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An engine revs and my pulse spikes instantly , he's here. He hasn’t always made himself known. But now he was growing bolder , he was making sure I knew he was back. I slowly place my pen down from where I was hunched over my desk working on my assignment. The hairs on the back of my neck stand up and a shiver runs through my body. I lick my suddenly dry lips and exhale a shaky breath.
I could have moved my desk weeks ago , months ago even when I first started seeing him. At first a shadow that made me think I was seeing things then the shadow would stand longer to make sure I saw him. He would come closer to make sure his movement caught my eye. I started to thank him in my own mind for finally showing himself , at least I knew now I wasn’t crazy. No I wasn’t but I did have a stalker and I had yet to report that I had , maybe I was crazy. One day I hadn’t heard his bike but when I had looked up from my work I had seen him sitting on his bike with his helmet still on as he watched me through the window. Before he just used to stand in the shadow , bike helmet on but no bike could be seen. Like I said he was getting bolder. Maybe because I had yet to report him. The reason why I hadn’t bewildered me , because I had no reason. His presence scared me , sure. My heart always pounds and I start to sweat , my breathing changes and my brain shouts at me to run , yet I still haven’t. Why ? Maybe it was because he had yet to make a move to come towards me. He never stepped any closer , never made a move to enter my home. He just stood across the street or now he sat on his bike across the street. I did often wonder what I would do if he did though ? Recently it was like he signalled he was here out of impatience , he wanted me to look up from my desk. I could get lost for hours in my work. Sometimes my work had me trapped for days without a thought of the outside world creeping in. I could start in the daylight and not look around again until the moon was high in the sky. He wanted to see my face though , that I had now worked out. For what purpose I was still unsure. Besides him watching me he does nothing else. He occasionally tilts his helmeted head to one side as if studying me , once he has a look at my face for a few minutes he usually leaves. It makes me wonder about the times he didn’t come on his bike how long he had waited for before I lifted my face to the window. Lifting my head , my blurry eyes from focusing on the words and numbers in front of me slowly start to clear and he comes into focus. He’s not sitting straddling his bike tonight he's climbed off , but he is leaning back on it. His arms crossed over his chest , he dosen't have his leather jacket on tonight. Instead his arms are on show , his hands covered in black gloves and a skin tight black t-shirt clings to his frame. His legs are crossed at the ankles, his legs are clad in what look like black jeans and then his signature thick black bike boots on his feet. I look back up to his covered face and his head tilts slightly to the left. My heart pounds as sweat breaks out on my skin. But again I don’t pick up my phone or run away. Instead I slowly stand and when I do his head goes back up straight. This was new for me , I would usually stay seated while he watched me. But I had promised I would find out what he wanted , I wouldn't go out there but after the last time he left I had grabbed some plain paper and a thick black marker pen and quickly scribbled out some signs. This had been happening now for nearly four months and it was now I had only just found the confidence to make some sort of contact. I move around my desk and reach for the paper signs that had been sitting there for the past two nights , he didn't come every night. His pattern of coming wasn't one I could follow either. Some weeks he showed up every night, others maybe only once or twice. I looked down at my shaky fingers and at the top sign. It asked the most obvious question. “ What do you want ? “ I lifted it to the glass , my breathing coming out fast at what I was doing. Survival 101 would not be to interact with a man that watches you from outside of your window. But here I was , doing just that, instead of what most logical people would do. I watched to see his reaction , but he didn’t move, didn't react, he just stood there. I don’t know what I expected from doing this. For him to suddenly rip his element off and start talking to me ? Or maybe to see if that's all it took for him to break the cycle and actually come after me ? When he made no movement , I took the first sign off and pressed the second one to the glass. “ Who are you ? “ I held my breath and waited , but again nothing. No movement. So I tried my last sign , the one that made my hands shake as I wrote it out. The one that I nearly ripped up did I want to know the answer to this one ? “ Are you going to hurt me ? “ I looked away when I first put the sign to the window , I looked down at my feet chickening out. But I scolded myself , I couldn’t ask then not see his answer. So , I took a few calming breaths and slowly I looked up. He was back on his bike straddling it , but he was still looking up at me. Or at the sign maybe I had slapped on the glass. I watched in horror as he nodded , just two subtle bobs of his head. I took a step back, gasping. The sign floated away from the window and hitting the floor. His engine started and he revved it. Then he left. He sped off down the street like he always does , like someone was chasing him.The mix of pain and pleasure coming from the same part of your body was a mind fuck to say the least. One minute I would be gritting my teeth at the stretch and the sting , the next I was rocking back and silently pleading for more. It was a strange kind of pleasure. One that made a full shiver roll down your back. I had worked out that he was sitting , I heard the scrape of a chair or something and at the angle his fingers were in me he wasn’t doing it standing. Which meant he was eyeballing my hole the whole damn time. I had fleeting moments of embarrassment about it when I occasionally remembered he was face to face with the damn thing. But then pleasure would sink back in and my mind would drift off or my mind was too focused on the pain of the stretch. Now he was about to put his cock in there , I wasn't sure how many fingers he had gotten to. Four maybe. But I dreaded this , he was thick. And he had said he wouldn’t go soft on me. My legs and shoulders were aching from being
She lays over the bed, her feet on the floor , her dress bunched up over her waist and her heels still on. Her body shakes and heaves as she tries to catch her breath. I smile down at that. I have plans for her and in my own way it’s me punishing her for coming here, for accusing me of having knowledge of her mothers death. For putting herself in danger , but worst of all for challenging me and calling me out. Its that same old argument a girls fuck a load of guys shes a whore a guy does it hes a legend. I stalked her and that was OK in my mind. She starts doing it back and I get pissy about it. I never look at a girl who enjoys a good time and judge her , that shit aint me. But I had applied that same mentality to this situation. I hate that she is fucking right. Going over to a chest of draws I opened one I liked to keep shit in for when I brought a girl back here. Pulling out two chains I have that then have cuffs on one end of both of them and a clip on the other that attaches
“ Really ? “ I ask him. And he growls at me , literally growls. His lips curl back and he stalks back towards me , his hand goes back to my throat and he steps into me making me look up at him. He looks at me through those bright blue eyes. His teeth flashing at me “ I told you , I don’t know anything about your mum's death. I didn’t even know your mum's name. I have never heard it said around here either. Ever think your dad is just grasping at straws seen as he is trying to put me away Elodie “ he snaps. I shake my head “ That doesn't make sense Daniel “ I tell him. He huffs and looks to the side , his hand flexes on my throat tightening a little and taking my breath. He shakes his head a little and then looks back at me. “ Daniel, I just want to know what happened to her, “ I tried. “ AND I told you I don’t fucking know. There was no need for you to storm in here looking like that. Putting yourself in danger and all those fucking jerks out there leering at you dressed like this “
By the time we got back the funeral party was in full swing we had to stop off and give Melodie a low down of what had happened and what we had all said, the bar was packed with old members and new. Members from out of state. The old man had been well liked and he had liked to travel , other charters had turned up to pay respect. I was ready to drink and pass the fuck out. I was surviving on cat naps probably totalling maybe 3 hours sleep over the last two days. I needed my fucking bed. But we had missed the funeral which could be excused given the circumstances. But missing this would be inexcusable. So I had to spend some time. Me and the guys head to our usual booth. All of us fucked of and fed up. None of us were in the mood for this. The minute we sit, drinks get placed on our table by a waiter and she disappears as quickly , tonight they would be rushed off their feet. I light a cigarette and lean back. “ Did the douche bag FBI agent interview all of you too ? “ Joker asked i
Pulling up my mothers case I prepare myself to see her lifeless body . I had raced home , my need to see if Carnage’s club had anything to do with my mothers death now hit me hard. I had looked over this case a million times and never thought anything was wrong with it. I have never seen missing evidence , or holes in the case. I just saw no evidence. Now with what David said I looked at it with the rose coloured glasses off. I saw it now , this case wasn’t just lacking evidence it was empty. Nothing , a case never a lack of anything as much as this. Sitting back in the chair I look at her photo again , I look at her eyes and quickly move past her face and then I look at the ground she was laying on. Cold and wet. Looking down at her body I frown and look closer at her hand. It had been clenched. You could tell with how her fingers were curled , sitting forward quickly I saw something white , it was only a corner of something. It looked like paper. There was paper in her hand , had
My father marched towards me , he was mad. Whatever had happened in that interview room had royally pissed him off. Thomas steps back away from me seeing he was on his way. Thomas was a young intern in admin. He had always been nice towards me , chatty and polite. I hadn't seen him in a while and when he saw me here he came over for a chat. I was here because I was stupid. I had gone to the club because after he had left I had been angry for one , the way he had spoken to me had made me angry , that was after I had pushed the embarrassment and sadness to one side. I felt chaotic , I would never usually chase a man across town that had just said he was using me to what ? I had images of smashing his bike up with a bat , storming in the club and screaming he was fucking a cop at the top of my lungs. I just wanted to get this anger out of me that was building up like a boiling kettle and he was the one I needed to hurt to make myself feel better. I have never been toxic , but with him.







