CHAPTER 5- KISS

His rugged breathing was the only thing that i heard as my mind wander to many thoughts. Why do we tend to complicate things because of thinking too much? If thoughts brings peace of mind, it also confuses and puts our head in turmoil.

I suddenly wondered if my name is ugly. I liked my name and saying it over and over again is my pass time whenever i get bored. I disliked any endearments because my name is the prettiest word for me. Aside from the well-known flower in it, i really liked the thought that it came from both my mother and father's name.

My brows furrowed in confusion as i think of my father's name. What is his name? Why does Momma don't wanna tell me? Is she still hurt? She hasn't moved on yet?

I almost forgot that my feelings got hurt by the vampire until his hand caressed my bare arms. I had goosebumps all over. I didn't want to look at him and see for his reaction again. I'll just get disappointed. His action seems sweet but i know how his face look like. I can only imagine his serious eyes looking at me as if it's the judgment day.

I don't know if he's comforting me or he's consoling me. The latter irritates me so i'll just think it's the sooner. I am right anyway. When i looked at him, he's all serious. His intense eyes stared at mine as his hands continued to caress my arms. I closed my eyes to feel him more. Though the main reason is i don't want looking at his almost emotionless face. I feel like i'm a bore for him.

"I can't call you by your name... well, yet. I don't want to lose my control... now that i know i have to let you go."

If words are just the basis of everything, i'll be the happiest confused woman. I understood his words but not really. I feel like he wants to call me by my name so bad but he's stopping himself because he might not be able to let me go. But he'll go anyway, i know. And i am not a hindrance for it. What i don't get is the word yet. Why is it attached in the sentence? Will he come back for me?

Because it's better if he just won't go. I'll be happier if he'll stay. Or better yet, he'll bring me with him. So i can see how beautiful their world is as i picture it to be.

I didn't really paid attention to him because I don't like looking at his face but I just find myself leaning unto his chest. I almost forgot that he has this undeniably fast speed. I just felt myself move and the next thing i know, he was already at my back, his arms gently wrapped around me as he touch my forehead to pull it to his side.

"You are impossible," i murmured.

He just hummed. I then felt his fingers combing my still wet hair. I felt comfortable in our position but my forehead creased when i felt my hair dancing because of the wind. I turned his way and closed my eyes when the wind brushed my eyes. I then realized it was not really the wind. It was him. He was blowing my hair to dry it as he comb it gently.

His pouty lips is what i saw when i opened my eyes. It was luscious red that is beautiful to look at. I didn't know i was staring at it for awhile now until he parted his lips and his Adam's apple move. When i looked up at him, he already looked intoxicated while staring at my lips.

"I want a taste. Just one swift. Just one... till i leave," he whispered before he pulled me hastily and the next thing i know, his lips touched mine. It was like a feather that landed on my lips. When i realized what he did, my eyes widened until he cupped my cheeks and moved his lips. I saw his brows furrowed and he suckled on my lower lip before i let out a gasp and unknowingly closed my eyes as my hand reach for his nape.

He plunged his tongue and bit my upper lip before licking the sting off. I moaned and parted my mouth to allow myself to breath but he took that opportunity to deepen his kiss. He explored every corners of my mouth as if he's memorizing it and a moan will escape my lips everytime he bites and lick my lips off.

His kiss turned softer and soothing after awhile. It was as if he's savoring the feeling because it will be his last. Like he wanted to memorize how it feels like. But his kisses turned aggressive again, like he's very addicted with my lips. Like he

I was catching my breath when he stopped and i couldn't focus because all i can see is a blur... I was drunken by his kisses! And i can feel how his lips rained tiny kisses from the side of my lips to my ears and down to my shoulders. I felt the sudden electric shocks in it.

I didn't know that kisses takes away all the energy because right now, all i want is to close my eyes and savor the moment. I don't have the strength to move and let go. I want to stay right at this moment. If it is possible, i want this moment freezed.

Thr kiss has made my mind go crazy! I can't believe it!

As if he knew what i feel, he straightened on his seat and crashed me to his chest. He repeatedly caress my back and dropped three kisses on my forehead. His lips then remained pressed tp my cheeks and i felt how his lips curved into a small smile. I wanted so bad to open my eyes and see it... but my eyes are too lazy to open. And i kinda like the feeling of him being this close to me.

He hummed softly and kissed my cheeks again.

"Rest, sweetheart. I just tasted the sweetest lips. I think, i'll get addicted if i sip from you. But i know my limitations. A kiss is fine for now. The longer the wait, the sweeter it'll taste." His chuckle was the last thing i heard before darkness engulfed me.

It was the color of a mixed orange and yellow that i saw when i opened my eyes. I saw how the sun is slowly setting in a small hole from the leaves of the big trees that surround the place.

And once again, i saw the beautiful scenery i've always wanted to see and will forever want to witness. The color of the sky as the sun slowly sets. It's like a beautiful and sweet goodbye. A farewell for a beautiful day.

I watched the sun disappear and the moon's light swap to guide the dark night. As the night deepen, the moon brighten and the small shining stars lit up the dark night sky. I was in awe as i search for the most shining star but a burning wood not far away from where i was caught my attention.

It was not the stars that is shining brightly in my eyes. It was the vampire and his fangs that are being illuminated by the fire he made. His eyes lightened up and a playful glint in it was evident as he glance at me and saw me staring at him.

He pressed his lips tightly as he stand and carefully went to me. He offered his hand and when i was about to reach it, his mind changed. A squeal left my lips as he wrap his hands on my legs and back. He carried me nearer the burning wood and placed me in between his legs. He caged me using it and gathered my hair to tie it and placed it on my right shoulder. He then burried his face on my left shoulder blades and later on, i felt his lips licking off my skin. He was twirling it while slowly sneaking his hands beneath my arms when i tensed up.

"W-what are you doing?" a shaking and girly voice is what i heard. I can't believe it was from me!

His chuckle vibrated on my ear as he tighten his hug. He pulled me closer to him and made sit on his lap. He took a deep breath before nuzzling my ears using his pointed nose. He playfully grazed his fangs at the back of my neck and i can't help my giggle when he sighed controllably.

"Are you thirsty?" i suppressed my laugh.

I felt his frustration and restraint when he tightened his hug again and his breathings rugged.

"Don't test me, please. My patience is very thin sweetheart, but i know my limits with you. I'll respect that limit when i know it's your safety that's at stake," he murmured.

I sighed inaudibly. I don't know why all he think of is my safety. I don't know how his words is so sweet but the effect of it to me is sadness. If only i can understand what he mean...

"Won't we sleep already?" i asked instead. I want so bad to ask him what he mean... but i know he won't tell me. He might avoid me if that happens. I don't want to risk it.

"Later. We'll still eat." He sighed and kissed the side of my ears before forcing himself to stand.

I watch him go to a darker place and before i know it, a fast breeze of wind passed and i felt someone beside me.

"Ayyy," i nearly jumped in shock when i saw someone grilling a fish on my side.

His lips lifted before he slowly catch my hand and guided me to sir beside him. He circled his vacant hand on my waist and pulled me nearer while his other hand is busy grilling the fish.

I shook my head when i saw that it'll be better if he use both his hands but here he is... caressing my waist with his other hand. He's grilling five fishes and is using a dried wide leaf to fan the burning coal.

"Why don't you use both your hands?"

He raised his brow at me. "It's busy, you see?" He caressed my waist more. "It's a pain in the ass. We should be cuddling now if only... i can turn you already."

His brows furrowed before shaking his head to himself. When i attempted to help him, he just hold me firm to stop me, saying he can do it alone. It didn't take long before he finished.

He made me sit on his lap and didn't let me touch the food. All i did wait and watch him while he helped me eat like i'm a paralyzed. We are eating interchangeably and i can't help but suppress my smile. He's a corny stone-cold vampire.

"Seriously, i can eat on my own."

He shook his head. "I can feed you..." he trailed off. "Next time, you'll be feeding me. Or we'll feed each other."

It seemed like he didn't intend to let me hear it because his voice was too low, it almost sounded like a whisper, although it was full of amusement and i can hear his smile beneath his lips. I shook my head. He can really be so playful.

I didn't know where he got a fresh water which he gave me but i drank it anyway. We stayed still on our seat. Him, hugging me from behind and me, leaning on his chest. We were both watching the fire of the burning wood in front of us but his long sighes didn't escape my ears.

"I will get you here. In time," he tucked my hair on my ear and after softly brushing it. "And we'll never be apart." He kissed my cheeks before rubbing it gently.

That was what i last heard before i succumbed to sleep. He was extra sweet and clingy, it made me hope. Yet, the next time i woke up, it was already my mother's worried face that welcomed me.

The excitement i felt vanished and was replaced by an unmistakable emptiness.

He wasn't real. Or so, i thought