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43 - hallucinogenics
lara
“let’s get your heart pumping and your blood moving, belle” doctor hiroshi says as he led jasper and i into another white room with workout machines.
i knew what was coming next, i’d have to take off my gown and bring this cream-like stuff and massage it -in a creepy overly handsy way- into my stomach and upper chest, he said it was something that had to be done in order for the circular monitors to successfully attach to my skin.
he’s been forcing me to run five or more miles a day saying that i should be able to run faster and longer before nearing to pass out.
he ignored me regarding the reason why i was in the hospital and that i couldn’t have my body to be stressed out.
“you work for them?” i blurt out as i watc
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