NICE DOCTOR.

   I was still weeping badly into my pillow when the nice doctor walked in.

    "Hey" he greeted but I was in no mood for a greeting so I just ignored him and continued to weep silently. 

   "Are you seriously going to ignore me and continue crying?" He asked but I still did not respond. He couldn't understand nor know how I was feeling right now for he was not in my shoes. He wasn't abandoned by his whole family, he wasn't betrayed by someone he thought was a friend.

    "Seriously?" he asked again and I decided to reply by turning to him in complete fury.

     "If you know you are going to keep pestering me, please leave me alone and make use of the door," I said before turning back to continue soaking my already wet pillow in tears.

    "Wow!"He exclaimed, disbelief obvious in his tone.

 "You kind of feisty," He commented but I ignored him. I had better things to worry about than a sarcastic compliment.

  ' How was I going to survive? I had no idea' I thought bitterly.

   "I understand you are going through a lot right now but crying or should I say soaking that pillow in tears isn't going to solve anything," He said but I still ignored him.

    "Are you seriously going to continue to willow yourself in self-pity?" He asked raising his voice a little and that pissed me off.

    "Excuse me but how is that any of your business?" I asked raging. 

"You have no idea of what I have been through, I am being abandoned by everyone I know at the age of 18 and yet you said I should not wallow in self-pity" I yelled thinking he would be mad at my outburst but he only just smirked and then said.

   "I do admit I know nothing about what is going but from my point of view, it looks like some sort of a family Crisis and if you are going to allow such a little thing to break you, then I guess I can say I am disappointed that you aren't the feisty lady I thought you were" He added making me wonder if this doctor is crazy. 

   I mean how can he tell me he is disappointed, did I ask him not to be and how can all that have happened not break me? I was set up by my blood sister, raped by her boyfriend who I thought was my hero in this evil world, and tossed aside and disowned by my parents. 

   I mean this doctor here completely has no idea of what I was going through and yet he has the guts to try and guilt trip me.

  'He must be insane' I thought in disbelief.

  "You have no idea or knowledge about what I am going through right now," I said as I moved to sit up and lay my head against the wall. 

  "So you can't come here and tell me you are disappointed in me for not being strong, I have been strong enough through high school and some years in college when I was being bullied 24/7" I added.

  " Why?" He asked with a grimace.

   "Why?"I repeated.

  "Because I was a nerd and a very ugly one at that, just so I could get the world to accept me, I decided to sacrifice my dreams of being a historian and a writer to become a Nun. Just so at least to get my parent's approval." I explained.

  "And I did, it was fun while it lasted but of course every princess must have an evil Antagonist and I did" I chuckled sadly.

   "But mine was my sister, my Elder sister who was supposed to pamper me and treat me like a jewel," I added, with heavy tears at the brim of my eyes.

   I felt intense pain as I was narrating my ordeal to the nice doctor. I felt my heart sneezing in badly at the thought of my family being the cause of my present situation.

  "So you see," I said as I finished narrating all my ordeal to him.

   "You don't know what I going through or passing through at this moment so I kindly like you to please be less judgemental," I told him as I moved my hands to clear away my tears which were already rolling down my cheeks but that wasn't enough because they kept falling.

     " Here," said the nice doctor as he handed me a handkerchief to wipe my tears away. I was shocked but accepted it anyway to wipe my face.

     "Thanks" I muttered as I wiped my entire face with the kerchief. Looks like the doctor isn't so bad. I gave him a great name "the nice doctor" I thought and giggled.

   I decided to fully scan him and realized he was a man in his late forties or fifties. He has a white short bread, Hazel eyes with a fully, relaxed and caring face.

   I suddenly felt better after confiding in him.

   "Mind sharing what's funny?," he asked with a straight face but I just nodded my head sideways meaning No.

   "You really shouldn't waste your beautiful tears on them," He said. "They don't deserve it" He added.

   "Well, they are my parents, and am not a cold person or a sadist to not cry when I was abandoned by them," I told him feeling teary once again. I tried my best to blink away my tears.

   "You know" He began. 

  "I think that is the more reason why you should not cry. Avoid them and pretend that they do not exist" He added making me frown.

 . "But that's not possible," I said.

  "It is," He said with a shrug.

     "It's not" I argued.

      "Well, it is. He said. "I know a lot of people who do that, it's technically simple"He added.

   "Well, it's not for me" I argued raising my voice a little at him.

    "Am sorry" I apologized when I raised how harsh I was sounding.

   "It's okay", he said smiling at me making me feel guilty.

   "It's just that I don't understand how you expect me to pretend the people I have known my entire life, my family don't exist"I added.

  "That's where you are getting it wrong again Acapella," he said calling my name without the use of any formality and that surprised me.

    "After all these people did to you, they don't deserve to be in your life not to talk of being called your family"He added.

    "But they are the only ones I have, I have no one apart from them, "I said innocently.

   "Don't you get it?" he yelled angry now.

  "They aren't in your life anymore, they have left," He said. "You have no one now" He added pricking my heart with his words.

   "Well then I will go home and beg them, I am sure they would have cooled off by then so they would be able to listen to my explanation" I argued stupidly refusing to believe his words.

  " Are you dumb?"He asked looking at me in total disbelief.

  "You want to go and apologize for something you didn't do?" He yelled, his eyes widening in shock.