ANMELDENSydney
Two days after I had ketchup stuck to my butt, the gossip grew louder. No one whispered anymore or tried to hide their mouth when they spoke, or cared if I was right there. “I still can’t believe she’s Brooklyn Prescott’s sister.” “Yeah, talk about differences. Are you sure they’re actually related? They need to ask their mom some questions. “ “No wonder Brooklyn’s the cheer squad captain. She’s way better. Prettier.” “Too bad she’s not dating Tyler. They’d have been a perfect match.” “You mean yet.” “Hey, fuck off!” Maeve yelled, even though swear words weren’t allowed on school grounds. And me? I just slung my backpack tighter over my shoulder, head low, walking to my locker, hoping to get through the day without running into Tyler. “Sydney, don’t listen to them.” Maeve said as I punched my locker code and opened it. “So what? I wear earplugs to school now?” Maeve relaxed on one foot. “I don’t like your tone.” I turned to her, catching that look she always gave me whenever I started digging my own grave. “What?” “They’re wrong about you, Syd. Brooklyn isn’t better than you. If anything, you’re better than her in ways they’re trying to suppress.” I scoffed. “People would pay millions to see Brooklyn’s thighs if it were in a museum.” Maeve shot me a look like she wanted to lay me on the ground, sit on my back and spank me. “Look, you really shouldn’t let what people think and say about you get to you, Sydney. You’re beautiful the way you are. You’re perfect.” She said. “You shrink every time you listen to what they say. And I don’t like it.” I swallowed, my gaze faltering. I really wanted to believe her. I really did. But as the day went by, it was getting harder and harder to even listen to words like that. Brooklyn had stayed true to her word and barely looked at me at school. She now kept to herself and move around her clique more. It was almost like the whispers had gotten to her head. And once, I’d heard her snicker when Tyler made a joke relating me to B.O.B. When I looked at her with surprise, she flipped her hair. “It’s just a joke, Sydney. Don’t think much of it,” she said, not even looking at me. I was just about to leave when I heard her turn to her friend. “She takes things too seriously.” It was like a switch had been flipped in Brooklyn’s head. 'She takes things too seriously.' Really? My heart had dropped to the ground right there and shattered into a million pieces. I cried into my pillow that night. And once more, I was alone. Except Maeve, who forcefully pulled me out of my head. “But at least you’ll come to the Halloween party at Michael’s house?” she asked. Halloween party—tomorrow night. “No,” I slammed my locker shut. “Why?” Maeve almost shrieked. “Come on, it’ll be fun!” she whined as we walked to class. “Everyone will be talking about it, you don’t want to miss it.” I stopped and turned to her. “Two reasons, Maeve. One, I hate Halloween. And two, I’m not about to squeeze this body into some character costume and be the clown of the party.” “Sydney, stop that.” Maeve begged. “I don’t want to go alone again this year. I promise I’ll be with you the entire time. I won’t let anyone say a bad word to you.” "Besides, it's your chance to finally meet people." Finally, I sighed. Maeve wasn't going to let this go anyway. “Alright, fine.” “Yay!” she squealed. I looked over her shoulder, and I met Tyler’s gaze. He’d been staring. ***** Before I could even blink, Maeve had pulled her makeup bag to my house, climbed up the stairs to my room, and sat me down in front of the mirror. “Alright, pick one costume.” She said, all giddy. I looked down at the options she’d given me. And my stomach knotted. There was Tinkerbell, Te Fiti, and then Velma from Scooby doo. I wanted to run away from the room. “Come on, we don’t have all day.” Maeve said, already opening her concealer. “Can’t I just be Sydney?” She raised a brow. “You are Sydney. But why deprive the world of seeing you in some sexy outfit for one night? And a little bit of fuck you to those monkeys at school.” I smiled a little, my eyes dropping to the options once more. If only there was some kind of charm to ward off Tyler Sinclair. I’d have dressed as a shaman. “I guess Velma.” “Yes!” she silently rejoiced. “I was scared you were going to choose Te Fiti. I’d have given up.” Honestly, I almost wished I had. By the end of our preparation, I was dressed in Velma’s orange turtle neck that nearly covered her knee-length skirt, her orange socks and even red shoes. And Maeve had even gone the extra mile to get me a bob wig and oversized glasses. It almost felt…comfortable. Still, I tugged at the sweater. “It’s too tight, Maeve.” “No, it’s not. Your boobs are fine, Syd,” she said in that tone that meant she knew exactly what I was thinking. “Your body is part of what makes you beautiful. You need to stop maltreating it because of what Tyler or whoever shithead at school says.” She added. Then she bounced to my front, grinning with a glittery microphone in her hand. “How do I look?” My eyes took in her K-pop idol look—mini skirt, glitter tights, structured jacket over a tiny crop top, bold glitter makeup that screamed notice me. But in a good way. Overall, Maeve was beautiful, even though she’d exaggerated the K-pop thing a little. I almost always forgot that she was half Korean. “Perfect.” I said with a smile, wishing I was as slim as she was. “Yay!” she squealed and threw her arms around me. “You’re gorgeous, Sydney. I’m so glad you’re coming with me.” I wasn’t even given a chance to wish Tyler a sprained ankle, so he didn’t make it to the party when the car stopped in front of the brightly lit house with music blasting through the walls. And before I could take off my red shoes and bolt down the road, Maeve grabbed my hand and dragged me across the lawn. “Wow.” “Oh my. Is that Brooklyn’s sister?” Some guys dressed as zombie football players outside the house stared, as we approached the house. Maeve didn’t even wait. She pushed the door open, and I saw the largest number of teenagers I’d ever seen in one room before. People dressed as princesses, zombies, the grim reaper, angels, even fruits were scattered all over the place, vibing to the music. I suddenly felt exposed—cold even, as goosebumps traced their way up my spine. “Come on.” Maeve pulled me forward. Everyone turned and stared. And somehow I could hear their comments over the loud music. I tried to tug my skirt down a little more, but somehow it felt tighter than the socks. “Everyone is here already.” Maeve said over the music. “Let’s go get something to drink.” I tried to follow her behind, I swear. But when you have a body like mine, it’s hard to move freely without pushing people. “Maeve?” I called, adjusting my glasses. But as I lifted my head to search for her through the crowd, I bumped into someone, nearly spilling their drink. “Oh, I’m so sorry.” I apologized, turning to the person. My gaze met Tyler’s. His eyes dragged over me. Then his lips parted slowly. “Damn.”TylerI did not regret what I said to Sydney.I meant every word, even though I knew exactly what I was risking. Because I’d known that if I didn’t say it then, I might never find the courage to do it again.And yes, I’d expected Sydney’s response to be something along those lines. I mean, Sydney’s soft. She panicked easily, and over-thought everything.But I knew she’d meant what she’d said.And I’d be lying if I said everything that’d happen between us was easy to shove under the carpet.Because no matter how many times she tried to convince herself otherwise, I knew she’d been scared of me for a good part of the time we’d known each other.“I’m not ready.” Her voice echoed in my head as I watched her car leave the parking lot before finally climbing into the backseat of mine.The fear that’d crossed her eyes.That hesitation.It’d stung. I won’t lie about that.And even more when Ben wouldn’t stop glancing at me through the rearview mirror, as though he could see my heartbeat slow
SydneyI frowned, holding the book against my chest as I looked at her.Her smile had disappeared.“Do what?”“Dismiss this because of what happened yesterday.” “I’m not dismissing it.” I tucked my hair behind my ear. “I’m just…other things come first.”“Don’t say that.” She looked genuinely offended. “Where’s the excitement? The Winter ball is basically the highlight of every senior year!”I stared at her. “So are our tests, our biology project due Monday and oh, we have applications to submit.”“Oh my god,” Maeve groaned, rolling her eyes.I almost laughed.But then she narrowed her eyes at me. “You know what I’m talking about.”I shrugged. “Maybe.”“Come on,” she caught my hand and gave it a little shake. “This is the winter ball, Sydney. There’ll be lights and music, and…and most importantly…” Her gaze slipped past my shoulder, a tiny smile appearing on her lips. “Dates.”That made me frown.Not just because of the entire winter ball itself, or the idea of having a date, which se
SydneySomewhere in between my cheeks burning every time Maeve grinned at me when I basically said a word, and desperately trying to shove the guilt out of my head, I somehow managed to fall asleep without thinking too much about that nearly empty gym.Oh, who am I kidding?I did.Then I crawled out of bed the next morning, took a shower, pulled out the closest oversized shirt I owned, and finally stood in front of my mirror.Hair looking like I’d fought with a badger in my sleep.‘He’d literally asked you out. Whether you like it or not.’Maeve’s voice echoed in my head, followed by the sound of her loudly munching on those chips enough to make me want to end the call.Instead, I’d grown so red, at some point I’d actually considered texting Tyler.Because she’d been kind of right.And she’d also been right about how calm Tyler had been when I’d indirectly agreed that he was a lot.Stop.“Focus, Sydney.” I muttered, shaking the thought away as I picked up my hairbrush to fix the mess
Sydney “There’s a lot of eyes on him all the time.” I continued. “People at school say the shittiest things when I as little as stand beside him. They’re going to talk even more if I become his girlfriend.” “Sydney.” “They’ll have opinions about everything I do, everything he does, everything we—” “Sydney.” “What if I’m not good enough for him?!” The words came out louder than I intended. “Oh,” Maeve’s shoulders dropped. I sucked in a breath. “I’m sorry.” “No, no. It’s okay.” She said calmly, her gaze faltering for a second before a tiny smile appeared on her face. “Now I see the problem here.” “What?” “You don’t think you’re good enough to be with Tyler.” My gaze dropped. “Maybe.” A second passed. Then Maeve let out a tiny breath. “Sydney, do you think Tyler would lead you on for nothing?” She asked. “Because if you ask me, I don’t think he’d sit with you, take you out for a drive, make you his date to an event he hosted, and then confess if he didn’t th
Sydney The earth stopped spinning for a second. My lungs felt so tight I thought they might burst, and I stared at Tyler, trying to make sense of what he’d just said. But this wasn’t about extreme fear or anxiety or panic. Or even excitement. It was uncertainty. ‘Breathe, Sydney.’ I took a breath, all the emotions I’d just named somehow mixing into one for some reason as I stared back at him, his words echoing through my head for a few more seconds. Something in my mind screamed. ‘Exactly! Yes, Sydney! This is what you’ve been waiting for,’ it squealed. ‘You can finally shut down the rumors and be comfortable being seen with him in public. Sydney Walker, you are going to be Tyler Sinclair’s girlfriend!’ ‘Stop!’ I argued back, my heartbeat picking up as I blinked several times, trying to get my thoughts under control. Tyler’s brows pulled together, this worried look taking over the nervous sincerity in his eyes as he leaned slightly closer. “Sydney?” “I’m not rea
Sydney“Yeah,” he nodded, then looked down again.“But I do miss her.” He admitted. “I miss the old Brooklyn. The one before the fame. Less mean and…greedy and actually cared about the feelings of the people around her.”My stomach tightened, Brooklyn apologizing to me last night flashing through my mind.She’d sounded very remorseful and relieved when I’d told her I forgave her. But apparently, there were still a lot of people she needed to apologize to.Still, I forced a smile. “She sounds fun.”He laughed under his breath. “She was.” He looked at me again. “Do you know she used to have braces?”My eyes widened. “Really?”“Yeah,” he laughed. “It all looked like a bunch of wires had gotten stuck in her mouth, and I swear sometimes she sounded like Donald Duck when she talked.”“What?” Laughter burst out of me before I could stop it, my voice echoing through the gym before I could cover my mouth.Tyler laughed too.“No way.” I said when I caught my breath. “That’s a terrible compariso
Sydney Being Sydney Walker had never been easy. Not when I was little. Not now, as you’re reading this. At first, I was just that antisocial, nerdy girl who never put up her hand in class even when she knew an answer, who never looked anyone in the eye in the hallway, the girl who ran home the s
Tyler I didn’t even want to come in the first place. Michael’s parties were always predictable—crowded house, expensive liquor stolen from his parent’s wine cellar, music loud enough to make you go deaf. Same faces, same people in silly costumes, thirsty for some recognition. The only reas
Tyler “Sydney Walker,” I’d repeated all day in my head. And the moment Brooklyn yelled my name, running toward me on the basketball court, and I found out that that curvy genius she hadn’t stopped blabbing about all week was her sister— Everything shifted. I swear I’m not a bully. I’ve neve
“Okay, rule number one,” Maeve said over the noise in the cafeteria. “Don’t challenge Tyler Sinclair in algebra.” I tried my best not to look around. "Why? He was wrong.” Maeve picked up a food tray and stopped in front of me. "I'm not blind, Sydney. And no one else in that class was. We all saw







