Sebastian

I stood in Blake’s kitchen staring at him and Olivia. I nearly growled as he had his hands around her waist smiling down at her. I shook my head and he looked up.

“What's up Bash?” He asked me and I nearly growled again.

“Nothing I’m fine" I lied putting my cup in the sink. Olivia stood back and looked at me.

“You want to talk Bash?” she asked me and I stared into her beautiful eyes. I didn’t, I was over this and I was over having to share her. I looked down thinking for a minute, if I stopped this it means I would have to give up Olivia and that I certainly didn’t want to do. If I had her I had to share her with Blake, it killed me and all I wanted was Olivia to be mine, completely mine. We had been a threesome for the last year and it was clear I was the only person with the problem. I think I would feel even sicker if I had to watch her be with Blake and not me. Me and Blake had been best friends since we were kids, we had shared a few women and Blake had girlfriends of his own, it was just me who was incapable of being with a woman on their own.

“No I don’t” I said firmly but barely believing myself. Olivia looked at me, her eyebrow going up.

“Are you sure? You were upset last night” I shook my head, I wish I hadn’t even spoken to her last night but, I watched her sleep close to Blake again and I fucking hated it. I wanted her close to me and me only.

“I’m fine, come here” I said, smirking. Olivia walked over to me and I grabbed her waist, pulling her closer to me. As I kissed her neck I whispered in her ear.

“You want us?” I felt her giggle and I knew it was game on.

“Are you happy now?” She asked me and her voice didn’t sound right all of a sudden. I pulled her chin up to look at me. Her eyes looked sad, fuck sake Bash.

“Yes, ignore what I said last night” I tried to whisper it but Blake heard me.

“What did you say?” I groaned, he looked concerned as well. I didn’t say anything and Olivia spoke for me.

“He said he doesn’t want to do this anymore". I rolled my eyes, great I went from thinking I was going to get some to having this conversation in two seconds.

“I said ignore me Ollie'' I chose to ignore Blake.

“Why did you say that though?” Blake asked me, I looked up at him and he looked hurt which pissed me off. There was no way I was fucking up my friendship with Blake either. I growled rubbing my hands over my face.

”I’m just not feeling it anymore, that's all" I swallowed, my mind racing. I didn’t know what to do in all honesty. I had never had this with any other woman and Blake, it usually worked well but Olivia was different and I didn’t know why. For me, our threesomes usually worked best for both me and Blake. I was there for the sex, Blake was there for the relationship. He was better at that shit than me, could understand women, talk to them and make them happy. I just fucked them and got my dick sucked. Olivia wasn’t like any of the other women we had shared though. For me just fucking her wasn’t enough. I did shit for Olivia I never did for any other woman. Even stupid stuff like picking her up from work, Blake always did that shit. Helping her when she was low at work, again Blake’s go to.

“You really want out?” Blake asked, his face screwed up.

“I don’t know. Yes'' I paused and rubbed my face. “No?” I asked myself. “I’m going to go” I said suddenly and Olivia grabbed my t-shirt.

“Bash don’t” I looked down at her beautiful face, I could never say no to this woman but I needed space.

“I have to" I said sadly and I saw a tear pool in Olivia’s eye. I grabbed her face with my hands. “You haven’t done anything wrong" I told her, trying to be reassuring, I know Olivia's brain. She shrugged.

“Okay if you have to” her voice was equally sad and it fucking killed me. I kissed Olivia’s forehead and slapped Blake on the back as I walked out of his house. I needed to figure out what my brain really wanted. I wasn’t good with this shit, I wasn’t good with different emotions that I wasn’t used to. I wanted her so badly, more than any woman I had ever met but now we were in a situation that I didn’t think could be resolved in a positive light for me. I didn’t really know what Olivia was thinking, I know she liked having sex with me and I feared that was all she liked.