"Jud, it's fine. I just figured, you know, you were an asexual volleyball-loving guy, but this works
too. You can be a dude's bro. That's notsobad,"Klaus went on. Jude closed his eyes, trying to will the embarrassment off. Why onearthhad he needed to stare? Klaus was never going to let this go now."I won't sayanything if you don't want me to, but it's fine, really, it's fine," Klaus reassured him. He was too excited about this. Jude sighed. "Don't fucking say," he said. Klaus let out a little yelp of excitement. "I won't. I swear I won't. Oh, shit, they're coming over. You cando this, okay? Don't loseit, I'vegotyour back," Klaus said quickly. Jude started topanic again. He glanced and saw them both coming towards them. Shit. Jude pickedup his cup and took another big mouthful, grimacing at the taste again."Someoftheguys on the team," Yon explained, and his friend looked at them. His eyes were green. "Klaus is in my year, and Jude is a freshman." Malachi Flynn took Klaus's hand. Jude's chest tightened as Malachi extended his hand to him, his green eyes inquiringlytilted up to Jude. “This is Malachi. He used to be on my team in high school.” Malachi’s voice was smooth and rich, carrying an easy warmth that made Jude’s heart race. His lips curled into that perfect smile again, showing just the right amount of teeth. “That’s quite a name,” he said, his eyes locking on to Jude’s. “Jude,” he repeated, letting the name roll off his tongue in a way that made it sound special.My mom liked the book," Jude said and blinked. That made no sense at all. There was absolutely no context to that explanation. And why did he have to mention his mother as the first thing out of his mouth? Malachi nodded in understanding. "Jude Finch," he said, snapping his fingers and pointing at Jude. A shock of pleasant surprise ran through Jude. He nodded and Malachi's smile widened. Jude wasmeantto be smiling back, wasn't he? He was quite sure that wasn'twhat his face was doing at the moment. How was he supposed to smile again?"What position did you play?" Klaus asked. Jude turnedto him, registering the slight head shake and the look that indicatedhe was probably getting this wrong."Middle blocker," Malachi said."And you came here? Why didn't you play?" Klaus continued. Malachi shrugged, his hands makingtheir way into his pockets. "Lostinterest."How doesone lose interest in their team sport like that? Klaus looked at Jude again, disapproving. "Shame. I'm gettinganother round. Want one?" Klaus said, takingholdof the bottom of Jude's cup and pushing it towards him, making him drink again. “I’ll help,” Yon said. Oh, fuck no. Jude drank, and Klaus gave him a look. He then turned to Malachi. “You know, that’s just his face. He’s not unfriendly. We’ll be right back.” Jude widened his eyes at Klaus in embarrassment, and Klaus winked before walking away.You had a good game today,I hear," Malachi said. He smelledsubtlyintoxicating—a mix of fresh soap and a hint of something woodsy, like cedar or sandalwood. Clean and masculine, Jude foundhimselfwishing he could lean in a little closer just to breathe it in."We won," Jude said, moronically, as if that weren't obvious from what Malachi had just told him. He rolled his own eyes. Internally."Yeah, I heard," Malachi said,chuckling. "So you're a freshman and already a regular on the team? That's something.""I've been playing my whole life," Jude said, trying to deflect the flattery. He wasn't sure he wassuccessful. He coughed. "The regular setter graduated last year, and the guy theyweregoing to put in his place wasn't as good, so I got the spot.""Yeah, David's better at blocking," Malachi said."That's right. He's pretty tall," Jude said and paused. How did Malachi know that? "You've been followingthe team?"I just don't want to be on it. Plus, David's a friend of mine," Malachi explained. "You're pretty tall too. Youmustbe what? Six-three?" he asked, eyeing Jude up and down."Six-two," Jude corrected. Malachi just stood there, simply looking at Jude. Jude hoped he wasn't making the face Klaus was always telling him hewas making."You don't look so scary," Malachi said. Jude looked at him, puzzled. "What?" Malachi smiled. Yon and Klaus gotin, taking Jude's cup out and replacing it with a different one. For Pete's sake."You should come to practice sometime. You don't have to joinifyou don't want to, but would you like to playanyway?" Yon asked.Jude turnedto Malachi hopefully."Sure, I can play," Malachi said, and Jude'slipsweredrawnintoa smile. Malachi must bebeautiful playing too. Malachi turned to Jude again. "Would you toss for me?" he asked. Jude's heart contracted. He couldn't get the words out, so he nodded. Malachi's smile broadened. "Thanks for the beer," he said, risingto his feet and extendinghiscup in Yon's direction. "I have to go.It was nice meeting you, seeing you," he said, facingthemagain."Sure thing, see you around," Klaus said and shot Jude a significant look, clearly expecting him to say something. Jude had no idea what it was."Same, man. I'm calling you outfor that game," Yon replied, and they dida side hug. Malachi looked at Jude and Jude bit his lip."Nice tomeet you too," Jude stammered. Klaus smiled. Jude breathedasigh of relief. Malachi agreed and, with one last smile, walked away. Jude watched the back of his head as he pushed his way through the crowd. God, even the nape of his neck was attractive. “He was a great player too,” Yon said. Jude missed the first part of that conversation, still dazed from Malachi’s presence. “Why did he quit?” Klaus asked.His dad got sick before we graduated. He started here and was already really messed up. I tried to talk to him, but he would not listen. His dad died last year," Yon explained.He threw his head back, laughing. He pushed her back, and she sat on the couch again.“No, it’s not. Let’s watch TV, cuddle, and make out. Like we’re teenagers,” he said, holding his hand out to her. That sounded like a fantastic plan to her.“We are teenagers,” she pointed out, grabbing his hand and walking after him.“You’re a teenager. I’m twenty,” he said.She blinked. "Seriously?" she asked. Why hadn't she known this?"Yeah, I flunked out a year of high school and haven't been responsible when it comes to college. I'm turning twenty-one in January," he said, climbing on the bed."I was sure you were nineteen.".He smiled while shaking his head at her. She got in after him, and he curled on her side instantly, getting under her arm and pulling it over him. He kissed her neck and then her jaw. Even when he was tired, he was restless.“Nope. When’s your birthday?”“In October,” she said.He stopped before kissing her and hovered over her. “You’re kidding.”"Not me, I'd just had my b
He kept dragging her face up, and she tried to offer him whatever it was that he wanted. His hands withdrew, going into her hair and holding him close to her. She stopped and laid her forehead against his. Her chest hurt so hard.He kissed the side of her mouth, then her cheek, then angled her head again to kiss her mouth. She couldn't believe this was happening. She had him.She licked her tongue across the rim of his lips, and he opened them wider to each kiss. His tongue made contact with hers, and she closed her eyes tightly, swallowing hard before leaning in harder. Enjoying the roof of his mouth and feeling his tongue against hers created a shock that ran through her. She had no point of comparison, but she knew a kiss could not be more beautiful than this. Nobody could be more perfect than him.His fingers clutched in her hair tight, and he picked up speed. The gentle thud of their lip-kissing echoed through the air, making her hungry for more. She let go of him and put her arm
She woke up early the next morning and went shopping for cleaning supplies. She got all the trash out, mopped the floors, and did laundry before she heard the shower turn on. She had also shopped for groceries and cleaned out his fridge. She was making him a grilled cheese and was just about done when he came out. His face was shaved; she had never seen him like that. He looked younger and handsome, his jawline chiseled and skin clear. He took in the apartment and then her, smiling slightly in a manner that caused her heart to skip a beat. "How domestic of you," he joked.She smiled back, feeling a warmth spread through her chest.He was starting to sound like his old self. He had pulled on the sleeveless shirt over black sweats, his feet still bare as always. He sat down on the stool in front of her, and she placed the food before him."Do you need something to drink?" she asked as she got him a bottle of water.He stared at his fridge, a little surprised. She wondered if he wasn't
“I think I’m going to cancel tonight,” Jude said, her voice tinged with uncertainty.“No,” Yon and Klaus replied in unison, their voices reflecting their concern."Yeah, I can't do it like this. It's not fair," Jude continued to talk about her date with a man she had been seeing. She had tried to move on from Malachi, and this was the first time she had managed to make it to the second date. They had gone out nicely three times so far, and it was going well. But seeing Malachi again had shattered her determination."But you'll set it up again?" Klaus asked hopefully."I realize it doesn't make sense, how hard this has been for me. I realize I must be over it by now. I don't like that I can't move beyond him. I wish I could. It's not fair for me to go out and pretend as if this did not change everything. Again," Jude tried to explain, with the weight of her emotions crushing her.It changed everything? Like, you want to be with him again?" Klaus spat out, his face indignant."No, not a
She stepped out of the building, the coldness of the night air slapping her face.She had to remind herself to keep going, the steps getting heavier with every step.She could barely sleep that night, replaying everything in her head over and over. Malachi’s face kept flashing before her eyes—the haunted look, the way his eyes seemed to plead for something she couldn’t understand. It was like he was another person. The Malachi she knew hadn’t been there yesterday. The conversation with Yon, who had explained the two Malachis to her, now made so much sense, but it didn’t make her feel any better.The next day, he called her. Four times. She had finally answered, and when she did, he breathed a sigh of relief."Hey," he was breathing into the phone."Hey."There was quiet."Jud, I'm sorry about last night."She closed her eyes, not sure what to say, so she stayed quiet."I'm so sorry. I don't know what I was doing. I'm sorry," he went on.She stared up at the ceiling, her chest tighteni
Jude Queens's eyes drifted from Jud's, moving down her face. He ran his tongue along his lip again. It was such a simple action, but it caught her breath. Now she was falling, releasing a gagged noise without meaning to.His eyes snapped to hers. The smile fell from his mouth, and his eyes widened with an expression she couldn't quite interpret. She didn't know what he saw in her face, but his fingers stilled, and his face cracked. He was witnessing a mask slip, it seemed. He was overwhelmed, and it made him look younger and more vulnerable. Why? What had she done?"Jud," he breathed, his head wagging almost unnoticeably."Do what?" she answered, her own voice precariously whole.She could change anything and offer it to him, anything he wanted. Anything to have him treat her like he had just done. She was with the urge to move in a bit closer to him, to fill the gap.He let out a small gasp of laughter and his eyes gazed away from her. His hand dropped from her hair. No. Losing conta