LOGIN“Okay, rule number one,” Maeve said over the noise in the cafeteria. “Don’t challenge Tyler Sinclair in algebra.”
I tried my best not to look around. "Why? He was wrong.” Maeve picked up a food tray and stopped in front of me. "I'm not blind, Sydney. And no one else in that class was. We all saw it.” I just blinked. “You should have waited for Mrs. Holloway to correct him." She added. An uproar broke out from one corner of the room, and my eyes moved before I could stop them. My gaze landed on Tyler. He was with his basketball teammates, jerseys on, waiting for practice after lunch. And he was staring. That smirk was back. "And the fact that he's friends with your sister doesn't give you that liberty. You know that, right?” ‘But I was only trying to prove a point.’ I almost said. Instead, I turned to the mini burger and a few sprinkles of fries on my tray as I followed Maeve towards a table. “What happens when he’s challenged?” I asked quietly. Maeve sat across from me and shrugged. “On the court? They get trashed. But in class…this is the first time he’s ever been wrong.” That made my heart skip. I was just about to take my seat when someone bumped into me from behind as they passed by. “Oh my God, I’m sorry,” I blurted. But the boy didn’t even look back. Then I sat down, aiming to hurry out of school immediately after the last bell. Just in case. At first, everything was normal. I'd just picked up my burger while Maeve was already halfway through hers, scrolling on her phone. Then I felt it—cold and liquid beneath me. I frowned and looked down on the bench. ‘No!’ “What's wrong?" Maeve asked, looking up and noticing the distress on my face. I stood. A medium-sized ketchup sachet slid off the bench. ‘Shit.’ My stomach dropped. I lifted my head, my eyes straying across the cafeteria. Tyler was watching me. Someone laughed. “Yo, look." The sound spread before I completely grasped what was going on. Tyler's lips curled. “Uh-oh." He called. “Someone get her a jacket." Laughter exploded through the cafeteria. Even people who hadn’t been paying attention turned to look. My whole body trembled, but I couldn’t tear my eyes away from him. He wasn't laughing, just staring, like he was waiting for my next "smart move”. But I had nothing left in my body, safe for the extra layers of skin I suddenly felt too aware of. Tears pricked my eyelids and I wished I could melt away. "Syd, it's okay. Keep it together.” Maeve said over the laughter in the room. "It's just some ketchup. It's not that—" I bolted. I ran as fast as my legs could carry me out of the cafeteria. "Hey, hey, slow down!” Tyler called after me. "Earthquake!” The laughter followed me into the empty hallway as I walked towards the bathroom. Tears burned my eyes. “Syd!" I heard Maeve yell. But I didn't stop. I couldn't, not with the ketchup smeared on my black jeans. Not with my chest burning. Tyler had struck again, and this time he'd made the entire school laugh—well not everyone, but they'd laughed. Not just his teammates this time. I ran into the bathroom and slammed the door behind me, pressing my hand against the sink as I stared at my reflection in the mirror. ‘Don’t cry, Sydney. Don't cry. You've been through worse.’ I shut my eyes, trying to shut out the laughter from my mind. It all felt like I was back in Newston. Only worse. The door flew open as I exhaled, and Maeve appeared, her backpack slung over her shoulder. “Syd, oh my God.” She shut the door quickly and rushed to where I was, placing her hand gently on my shoulder. “Are you okay?" I scoffed bitterly. “There's ketchup on my butt. What do you think?" “Oh God.” She dropped her bag and dug through it. “Tyler is such an ass. Ketchup on your chair? All for what?” She pulled out baby wipes. “He wasn’t even always like this.” “Earthquake? Really?” She muttered. I leaned further as she began to carefully wipe away the ketchup. “Well maybe I look like some fat toy to him. Something easy to squeeze.” "No, don't say that, Syd.” "Maybe a joke then. He says it all the time and everyone seems to find it funny." My throat tightened as I stared at my reflection. “Why do I have to be me? Why do I have to be the other girl? The fat one, the lest attractive one. The joke.” “Syd." Maeve stood close to me. “You know that's not true. Tyler is just being mean because he can, because he wants to. No one sees you as a joke." “You mean you and Brooklyn?" Maeve brushed away my words. “I'm sure Tyler is actually angry that you challenged him in class. That's a good thing, isn't it? At least now he knows what it feels like to feel like a fool." That should have comforted me. But it didn't. It could never. Tyler had still won and he was going to keep winning unless I woke up as a completely different person. I'd only proved that I was some fat nerd, and Tyler had proved that I could never make him feel bad. I was the one crying in a bathroom again. “There's no point, Maeve." I said. “Tyler will always win. And I'll just be…Sydney, Brooklyn's forgotten sister.” “Forgotten?" Maeve threw a hand over my shoulders. “No. You are Sydney Walker. A girl too good for this goddamn school.” The door swung open, and we both turned. Brooklyn walked in, pom-poms in hand. "Sydney, oh jeez. I heard. What happened?” "Your sick friend. That's what happened.” Maeve’s Asian-American ass snapped, but Brooklyn ignored her and rushed to me. “It's okay. I'm fine." I said, forcing a smile. "Some girls said you insulted him in class. You shouldn't have done that.” I stared at her. "You believe that?” Brooklyn paused as if realizing what she'd done wrong. But then she continued. "When I told you to say something back to him I didn't mean like that.” "So what did you mean?” Maeve snapped again, taking the words right out of my mouth. I wasn't going to say it anyway. Brooklyn eyed Maeve and turned back to me. “You drew a war line Sydney." She said quietly. “And I’m not sure I want to get caught up in a war between you and Tyler."SydneyClasses passed in an actual blur.Not because they were exciting. But because nobody cared about how the president won the election six years ago. Or how the immune system would fight when it realizes we have eyes.And by lunchtime, every lesson had basically given up.Teachers looked tired, students looked possessed. And the entire school seemed to be counting down until tip-off, like it was the only thing keeping us alive.And if you asked me what I learned today? I couldn’t tell you a single thing.All I knew was somehow, I survived sitting in front of Dean for three straight periods while he spent most of the time bragging to a girl who was obviously waiting for him to ask her out.By the time the bell rang, my ears physically hurt.Goosebumps still crawled up my skin in irritation as everyone spilled into the hallway.And then somehow by sundown, I found myself standing in Maeve’s yellow bedroom.In front of her mirror.Wearing Lakeview’s jersey, which I’d stuck in the da
Tyler“Your dad won’t be able to make it tonight.” Mom said that morning, a glass of wine balanced between her fingers. “He had an emer—”“Emergency at work.” I finished for her. “Cargo problem. Has to be in Miami by midnight. The world ends if he isn’t there.”“Tyler.”I looked at her for the first time since I walked downstairs, catching that familiar look she gave me when she felt I was spiraling again.“I don’t like your tone.” “By now you should know I’m used to him never being around, Mom.” I said dryly. “He’s never available.” “Tyler,” she called again, a little sharper this time. Then she watched me for a moment before dropping the glass.“He wanted to be here, okay?” She said calmly. “It’s just not his fault he moves around so much.” I nearly groaned.Maybe throw my bag across the living room from hearing that same sick line for the seventieth time since I learned to play basketball.But my hand was shoved deep into my pocket Hurt.So instead, I turned away and sighed.“
Sydney If I thought Monday was noisy and crowded with all the buzz going on about the game… I was wrong. Tuesday was worse. “Bringing that trophy home!” someone yelled from behind me, purple paint smeared across half his face like he’d lost a fight with a paint bucket. “Woop! Woop! Lakeview!” Someone brought a freaking horn to school and was blowing it while riding a skateboard down the hallway. That wasn’t just dangerous, that was illegal on school grounds. “Hey, catch!” Something flew across the hallway. I shrieked and ducked automatically. Thud! A basketball smacked into a locker two feet away from me, before bouncing back into someone’s hands. The guy didn’t even apologize. He just caught it and laughed, turning back to his partner. Then he threw it again in someone else’s direction. Chaos. That was the perfect description of Lakeview High’s hallway that morning. And somehow, the school was encouraging it. Purple streamers hung from the railing, p
SydneyI walked back out of Lakeview High that day with trembling legs and slid into the back seat of Maeve’s car, listening to her recite her shopping list like I genuinely cared what flavor of beauty face mask we bought at the mall. Anything to keep her from figuring out I actually hadn’t forgotten a pen, or whatever I’d told her I’d left behind.But I’d gone back to look for Tyler Sinclair. Because whatever was wrong with me wouldn’t shut up about the gym assembly.And there he was, lying on the gym floor. His hand trembling like it’d fall off the longer he kept pretending nothing was wrong.“Out of three jobs, he was a gym instructor. And sometimes he’d come back tired and angry and…” I’d stopped myself right there.Stopped myself from walking directly into one of the most humiliating jokes from that irony.“The fat girl’s dad was a gym instructor.”Lakeview would have a field day.Then there was the way Tyler had looked at me.Not that usual annoyed, amused Tyler look.It felt l
TylerMom.Of course.Because apparently the universe still wasn’t done humiliating me today.Mom sat quietly on the couch in the living room, one leg crossed over the other, still in her work clothes. Her laptop rested beside her, untouched, but her eyes stayed fixed on the mug of coffee in her hands, ignoring the fact that I’d just walked through the door later than normal.At least that was what it was supposed to look like.But I knew better.She was waiting.Sitting there, staring at the TV without actually watching it, expecting me to turn back around and do what I should’ve done days ago.My hand suddenly stung beneath the bandage, reminding me why walking over to her felt like a terrible idea.Sydney had spent time wrapping it properly. And if I took it off, there was no way I’d wrap it back just as well.And honestly, I just wanted to go up to my room and just keep avoiding Mom. But I knew she’d never let me win these silent treatment games she liked to play.I sighed and st
TylerBy the end of practice, I’d concluded we were going to lose Tuesday’s game.And that pissed me off more than getting dragged into the gym earlier like some criminal on public display. And Principal Lawrence really stood there acting disappointed like he didn’t happily collect “donations” from half the parents in Lakeview whenever their kids screwed up. “Sinclair! Get a grip!” Coach Bradford’s whistle shrieked through the gym again. “What the hell is wrong with you?”I lost count after maybe the fiftieth time he yelled it.Because clearly he was still pissed about the fight. He just couldn’t bench me before Redwood, so instead he decided to verbally assassinate me during practice.But the funny thing was, I did get a grip.Really fucking tried.“You good, Ty?” Micheal nudged me after one horrible pass nearly smashed straight into Aaron’s face. “You look like you’re about to puke.” Maybe I was. Because every time I caught the ball, pain ripped through my hand so hard it nearly







