Wow, that had been amazing… he had been so gentle, so patient….. so tender…. Definitely worth the wait, my perfect mate….. he must have known it was my first time as he was so gentle too…. But it had felt so good….like it was meant to be, though he was fated to be with me, so I guess in that regard, it was meant to be. He is meant to be with me. Yet when he went to mark me I panicked, I truly did, I really wanted to allow him to mark me, my wolf Nori wanted to let him, but what Esme had mindlinked to me was lingering in my mind and I was terrified. What would happen to me if I went home and I was marked and mated without the Alpha’s permission? Could they actually do anything? Maybe I should not have slept with Manuel, maybe I should have waited until I knew I could accept him as my mate, because right now I do not know that could actually happen and that terrifies me. Right now I am sat on the bed, having said no, both of us naked. He looks heart broken. I have hurt my mate a
I had struggled climbing down from the bathroom window, but I guess all the tree climbing as a young girl had done me good in the end. Who would have thought back then when I was doing all the tree climbing with the boys it would be in preparation for running away from my future mate…. I had got away with only a few scrapes, no doubt a few bruises by morning, but I am sure Kya would help them heal. Albeit reluctantly, as she was not happy with me right now. She was devastated, leaving her mate behind. She had wanted to complete the mating process, so happy to finally have the other half to her. So for me to run out on him she had been screaming in my mind, trying her hardest to push forward and shift to make me stay. I had to struggle with all my might to keep her back. She was now sulking in my mind, a mixture of hurt, anger and pain emanating from her being.Stupidly, all the same things I was feeling, but I had to do what I did, I had to run. I could not let myself become at
I woke up feeling so happy and content. Rey, my wolf, almost purring in my mind at the fact his mate was in our arms. Being with her last night had been heaven. The first time a little nervous and unsure, but it still felt so good. The second and third times during the night were intense and felt like our bodies were made for one another, each time reaching new heights of pleasure. I don’t think I would ever tire of my mates' touch. I know we laughed at Dan and Knox for always being late for being with their mates, but I can see why now, and I imagine Gabe will be saying the exact same thing when we see him…. if we see him later….. I want to stay in bed for the next month with my mate….. explore every sex position known…. Finding out all the things that make her squeal the way I like…… having both been new to this meant we got to discover things together…. The perfect combination…. I realised I had made an error last night assuming I could mark her, and I felt terrible for t
After rounding up our group, we headed over to Manuel’s house. He sounded a little stressed through the link I have to say, though maybe that is because he is worried for his cousin. I don’t know. I know I need to be wary about how I do this as I do not want to be too full on and intimidating to Lola and scare her or upset Manuel with it being his new mate. Lilah is doing her best to keep me calm. She loves Manuel like a brother, and she does not want to see him getting hurt or caught in the middle of all of this and right now that is exactly what he is. Manuel opens the door to us. He looks tired, though after a night having just met his mate, I would expect nothing less. Though he is only wearing a pair of shorts and I cannot see a new mate mark on his neck, which surprises me. Dan when he met Indie had marked her as soon as possible, as do most couples, thought I know Manuel had been nervous last night. “Here are the clothes Manny, you want me to take them up to Lola?”
I am so glad to hear Knox say he will do all he can to help me, and to help Lola be together, and what he said makes sense. If she is already part of our pack, can they actually do anything? I will discuss it with her later, but for now, we need to try to help sort this shit show of a situation for Gabe. Walking into the lounge to give everyone their coffees, I can see he looks broken, he looks like he hadn’t slept and that happy, content look he had on his face when we left him last night was long gone. He looks like a shell of his former self and I have to say I do not like it. He does not seem himself, he does not seem whole and that scares me a little. He seems empty inside. “Hey Lola” Knox greets Lola as she walks into the room with Lilah, despite the fact he had just seen her in the hallway. She smiles in return. “Are you ok Gabe?” Lola asks him quietly. Gabe looks to her, an empty and vacant, expression on his face “Oh yeah, great.” He mutters. Bro quit i
We all look to one another in shock, as Gabe has just walked out of the house, dismissing the whole situation. I thought hearing what he had would make him decide he wanted to go and try to fix things. Everything Lola had said sounded positive, she hadn’t fooled him, she hadn’t lied, she wanted him, she wanted her mate, she was just scared. She had a complicated situation in her pack and the arrangement with her pack for her degree that she was scared it would compromise. I can understand that, so why could he not? Perhaps he was unable to see the logical right now. I know he was hurting but he did not want to throw this away so easily. This was worth fighting for. Seeing them together last night, that was clear to see. We needed him to realise that. We need to speak to Esme, see how we can help her. She may not be part of our pack right now, but she was fated to be, so perhaps we needed to see what we could do to try to help her. In doing that, we would be helping Gabe. Or is tha
Manuel is holding me close to him, Knox has just left. “Wow Angel, I honestly can’t tell you how sorry I am” he whispers into my hair. “It is ok, I am sorry for shouting. I was upset. I don’t normally do that, that is normally Esme like that” I tell him. I feel him laugh, his chest vibrating against me. “It is fine, I am from a big family full of fiery women, it is nothing I am not used to. It made me laugh. Lilah told me you knew all the bad words” I move back from him, to look at him, puzzled. He sits down on the recliner and pulls me to his lap. “Lilah, when me and her first met, liked that Gabe and I would use the occasional Spanish word in our conversation. So Knox, trying to impress her, thought he would try it. He fails miserably, his accent is terrible, but she laughs at him and loves him for trying. It was an ongoing joke with Knox, when I found my mate, I could woo her with my Spanish words. Imagine their surprise when my mate turned out to speak Spanish! L
I sat in the flat my heart feeling like it was breaking. I should be back at the Midnight Forest Pack, at Gabriel’s home, getting to know my fated mate, yet instead I am having to accept the fact I have had to flee from my own fated mate when in truth I wanted nothing more than to be with him. All because of the messed up Alpha and pack we came from. I had never hated him more than I did right this moment. My wolf Kya had withdrawn into the nether areas of my mind right now, having thrown a serious tantrum at me earlier and was not happy with me for leaving our fated mate, but I had to follow pack orders, and had to do what I did. I could not stay with him, no matter how much I wanted to. I just hope that Lola had not allowed her mate to mark her either, she was not strong enough to cope with our Alpha and the consequences of going against his wishes. But ultimately, that was not my concern. She had to make her own choices, I had done what I needed to do, I had stuck to the ag