Standing out in the cold evening, frozen in the cold, I stood in place, my hands wrapped around my arms, rubbing them, caressing. I couldn’t believe Nick had abandoned me in the middle of nowhere.
From behind, a flashlight came drawing closer. I tried to stop it by running toward it, but zoom—it went away. “This can’t be happening to me.” I reached for my bag, hung on my shoulder, and grabbed my phone. “And now, I’m out of battery. Goddamn… Fuck! That asshole!” I stood at a corner, and with no means of transportation, I started walking, but I was still in the middle of nowhere. I stamped my foot on the ground so hard that I almost broke my ankle. Out of nowhere, a car’s headlights beamed at full speed. “Hey! Hey!” I reached out to stop it. “Fuck yeah, don’t stop. I bet you’re a serial killer. I probably dodged a bullet there!” I shouted aloud. Screeching, the car stopped, and suddenly, it reversed, making my heart pound like crazy. “Shit!” I said, holding my hands to my chest as I turned away from the car that was now close to me. “Hey! Are you okay?” Jackson asked. “Yeah, yeah, I’m okay. Some jerk left me stranded here,” I said, pretending to walk away. “All alone? In the middle of nowhere?” Jackson asked, looking concerned. “Yes, all alone. In the middle of nowhere. Alright, bye,” I replied, walking away. Jackson slowly drove closer to me. “No, hey! Wait. Okay, I know that sounded bad, but it’s true. I can’t leave you here… all alone in the middle of nowhere,” Jackson said, making me feel better. “Okay, that sounds better,” I chuckled. “Do you have an iPhone charger?” I asked before getting into the car. What a day. I couldn’t even take my charger out of my suitcase. Plugging in my phone, I turned it on, and my hands pressed my keypads nonstop. “So, where am I taking you?” Jackson asked. “Where are you headed?” I asked in return, still pressing my phone. “To some random party at a villa spot out there. I’d invite you, but if what I said sounded bad, you’d think I’m gonna dismember you,” Jackson said, and we both laughed together. “The surprise guest, right?” I chuckled, and Jackson joined me. “So, where do you live?” Jackson asked, his eyes fixed on the road. “Know where the Leisters live?” I asked. “Of course. Do you live near there?” Jackson asked, giving me a quick stare. “I live there,” I replied, still staring at my phone. “What? Do you live in Nicholas’s house?” Jackson asked, confused. “Worse. He’s my stepbrother—the one that left me stranded,” I replied. “Nick? What an asshole. Well, now I get it. He didn’t have much time to drop you home,” Jackson said, smiling. “What do you mean?” I asked, looking confused. “He wanted to get there early.” “Get where?” I was still a bit confused, not understanding what Jackson was saying. “To the party I just told you about,” Jackson replied coldly, giving me a glance, his hands on the wheel. “Hold on. Nick is there?” I asked, surprised. “He was supposed to be at Nickel’s. But at a party? Oh, what a big damn fat liar he is,” I spoke to myself. “There’s no party without Nick,” Jackson said, bringing me back. I emerged from Jackson’s vehicle, my arms crossed in mitigation of the night air. The mansion towered over me, glowing and humming with laughter, but I had no plans to enter. I had had enough of my new family for one night. “Are you sure you’re okay?” Jackson said, leaning against his vehicle. His brown eyes examined me carefully, as if he wasn’t convinced. “I’m fine,” I muttered. “Thanks for the ride.” He hesitated. “You know, Nick is not that bad of a guy. He just—” “—is an arrogant jerk?” I finished for him. Jackson laughed. “I was going to say complex.” I rolled my eyes and faced the house. “I better get home before my mom starts freaking out.” Out of nowhere, someone bumped into me. “Can’t you— Are you blind?” I said angrily, dusting my dress as I stood up. “Nona, okay, listen up. This is a gang get-together party, so be careful. That’s the most dangerous one over there—the one in white. That’s Ronnie. He got out of prison yesterday, to give you an idea of what the deal is,” Jackson pointed out to me. Standing there, I was stunned. What gang is this? The fact that Nick was in it—lying to his rich dad to come somewhere like this—made no sense to me. “Listen. You’ve got the Purples, the Greens, and the Blues. And then there’s ours. That is our leader,” Jackson said, pointing at Nick, who was jumping up and down with women all over him. I could swear he looked hotter than before. His hair, once gelled, was now scattered all around him. His abs sent shivers down my spine. I stood in a gaze as he turned around.I stopped sitting with them at lunch.No big scene. No slamming trays or dramatic exits. Just… one day, I didn’t go to the table. I walked past it like I had somewhere else to be. Like I mattered somewhere else.I ended up in the back corner of the library, where the lights were too dim and the carpet smelled like old dust. Nobody noticed. Not really.I told Jessie I had a quiz to make up. Told Ronnie I wasn’t feeling great. Lies, obviously, but they didn’t ask questions. Jessie just shrugged. Ronnie gave me one of those half-smiles and turned back to whatever story he was telling.They didn’t need me anymore. Not in that way.Jessie was still glowing like the afterburn of a fire—thriving on the chaos. Ronnie was busy lapping up his fifteen minutes of infamy like he’d been waiting his whole life for it.And me?I was disappearing.Not all at once. Not loudly. Just quietly slipping into something I couldn’t name. Fading, like a bruise that overstayed its welcome.I thought pulling away
The sky hung low with a dusky orange glow as Ronnie and I sprinted toward the rusted barrels near the fence. The cheers behind us rose like a wave, feeding the chaos that buzzed through my blood. My hands were shaking, but I didn’t stop. We unscrewed the caps, tilted the canisters, and started pouring gasoline into the air—recklessly, wildly. Like it was a kind of prayer. Or a dare.The fumes wrapped around us, sharp and dizzying. My throat burned. My eyes watered. But still, we kept going.Nick stood a few feet away, frozen. His expression was a slow-motion unravel—mouth parted, eyes wide, his entire body asking a question he didn’t have the words for. He looked like he’d walked into the wrong movie and couldn’t find the exit.His silence hit harder than any scream.He hadn’t seen this version of me before.Maybe I hadn’t, either.Behind us, the crowd was a storm—teenagers, drifters, adrenaline junkies. Screaming. Laughing. Daring us to go further. It was more than approval. It was i
“Sorry that I’m not complicated like you, racing cars to see who has the bigger one,” I said with a heavy heart, knowing how I felt inside, and knowing what comparison felt like. Nick, on the other side, didn’t just give an ear to what I was saying. He turned my phone upright and saw the photo. “Ooh,” he said, then his smile suddenly turned down to a serious face. “If I get you the picture already, will you go home already?” Nick asked, with a serious expression written all over his face. “Maybe.” “Maybe?” he asked, stretching his hands as he spread my legs wide open. Then he leaned in, our eyes spoke volumes, conveying unspoken understanding. Breathing heavily, he took up my phone. Then he leaned in more closely and kissed me. He pulled apart, then he said, “Tongue.” He said. I pushed my face forward and kissed him carelessly. Flashes shone on our faces. Then we stopped. “Here’s your picture,” he said. Our eyes still locked in at each other’s. “Hey, enter the car. I will get J
Nick accelerated aggressively as the race commenced. A spray of mist filled the air as he sped toward the finish line, leaving his rival behind. He clinched the victory, greeted by a chorus of cheers: “Nick! Nick! Nick! Nick!”Out of nowhere, Amike walked up to him and kissed him on the lips. I turned to Jessie, puzzled. “She’s back again? Is she his girlfriend?” I asked, confused.“Anna! Shh, his only girlfriend is that machine,” she answered reluctantly, as she continued cheering Nick. He placed a kiss on his car. I stood, puzzled.I stood there, confused. Out of nowhere, my phone buzzed with a message—an image from an unknown number. I squinted at the screen, trying to make out who it was from, but no name appeared.I just stood there, frozen. As I glanced down at my phone and tapped the screen to unlock it, the image popped up—and everything stopped. There they were: my boyfriend and my best friend, locked in a kiss.“What the fuck is this?!” I screamed.Jessie turned to me, confu
“Were there boys your age?”“I don’t need any more friends, Mom. You separated me from Joel, but I won’t forget him.”“Sweetie…”“He’s much better than all these snobs,” I cut her off, my gaze locked on Nick as I shouted before storming off.“Damn!” Nick remarked, giving an unserious yet serious look at Rabel.“Her boyfriend—she misses him. She must’ve had a bad night.”“Any more pancakes?”“No, Petal, we’re okay,” she replied, sitting down.“Right here’s fine.”Someone called out, “You’ll get sunburned!”—their voice carrying like a distant chant, yet not too far away.Sitting at the beach, I held a book up in my hands, reading. The sun beamed down as my phone suddenly rang from an unknown number.“Hello?” I answered.“Yes?”I pulled the phone away from my ear, ended the call, and tried to guess who it was.“Watch out, Lion! So cool, I almost hit you!”Jessie and her boyfriend, with Nick and others, chatted as they walked on the beach.As soon as I saw them, I quickly put my book in m
No, man, not again. No, let me drive! I always wanted to drive one of these. I uttered intoxicated remarks. “No, baby, no way. You are drugged and don’t have a license.” A slight smile crossed Nick’s face. “I’m just dizzy, okay! But wait, you did drink though.” I pointed straight at his nose shakily. “Just one shot, okay?” he countered. “Yeah, but off of someone’s boobs. Nice and salty tequila mixed with sweat. Tasty, huh?” I chipped in. “What will Freud say about pouring liquids and sucking them up like that?” We drove for like five minutes before we got to Nick’s mansion. I was wrapped around his shoulder like a baby. He carried me with ease. Sure enough, I didn’t weigh anything on him ‘cause he moved effortlessly. “Freud isn’t some trap singer, so you know. He’d say that it’s shedding tears, or something worse, on your mother’s breast. So suck on that!” “Leave my mom out of this,” he said calmly. I tripped over the stairs, letting out a loud noise. “Shhhhh.” Nick softly pl