Chapter 25 - Lola

Wow, that had been amazing… he had been so gentle, so patient….. so tender…. Definitely worth the wait, my perfect mate….. he must have known it was my first time as he was so gentle too…. But it had felt so good….like it was meant to be, though he was fated to be with me, so I guess in that regard, it was meant to be. He is meant to be with me.

Yet when he went to mark me I panicked, I truly did, I really wanted to allow him to mark me, my wolf Nori wanted to let him, but what Esme had mindlinked to me was lingering in my mind and I was terrified. What would happen to me if I went home and I was marked and mated without the Alpha’s permission? Could they actually do anything? Maybe I should not have slept with Manuel, maybe I should have waited until I knew I could accept him as my mate, because right now I do not know that could actually happen and that terrifies me.

Right now I am sat on the bed, having said no, both of us naked. He looks heart broken. I have hurt my mate a