor and someone referred me to you.” she says and I nod. I do chemistry and mathematics tutoring. I always have a full schedule because people
“Tell me everything.” Casey says when she walks through my door. The moment she says the words, I break out in a smile. Last night was incredible; Michael really put thought and effort in our first date. I had such a good time; no one has ever done that for me.“Oh, Casey. Las night was so much fun. We went to dinner at this amazing restaurant, the food was exquisite. And then he took me dancing. You know how much I love ballroom dancing; he booked a beginner class for us. He was surprised when I showed him my skills.” I say smiling and Casey looks at me with a look of bliss on her face.“That sounds amazing! I’m so happy you had fun. Did you guys kiss?” she asks rubbing her hands together excitedly.“No. we didn’t, there were so many moments we could have but I wasn’t brave enough to make a move. And I didn’t want to seem forward so I chickened out.” I say worried and she smiles at me sweet
“How was your day?” Samantha says looking at me. She’s sitting opposite me on my sofa I yawn tired, today was interesting. It certainly didn’t go the way I planned it.“Today was a long day” I say thinking about my run in with Melody a few hours ago. How she stormed out of the coffee shop. I imagined that conversation going so much differently than it did.“You’re tired.” She asks reaching her hand out to brush my leg softly.“You could say that.” I say really thinking about it. I’m not tired physically, I’m just feeling beat. I feel like I’m losing Melody and I hate it. I want her all to myself and the addition of this new dude is fucking up my flow.I want him gone. His being around is making her more and more resistant to my advances. She was always against us hooking up but she wasn’t blatantly rejecting me. She’s different now.I know this is not fa
“Hi” Samantha whispers when she finds me in the romance novel section of the library. I look at her instantly annoyed, what does she want? I’m not in the mood to deal with anyone that is associated with Knox. I’m so mad at him that I’m hating on anyone or anything that reminds me of him.I pick up a book with a beautiful cover and read the title trying to ignore her.The prince’s willing slave.That sounds like an interesting read. A few second of silence pass and I realize she’s not leaving I look at her and she smiles.“Hey.” I whisper back to her and turning back to the selection books on the shelf. She really doesn’t know how to take a hint. I don’t want to talk t her and I’m sure I’m making it clear but she isn’t interested in my feelings.“I’m back.” She says and I look at her confused. Is that supposed to mean something to me?
Play your part“I’m so excited for tonight.” Michael says when I open the front door to my apartment. He smiles at me and my heart skips a beat, his smile has this ability to make me feel I’m floating.Iopen the door and let him into my apartment. He moves closer and gives me a hug, I lean in and hug him back. We hold each other closely for a few seconds and then let go. I look up at him and wish I could kiss him but I don’t have the guts to take the first step.When he told me he was on his way to pick me up today, I had a plantokiss him as soon as he walked through the door. I played it out in my head, I would open the door, he would smile at me and then I would walk to him and kiss him. But it isn’t playing out that way.“ I’m excited too.” I say stepping away from him.“Let me finish getting ready quickly and then we can get going.&rdq
I look up at Knox and feel my heart pound in my ears. He is playing a very dirty game. He wants me to know that he has a hold on my life no matter what I do. He made Michael bring me here and he’s chuffed with himself.I look away from him and concentrate on the field below. I hear his fans screaming his name asking for his autograph. It’s weird to hear people lose their minds over him like this. I’ve always known he’s famous but I’ve never seen it in action.I was never part of this side of his life. I’m the secret he reserves for late nights. I know him as a normal, arrogant and sneaky university student. I hate him.He’s messing with my life, now he made Michael think he’s a generous and kind person. We all know that’s not what he’s doing here. He’s showing me the power that he has.“How are you? “ He says to Michael. He walks behind my chair and places his hand on the
“Our plan is not working.” I say to Casey who came over to my house to do my hair. I am going to be sitting on this chair for the next three hours. We have some good music on, we have some really good snacks on deck. And we are having a night in. I need to make sure that my hair is done by tomorrow morning or I am going to look like a scary monster at my first class.“What do you mean our plan is not working?” She asks tilting my head sideways so she can see my face.“I mean, Knox has managed to use his charms on Michael and they are best buddies now.” I say and Casey’s jaw drops.“When in the hell did that happen?” She asks frowning at me.“Last night, he gave Michael the VIP treatment and it was over. My boyfriend is officially in love with my side meat/boy/situation/whatever.” I say and she rolls her eyes at me.“This Knox is really smart. I didn’t think he would start