Ahana
“You were successful?!” I smile, smug from the good news I have just given him. I am pleased not only to have proved his theory about Bankit wrong, but that he can admit how much he underestimated me. “I sure did! I told you it wasn't any fraud.” “And they’re paying your full tuition?” “Full tuition and living expenses for the entire year! The same offer as last year.” “This is unbelievable. Send me the letter so I can see for myself.” I frown, his doubt making my excitement wane. Does he think I’m lying or what? Deciding I lose nothing by sending him the letter, especially as he’ll see it eventually anyway, I do just that. “Unbelievable!” he exclaims, when he reads it. “The full £20,000 tuition and another £8,000 for living expenses? Unbelievable!” “Believeable!” I chuckle. “It takes into account the ten months of the academic year, from September this year to June next year.” “Are they going to give you the cash?” I frown. “Not the tuition, I don't think. And I’d much rather they sort out my campus accommodation on my behalf and give me whatever’s left.” “Campus accommodation?Why?You don't want to stay with me?” Oh. Okay. I hadn’t quite thought of that. “You want me to stay with you?” He scoffs “Mi amor, that’s what makes the most sense. Why would you blow all that money on accommodation when your lover is here? Tell them you’d rather have the cash for living expenses.” I am slightly disappointed. I’ve been looking forward to the experience of school accommodation abroad, an experience I know will be worlds apart from my experience at my university at home. But Aput does have a point though. Besides, what better way to make up for lost time than us living together? “They sent an acceptance form which I’m supposed to fill,” I say. “There’s also a contact number, so I’ll call tomorrow to ask.” “Fantastic!” he exclaims, his voice finally conveying the excitement I’ve been expecting. “I’m so happy you're finally coming! I’ve missed you too much.” I beam, also ecstatic. “Me too. This past year has been awful without you.” “So, when you ask them about the cash, you’ll transfer it to me, right? I’ll keep it safe till you get here,” he pauses before he asks. “Maybe I could pay for my PMP certification from the money? You know that’s what’s stopping me from getting a good job here. It’s £3,000, and I haven’t been able to raise that kind of money.” I shrug. If I won’t be paying rent, surely I can spare that, especially as it’s for a good cause.“Sure, we can do that,” I answer, loving how we’re now planning as a unit. “You’re the best!” he exclaims. “I love you. I can’t wait for you to get here. Things are going to be so wonderful. By the time I get my PMP certification and get a great job, we’ll move to a nicer apartment in a nice neighbourhood. With your Masters, you’ll also get a nice job. We’ll be a power couple.” I hesitate before asking what I have been dying to since the thought of joining him in the UK took root in my mind. “Are we going to get married as soon as I move there? Something small to formalise things?” “Why will we elope when we have families back home?” he retorts. “Mi amor, that’s the thing about you. We don't have to run such commitment. After your program, we’ll come back home for our marriage, with friends and family.” I'm not with that plan and I wanted to voice out. But I decide against it, not wanting to upset him. I chid myself for getting too carried away and decide to focus on this win. When I get to London, we’ll figure out the rest.ChrisShe makes me feel like an excited schoolboy and I long to spend every second of every minute of every hour of every day with her. She has invaded my thoughts so much that it is a struggle to stay focused on anything else. And it isn't just about the sex.The conversations we have in our quiet moments are so deep and intense, she has made me comfortable enough to reveal things about myself I haven’t shared with anyone. And what makes it even more special is seeing in those light brown eyes the same feelings I have in my heart. She has bewitched me in every sense of the word… and I wouldn't have it any other way.It is soon Valentine’s Day and I love the way her eyes light up when, before she returns to her bedroom, I present her with an ornate earring and necklace jewellery set, in 24-carat white gold and set with a rainbow of precious stones.“Oh my goodness, Chris!” she gasps. “This is too much!”I smile as she continues to gape at her gift. If only she knew I would give her th
AhanaI see the sense in keeping things quiet, and not only because I also don’t want to confuse Muna. As much as I love this beautiful thing with Chris, I don't want it to jeopardise my job either, and having a Nanny slash Lover will be very hard for him to explain to anyone.For the first time in a week, I shower in the bathroom I share with Muna and dress up in my bedroom, to try to get back in the mind-set of staying there. Reaching for my cardigan, it smells so much like Chris, I close my eyes and inhale, a small smile playing on my lips. Keeping this a secret is not going to be as easy as we think. I reach for another cardigan and douse it in my body spray for good measure. It’s better not to take any chances.When I return downstairs, I see he has also showered and is wearing a smart polo shirt and cargo pants, a far cry from the t-shirts and pyjama bottoms he has lived in all week. The doorbell rings before I can say anything and when he looks at me, I am afraid to look at him
Ahana“I’ve never felt enough before,” I say, lying in his arms the next day. Time has become one endless continuum and I don't even know if it’s still morning, now afternoon or even evening. “With everyone I’ve ever been with, I’ve never felt enough. I’ve always felt like I’m the one being done a favour.”I look up at him, knowing this isn’t what I should be saying to him, especially not now. But in the newness of this thing I’m feeling, I am unable to help myself. He looks at me and it feels like I’m levitating.“I’ve never had anyone look at me the way you do,” I say, not breaking our gaze. “I’ve never had anyone hold me the way I do.It's all so new… so new and wonderful… so new and enthralling and terrifying.”Chris Her exhilaration and fright mirror mine.“This is also new for me, and the intensity also scares the crap out of me.” I tilt up her chin. “But you’re more than enough, Ahana… and I can’t get enough of you.”And I truly can’t.We remain in our bubble for the rest of th
Chris As she holds my face, my injuries, and even my license, are the last thing on my mind. I hear nothing as she rattles on, intoxicated by her minty berry fragrance. I look at her full lips moving, glistening with their natural juices. My eyes drop to her snug cotton pyjamas, its top stopping a few inches before the bottom’s waistband, revealing a bit of her midriff. By the time my eyes return to her face, as those light brown eyes stare back at me, all I can think is how much I want her.AhanaI see his eyes skim my body and I’m uncertain about what I see in them. But by the time they return to my face, as they hold mine, I’m one hundred per cent sure.It is desire.Without a further thought, I throw my arms around him and kiss him.Chris I need no further promoting, grabbing her by the bottom as we kiss, her plump lips even juicier than I remember, my excitement heightened not just by months of anticipation, but by the feel of her supple body, by the eagerness with which she is
AhanaI drift in and out of sleep all of Saturday, unable to do more than open my eyes the few times I awake. The trauma to my body is just as potent as if I have been drugged, compelling me to obey it and not even move as much as a muscle.I am aware the several times Chris comes into the room to check on me, and when he places trays of food on my bedside table, meals I can’t even look at talk less of eat. I know when he comes in to take away each uneaten meal and replace it with another one, and even notice him hover over me for a few minutes, probably concerned about how long I have been in bed, but I can’t even open my eyes in acknowledgment. It isn’t until much later that night, at about 11pm, that I am finally able to wake up. Sitting up in bed, even though there is still a dull ache in my head, I feel considerably better.I find my way to the bathroom, and I am consoled to see the swelling on my eye has gone down and the bruising on my face and neck are no longer quite as purpl
Chris It is past 8pm, and I have started to wonder where she is. Sitting on the train on my way home, I’d thought about how awkward things have been since Christmas and I made up my mind to sit her down so we can talk about our Christmas Eve kiss. We can’t continue pretending it never happened. At least, I can't. Getting home and finding the house empty wasn’t something I’d expected, and after waiting over an hour, I have started thinking the worst, worried she might have decided staying with me isn’t a good idea.When I hear the jangle of her keys at the door, I’m relieved. Until she walks in looking like someone who has been attacked by an animal.“What happened?!” I exclaim, rushing to her.She starts to shake her head, as if wanting to brush it off, but instead she bursts into tears. I lead her to the living room and sit her on the couch, my blood already boiling.My eyes scan her wounds, mentally trying to ascertain their severity and if I should be calling 999. Even though ther