WAITING LIST
The intensity of the pain I am feeling right at this very moment is almost unbearable. Hearing those hurtful words from the person I value the most makes it extra painful.
I was crying the whole drive home and he didn’t even do anything to calm me down. I was crying ugly inside his car, beside him but all he did was drive. No words of comfort. No anything at all.
I wiped my tears with my handkerchief and immediately got out of his car the moment he pulled over our gate. I didn’t look at him, nor thanked him for the lift. I didn’t need a ride home. I needed him to take his words back. But I know he wouldn’t. And it’s all my fault.
Eurick saw me as I entered the house. His eyes widened when he saw me in this state and walked to me. “Nique, what’s wrong?” he asked, worried.
I smiled weakly and shook my head. “This is nothing. I’m just emotional because
THE LASTMy throat ran dry when I heard Kai’s question. An employee with loyalty? An employee with a word of honor? Why is he asking me this question? Has he not moved on from me? From us?I want to know, too. If I was only allowed to ask that question to him right now, I would’ve asked it.Miguel and Paulo looked at me, waiting for my reply.I stared at Kai who’s busy reading my resume. Did he have to read it? I am aware that he knows everything written in it.I cleared my throat. “I am true to my word,” I started and Kai looked up and stared at me, with narrowed, intimidating eyes. My heart is beating fast but I needed to defend myself. I needed to get this slot. “When I say things, I really mean them—”Kai scoffed. “Really?” He smirked.I pursed my lips in a thin line. “Yes, Mr. Bennett,” I replied. “I know myself. When I
CRYKaisser took a very deep breath when he released me from his arms. I immediately felt the emptiness in my heart. I never thought I would be this empty.He looked at me as he took something out of his pocket. “Here. Wipe you own tears,” he said in a very cold tone as he handed me a handkerchief.I looked at it and shook my head. “No, Kai. You need to hear me out first.” I wanted this to end. I’m going to tell him everything now. I want all of this to stop. If he hears my explanation and still decides to leave me, I won’t blame him.He looked at me and pursed his lips in a thin line.I wiped my tears with my palm and swallowed the lump in my throat. “It’s my parents,” I started and snorted. “They wanted me to finish my studies abroad for better chances of getting the best job in the future.” I looked at him and his eyes are on me, waiting for me to conti
WELCOMEI cried the whole day at a park I passed by when I left Nildex. I didn’t care if people give me weird glances and sympathetic stares. My heart is breaking and I don’t have anyone to blame other than myself.I have been away for too long. Four long years. All these times, I have only been thinking of how Kai could forgive me when we meet again. I have always thought of how I could have him back to me. I have always thought of how he would be able to find someone else to have apart from me.I may have hurt him a little too much for him to look for someone else to love.Or maybe he stopped loving me when I left? I don’t know. It doesn’t matter anyway.I went home very late and just thought of the best excuse to tell my parents when they woke up. At least I applied at Nildex. I’m not expecting to get hired, though. I’m even thinking twice now if I really want to work there.
I KNOW WHAT TO DOI stared at him upon hearing those words. I don’t know if I should be happy or not. I’ve been wishing for this moment to come, the time where I can be with him in one workplace. But would I still want it now that I can see how happy he is with someone else?“You just hired me,” I said, repeating what he just told me, in disbelief.He stood up and crossed his arms across his chest. “Yes. I did. So, don’t waste your time and energy applying to some other companies,” he replied. “You said Nildex is the best company for you to exercise and apply what you learned, right? Now that you have the best, would you even look for something lesser?”I was stoned at his question. I don’t know if he’s still talking about the company or about something else.“Why did you hire me?” I couldn’t help but ask. I’m so confused. Does he r
YOUR GIRLFRIENDIt wasn’t that bad after all. I just needed some time to adjust to the new atmosphere but I’m getting by. My colleagues are all bringing about happy vibes so I’m happy. At least I can be happy, even just for a moment.“Who wants pizza for snacks?” Heina asked everyone in the room.Almost everyone raised their hands and the boys even shouted, “All on you?”Heina rolled her eyes. “I won’t ask if it wasn’t, dummy!” she told Charles who asked the loudest.I chuckled on my seat as I reviewed the new applicants for the company. I’m just too happy to be one with them. Being in one company with Kai was bad enough, having ill-mannered members would’ve made it worse.Charles stuck his tongue out. “Buy a lot then!” he beamed earning a glare from Heina.Sofia smiled and looked at me. “Miss Eunique, what else
NOT NOWI couldn’t calm down. I am not in the mood for anything. When I walked inside the office, everyone looked at me but no one ever dared to talk to me. I went straight to my desk to review on the files of the applicants I interviewed today.My heart is aching as usual, but the intensity of the pain right now is excruciating. I’m praying for the time where I will be immune to this intensity of pain. I hope it comes soon before I lose my mind.I love Kai. Of course, I do. I can’t imagine the day I won’t. Even though he’s killing me with what he’s showing me right now, I still love him. But I also realized one thing.I don’t possibly have to be with the person I love. Sometimes, loving someone brings in too much pain that would require distance in order to save oneself from impending self-destruction. Sure, I love him but if this love would hurt me, then I’d rather let go.
END OF THE ROAD“I’m going out for a company dinner,” I told my parents who were looking at me wearing a blue body-hugging dress that ends two inches above my knees.Mom and Dad smiled at me. “Sure, honey. You should go and have fun with your colleagues,” Dad said. I bet they are happy now that I have got accepted in their company of choice.I smiled and turned to leave.“What time are you going home, Nique?” Eurick asked me before I could close the door.“I don’t know yet. I’d meet with the girls after.” I replied.He pouted and nodded. “I’ll try to wait for you,” he told me.I shook my head. “Don’t wait up. I might go home late.” I replied.He frowned at me. “You better not go home later than two in the morning…” he warned me.I laughed at my overprotective brother. &ldquo
DANCE WITH MEI felt so comfortable talking to Juneau. I don’t know why but there’s something so warm about him that I couldn’t resist talking to him.He’s told me so many stories about his life and sometimes, about the company. I’m so amazed at how he knows a lot about Nildex when he’s only here for merely four years. Maybe I would be so familiar with the company if I stay longer, too.I saw Kai and his cousins talking to some bigtime guests. I silently prayed that he wouldn’t see me. I don’t want to experience his intense stares right now. I looked away just as I noticed him looking at my direction.“I hope you enjoy your first dinner in Nildex.” Juneau smiled as we finished our meal. Like the extravagance of this dinner, the foods were all good and expensive, based on how each plate was presented.I smiled and nodded. “It was nicer with you.&rdquo