Chapter 14 Power of Love

[AGATHA NGUYEN]

I love Lexie! It is not true that I am incapable of love because I've been secretly loving her for a long time.

It is apparent to me that we are going nowhere. Lexie was confused about our being best friends when she learned I was gay.

Perhaps she's bored and wants to try something different to her taste. That's all it is.

I love Lexie too much; cut to the chase where I don't want to pursue her because maybe I'm afraid of being hurt and left by her eventually.

Conceivably it's better to cut now while I can still drive the steering wheel. Rather than prolonging, it will be more painful to tolerate.

I no longer go against what she wants. After I got dressed, I left directly without looking back.

There is distress in my chest, and it's rigid not to feel it. I tried to ignore the gloom that arose.

I'm forcing my mind that this is better than drowning deeply in love, and too late to save my ass.

I have to fight my emotions to protect myself too.

And it is also for L