Two Kidneys, One Deception

I died.Finally, I no longer need to suffer the torment of illness, bedridden and desperately waiting for death.My soul rose up from my body. I saw how miserably pale my face was.Before I could process that thought, my soul was led out of my hospital room, appearing next to my younger brother, Sean Child.His kidney transplant was a success and he could be discharged from the hospital. He was lying in bed, looking healthy, his face plump and red.Our mother was still worried about him. She sat next to him on the bed, caressing his face dotingly."You suffered so much, Sean. Look at how thin you are. My heart hurts so badly."Sean shook his head gently. "Mommy, I'm fine. See, I'm alright."Mommy's eyes reddened and tears streamed down her face. She nodded in agreement and said, "Yes, you're my lucky star, Sean. You had just been diagnosed when we found you two kidney donors."She smiled proudly at the mention of the kidney donors.When I was sick, we could not find a match

I wanted to say something else when Mommy hung up on me.As the storm raged on outside, I patted myself to try to calm myself down.'How could I be so immature? How could I ask Mommy to come over to be with me in such a huge storm? It's fine. Ivan, you can do it.'In the end, I could not hold on any longer. The illness consumed me and I closed my eyes forever.It turned out that Mommy knew everything. She just did not like me.Why?…When I was younger, Daddy and Mommy dumped me with Grandma.Back then, Grandma told me, "Ivan, you're a great kid, but your Mommy just doesn't like you."I did not believe her. I retorted in a huff, "You're wrong! Mommy likes me the best!"I angrily hit Grandma with my tiny fists before shoving her aside.She replied, "If your Mommy likes you, why did she give you to me? Your Mommy doesn't like you! She doesn't want you anymore!"I froze on the spot because of Grandma's yelling. My face flushed red as I stammered, "N-No. S-She's just too busy."

At first, I did not understand why my parents were separating.I knelt and begged them not to leave, but I still could not change their minds.Daddy bent down in front of me, looking at me with reddened eyes. He asked, "Ivan, do you want to come with me and leave the two of them?"I retreated in terror, determined to choose Mommy.I replied, "Daddy, Mommy will be tired looking after Sean. I want to stay and look after them."He chuckled as tears fell. He gently patted me on the head, saying, "Ivan, you're a big boy now. You've gotten mature, but you'll be suffering being with Mommy."I looked at him and said determinedly, "I'm not afraid of suffering."When Daddy found out I got sick, he had come to see me.When I saw him again, there were more gray hairs on his head.I heard him talking to Mommy. I also knew that he would be giving Mommy all of his savings.He cheered me up, telling me to be good during treatment, and that everything will get better.I still died in the end

It had only been a few days, but Daddy's hair had turned completely white. His face got even more wrinkly.He had a diary in his hand. His voice was almost gone, hoarse and strained. When he looked at Mommy, there was unmistakable hatred in his eyes."This is Ivan's diary. There's also a voice recording I'd like you to hear."Daddy said nothing and immediately played the voice recording on his phone.At first, there was only the sound of a little girl sobbing, mixed with an adult's repeated urging.The recording was short, barely a minute long.At the very end, under the adult's constant prompting, the little girl finally spoke in a trembling voice, "It was John. He was the one who pushed me. He even put a plastic bag over my head."John was Sean's real name, the name he had before he got sick. Only then did I realize that the girl in the recording was the same classmate he had nearly drowned in the river."He told me not to tell anyone. He even put animal body parts in my ba