REBECCA Eilert was dreaming. Same as thousands of other girls, she danced with a famous actor who’d invited her to prom. You look so pretty, he said. There’s no other girl like you. She didn’t believe him. She wasn’t that special, but she liked hearing it. When she laid her head on his shoulder, he rubbed her back. Let’s ask your parents if we can run away.The fateful words yanked her from her slumber, the slap of reality causing her heart to pound. She had no parents, and she couldn’t run away.Her mother was dead.Her father was permanently “off on business.”Her two seven-year-old brothers only had her to take care of them.Though no one had celebrated, her sweet sixteen had come and gone yesterday.Oblivious to her distress, Charlie and Pete were locked in their usual morning war. Who got to use the bathroom first was a favorite squabble, along with Pete’s habit of stealing his twin’s backpack. Charlie knew which one was his because it had no rip in it. When Pete yelled at Charlie for sticking his toe across the duct tape that split their room, Rebecca wanted to yell too.Their house had three bedrooms. None of them had to share. The problem was, not sharing meant giving up on the pretense that their father would return.Her final image of him came back to her. He’d been standing by the front door, his overnight bag zipped and bulging by his feet on the penny tile. He was handsome—maybe a little weak, a little less pulled together since his wife had gotten too sick to spoil him. Her funeral had been a week ago to the day.I can’t handle it, Rebecca, he’d said. Your mom being gone. You. When you try to cling to me like this, all I want to do is run.He’d actually shuddered. He’d been too disgusted by her needing him to hide his repulsion. In that moment, if there’d been a knife in her hand, she’d have shoved it into his heart.How dare he make her feel like she was the needy one? Like it was her fault he was abandoning them.Call child services, he’d said. There’ll be someone who wants the boys. Clearly, he couldn’t conceive of anyone wanting her.So it was on her now: taking care of the boys, of herself. As Pete and Charlie’s turf war hit a new crescendo, she yanked her flowered comforter over her head. She wished she could stay under here forever, pretending everything was all right. She knew they were lucky they had the old brick row home. She wouldn’t hold her breath about her dad sending money, but their mother’s insurance payout covered the mortgage. They could keep the house they were used to—even the same bedrooms. As long as no one got sick and the roof didn’t spring a leak, they were safe from starving.Probably anyway.On the bright side, she was getting really good at forging Sam Eilert’s signature.Before her stomach had time to clench, her bedroom door burst open and banged against the wall.“We’re hungry,” Pete announced, finally in agreement with his brother.Rebecca sat up and glared at him. Though she was tired and angry, her heart twisted. Pete looked hungry. Like his brother, he was skinny as a rail—pale too, with pinchy shadows around his eyes no boy his age should have.“Sorry,” he said guiltily, though her glower had faded. “Forgot to knock.Charlie ate the last of the cereal yesterday.”Without their mother to cook for them, cereal and milk had become their go-to meal.I’m screwing up, Rebecca thought. If I’m going to keep them out of foster care, I need to do better.“I’ll make breakfast,” she announced, immediately wondering if she could.Charlie skidded down the hall in his socks and bumped into his brother. He and Pete were blond like her, but not identical. Charlie was a hair taller and had a wider, more anxious mouth. He hung his pointy chin over Pete’s shoulder.“Pancakes?” he said hopefully.“Yes,” she said with as much firmness as she could muster. “Whole wheat with syrup.”Throwing off the covers, she swung out of bed in her Dalmatian-print pajamas. She tried not to think about her mother shopping for them with her. Paula Eilert been sick already. That trip to Macy’s was one of their last outings.“We don’t have syrup,” Charlie said. “I’ll make that too,” she declared.Her tone must not have been as confident as she’d meant. The boys exchanged doubtful glances with each other.“I will,” she said. “Go set the table so I can dress.”The twins must have found a smidgen of optimism. By the time Rebecca reached the kitchen, they’d put out the plates and silver. Praying she could whip this together before the elementary school bus arrived, Rebecca set to work.To her relief, pancakes turned out to be a cinch. She’d watched her mother prepare them so often she needed no recipe.The syrup was trickier. Sugar dissolved in water didn’t taste right at all. Trying to think fast, she chopped and threw some apples in the saucepan. Maybe a pie-filling thing would do. She’d seen her mother make them too. Muttering to herself, she rummaged through the pantry for ingredients that might work. The boys watched her dash around with big eyes, reminding her to flip the pancakes as they fluffed up and browned.“We don’t have to have syrup,” Charlie said, trying to be helpful.“I’m not giving up,” Rebecca growled, though her apples had gone mushy. Cursing, she strained them out with a slotted spoon. That disaster discarded, she noticed the remaining juice had thickened. It smelled pretty good. Hoping to salvage something, she blew on the spoon and licked. The miracle that hit her taste buds had her gasping with excitement.Completely opposite to her expectations, her apple syrup was delicious.Not only that, it had an amazing texture: smooth and rich on her tongue and a zillion times better than store-bought. With a sense that the magic would disappear if she didn’t hurry, she ladled her creation over the boys’ pancakes.“Eat,” she urged, setting the portions in front of them.Possibly she was acting crazy. The boys looked at her, then the food, then picked up their forks and started shoveling.Pete was the first to pause. “Mmm,” he said, a sound she wasn’t certain she’d heard him make before. The noise wasn’t simply pleased; it was shocked. She’d made him pay attention to what he was eating.“Mmm,” Charlie agreed, nodding emphatically. “This is better than Mom’s, Becca!”They were seven, so those were all the compliments she was getting . . . unless you counted them literally licking their plates clean.Delighted by their reactions, she almost forgot to eat herself. When she did, she found her brain ticking through adjustments to make the dish better. She wasn’t even trying, and her mind just did it. She hadn’t known it would. It seemed important. Actually, it seemed epic. Rebecca was okay at lots of things. This suggested there might be something she maybe was great at.I could learn to really do this, she thought.“Five minutes till the bus,” Charlie broke in to say.Charlie lived in fear of missing his ride to school. Sympathetic to the worry— because if anyone needed safe routines it was them—Rebecca handed him a damp washcloth. While he mopped the stickiness from his face, she herded her brothers out of the kitchen and down the entrance hall. On the way, she checked Charlie’s precious non-ripped backpack.“Everything is here,” she assured him. Apprehension that he’d forget something was a recent tick of his. “All your books and all your supplies.”More relaxed than his sibling, Pete slung his matching sack over his shoulder. His boniness made her gladder that she’d fed him. When his clear gray eyes met hers, they seemed eerily grown up.“We’ll remember,” he said before she could start her spiel. “Dad is working in Cincinnati. He called us all last night.”“Right.” She bent to kiss his head. She kissed Charlie’s too, holding both of them a little longer than usual.“Bus!” Charlie said in a panic.“All right,” she surrendered, letting go to open the door for them. “You two have fun today.”They galloped down the steps without looking back, exactly like they used to with their mom. Those boys, her mother would sigh. They’d run straight off a cliff if it looked fun enough. Back then, Rebecca’s brothers had seemed like pests. Today she understood her mother’s concern. Pete and Charlie needed someone to be their safety net. Like it or not, she was it.I will do better, she told herself.From then on, whatever it took, she’d be a real parent.
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THE last four years had been the best of Zane’s life. Finally free of their fathers, he and Trey had gotten into Harvard. Zane’s way was paved by a football scholarship, Trey’s by a special economics prize. Trey might have been more surprised than anyone that he’d won it. His essay on the correlation between macro and micro markets had been submitted by one of his teachers at Franklin High. Though Zane wasn’t stupid, when he’d tried to read the doorstopper of a paper, he’d understood one word in two. The experience taught him an important lesson about his friend.Trey Hayworth’s smarts were easier for him to downplay than his sexuality.Zane didn’t hesitate to say yes when Trey tentatively suggested they room together off campus. Not only was this convenient for their continuing sexual hookups, but if Zane got lost in his classes, he had a built-in tutor. The arrangement turned out better than either predicted. For four years they worked and played with equal fervor, each one giving t
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REBECCA’S heart pounded way too fast as she opened the passenger door and hopped out of the delivery van. Her head chef Raoul was driving, taking time off to help her. She owed him big for this, especially since—strictly speaking—he didn't work for her anymore. In the back of the van was his strapping son Dominic. They’d double-parked in the financial district, a busy area of Boston that mixed Colonial buildings and skyscrapers. Because Raoul couldn’t leave the wheel, Dominic was helping her offload her two shrink-wrapped six-foot-tall supply carts. Neatly packed onto the steel shelves was everything she needed for today’s menu. She knew this because she’d checked the contents as obsessively as her brother Charlie used to check his backpack for school.She couldn’t afford to forget anything today. Every detail had to go perfectly.She wiped sweaty palms on her clean black trousers, then grabbed the back end of the first cart to guide it down the van ramp with Dominic. He grinned at he
“I’d be honored,” he concurred.Dominic took his cue with a smoothness that would have done his father proud, pulling out the single chair for Hayworth. Hayworth took it, then let the young man spread his napkin and pour his water. That done, he looked expectantly at her.Rattled but not—she promised herself—shaken, she set the first plate in front of him.Hayworth’s ah of pleasure as she removed the lid was exactly what she’d hoped for.Two fluffy golden potato blinis sat on a clean white plate, one picture-perfect little pancake tipped rakishly atop the other. This base was surmounted by a glistening scoop of tomato confit, which she’d seasoned lightly with roe of cod. Rebecca explained the dish’s contents, stepped back, and allowed him to dig in.Hayworth did so, then swallowed his mouthful. “Oh my God,” he moaned gratifyingly, spooning into the dish again. “That is amazing.”His appreciation was just beginning. He adored her creamy Maine lobster bisque, and pronounced her lamb cho
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“Rebecca,” he said, his tone as serious as the grave, his eyes rising with difficulty to lock on hers. “Believe me when I say I know I’m being inappropriate.”Her mouth fell open as he leaned down. Suddenly, her hands were on his front, not pushing him away but curling into his polo shirt. Boy, if this was how she reacted to a bit of attention, she needed to date more. She was tugging him toward her, and his arms slid warm and strong around her. His chest was broad and steely. As his head came closer, she rose on tiptoe.He licked a swipe up her parted lips, his tongue as soft as a rose petal.Rebecca’s breath shuddered out of her.“God,” he whispered and sealed their mouths together. He tasted like sun-warmed cherries.Rebecca wished he’d kiss her forever.“Mm,” he hummed like he had over her food yesterday. “Mm, Rebecca.” “Mr. Hayworth—“She lost her breath as he hiked her butt onto the worktop. The seat brought their heights closer. He angled his head and kissed her a second time,