30| HURT
Roxie and Tanner watch me in silence as I drink directly from Tanner's bottle of alcohol. I feel like shit and I have never felt like this before. I have always been this carefree person, but the minute Caleb showed up in my life, everything went to shambles. We fought and fought, then he proposed to me, and then I finally ended the relationship. The first year, I thought I was gonna die. I'd given up on relationships and I vowed to focus on my job and have fun. And fun, I agreed to have by following Roxie to this top Miami club. And that was when I met this beautiful blonde man, with a smile that can melt your heart. He was the best thing that's ever happened to me in a long time. And then I hurt him. Hurting him, I never knew I was hurting myself. What I would give to just go back and not take the job of watching over Chase.
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CHASE'S POV I can't think. I can't concentrate. Lauren was supposed to be here with me. It's my family's dinner and I told them I was gonna bring someone. I was gonna bring a woman who's stolen my heart. It's heartbreaking she didn't want me. I mean she told me had feelings for me. She said she has fallen in love with me, so why break up with me? I have never understood women growing up. I never did and I don't bother because I didn't care. I just wanna get laid and when morning comes you should be out of my bed before I wake up. I make sure they don't even spend the night in my house sometimes. But all that changed the minute I saw her in a tight red dress in that club. She was so pure, her soul was the purest of them all. Even before she noticed me that day, I already saw
I park my car outside Chase's penthouse building and heave a deep breath. From my window I stare at his penthouse and the lights were switched on. He's around and I'm nervous. My heart beat hard against my chest and I bite my lip. My hands are sweaty and I doubt if this is a good idea. Should I just start my car and drive out of this place? No, that's so cowardice of me. I just wanna know if he's okay or not. I just need to know why he's avoiding my class and nothing more. Plus, he's also my client and it's my duty to protect his ass. I've been called to drop by my superior's office on Monday but I've been avoiding the office. I didn't know what to say or do. I'm not ready for my boss and people who I work for to know about what transpired between Chase and I. I'm not ready to lose my job.I open my bag and bring out a lipstick. I roll it out and apply th
" I haven't seen Tina around. She's gone?" Chase asks.It's Saturday and I'm in my apartment with Chase. I'm happy we're back together and on good terms. I've been avoiding Anderson's calls since Friday, yesterday because I want nothing to ruin this for me. We just got back together after I almost ruined things and eventually broke things off with Chase.I know what I'm doing is bad. Leaving Anderson on hang because of my reasons. He doesn't deserve any of the treatment I'm giving him. He's the second man who genuinely likes me and I just mistreated him. I feel bad. I mean, I should feel bad. But today, maybe when Chase is gone, I'm going to drive to Anderson's house and tell him what's really happening and I'm going to break up with him. It's already decided.
" What exactly are you telling us? That Anderson told you someone told him you work for the MPD?" Tanner asks.We're Skyping since I couldn't reach him via his mobile. Roxie joined in the video chat after I invited her to." How did he know that? He can't know that right? We're agents and it's pretty crazy to tell the men we just met what we do." Roxie says." Exactly. Remember I told you guys I met Caleb in LA?" I ask and they nod. " Good. Anderson said someone told him they saw me in LA with Chase. I can't believe Caleb would do that? Why? Why go behind my back to snitch about me to Anderson? What was he trying to prove?"" You know he wants you right? Maybe he's trying
On Sunday, I clean the house and constantly check my phone for a reply from Chase. I haven't gotten anything yet. I feel like he was ghosting me." Are you okay?" Mom asks when we sat down for breakfast that morning. " You've been checking your phone constantly? Is it the boyfriend?"I roll my eyes." Yeah."" Something wrong? You guys fighting again?"" It's not really fighting. There's this guy I actually dated for a short time because I wanted to... you know...try and get Chase out of my head. Well…Chase got pissed I was dating him and this other guy and he wa
" It's illegal right?" I ask Chase. We're in my bedroom and he's yet to leave after dinner. My fingers play with the diamond necklace he bought me around my neck. I still can't believe he'd get me something like this. And then his words kept ringing in my head.'I don't want you to hurt me.'" What's illegal?"" The underground fighting club." I say.Chase smiles." I mean, for a long time I knew underground fighting was illegal. Big, rich men, who get off watching two people try to kill themselves have tried to legitimize it, but I don't think they've succeeded."
I wake up to the smell of coffee, bacon and eggs in the air. Without being told, I know my mom's behind that beguiling aroma. It's Monday morning. The day all of this pretentious act that has to deal with Chase comes to an end. If I'm lucky, today should be a good day for me. Chase left last night and I don't remember him leaving my bedroom. When I woke up at midnight, I found a handwritten note by Chase, telling me he couldn't spend the night and that he had to leave. Attached with beautiful kisses and I love yous. I quickly take a shower and get dressed in a dark grey short sleeve dress. I slip my feet inside my pumps. I add a little natural make up and twirl around in front of my mirror. I look good. I grab my handbag and walk out of my bedroom to the kitchen. I am correct. Mom is in the kitchen eating bacon and eggs, with coffee on the side." Good morning, ma." I smile at my mom and grab a mug to pour myself some already brewed coffee."
I knock on Roxie's door as I patiently wait outside." Yeah. Come in." Roxie's voice calls out to me.I slowly open her door and step inside her office. Her desk is filled with different paperwork and she's on the phone with someone. She sees me and smiles at me." Lauren!" She smiles proudly." I'm gonna call you back, babe." She says to the other person on the phone and hangs up.Roxie drops her phone on her desk and rounds the desk to hug me." Oh babe." She squeezed the life out of me. I laugh and we pull apart, wit