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Why Did You Leave Me When I Needed You Most?
최신 업데이트 : 2025-06-19
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Jude Queens never believed in fairytales—until Malachi Flynn crashed into his world with a grin like summer and a spike that could stop time. Bound by their shared love for volleyball, their chemistry burned bright and fast, leaving everything else in the shadows. But just as Jude opened his heart, Malachi vanished without a word. Two years later, Malachi returns—older, familiar, and still devastatingly magnetic. The moment they lock eyes, the ache returns. So does the desire. But buried beneath Malachi’s smile are secrets that could shatter them both. Torn between anger and longing, Jude must decide: can he forgive the boy who left him in pieces, or is some pain too deep to heal? “Why Did You Leave Me When I Needed You Most?” is a sizzling, tender story of second chances, the scars we carry, and the hope that love—real, soul-deep love—can echo back stronger than before.
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CHAPTER 1
Jude Queens hated going to these things. High school parties had been bad enough, but college parties? They were a whole new type of terrible. The air was thick with mingling scents of sweat, cheap cologne, and spilled alcohol. There was no
way to makeit to the bathroom, and if you did,itwasworsethandisgusting—sticky floors, overflowing trash cans, and unmentionable substances on allsurfaces. Missing these gatherings was his MO, but they'd just won a game tonight, and Yon and Klaus just wouldnot let him stay home. It wasnot like he was any fun at them, anyway. He didn't drink, didn't smoke, anddid not have any intentionsongettinginvolved with anyone. Andyet here he was, holding a red cup ofwhat was probably stale beer. He sniffed it; yeah, beer."Can you at least try to look like youare not in hell right now, Jud? Can you do that? For me?" Yon asked. Jude shothim a look in response. "You said I could gohome after one drink."You haven't even touched it! It's been an hour, and I havenot seen you take asingle sip.Please, just have one sip," Yon said. Jude sighed
dramaticallybeforehebroughtthe cup to his lips. God, that was disgusting. He grimaced, and Yon burst into laughter."Did he actually try it?" Klaus asked. Yon shrugged."I did try it. You said one sip. I maygo now," Jude saidto Yon."We'remeant to be celebrating. This ismeant to be a celebration. We won the tournament; you won your first college tournament! Don't you think we'reentitledto this?" Yon said, clearly exasperated with Jude. Jude rolled his eyes. Why would Yon even want him here? “I’m happy, but this is just not my idea of a celebration,” he pointed out. He surveyed the room again—bad music and people gyrating against each other, covered in sweat…ugh. The dim lighting and flashing neon created an almost surreal, disorienting atmosphere, amplifying his discomfort."Come on, a big swallow," Klaus coaxed, pushing the cup upwardsagainst Jude's lips and making him tilt his head back and swallowsomemore. Jude scowled, the bitterness stinging on his tongue. "I liked you better when you were scared of me.""I wasn'tever scared of you. I just didn't realize you were a softie under all the glaring," Klaus said back, his faceflushed. He'dprobably hadafewwarm beers by then."Wehave to go to the gym tomorrow," Jude said,reminding him, and Klaus shook his headandlooked away. Yon and Klaus were both sophomores, a year older than Jude. Klaus had attendedJude's high school, sohefeltobligatedtoJude. They'dtakenJude under their wing since they started school three months prior. They didn'thaveany classes together but sharedthe volleyball team, which constituted Jude's life. Jude was on asports scholarship, after all. They didattempt to be Jude'sfriend, and Jude wasaware he wasnot always the easiest guy to befriends with. Jude sighed and took another drink without being prompted. Surprised, they both turned to him, the glee evident on their faces. Jude drank and tried to smother his smile. “I’m so proud of you,” Yon said while Klaus clutched his hand to his chest in a mock impression of a proud parent. “Don’t get too excited about it,” Jude told him.Agirlwhowas drunk andheadingto the bathroomcrashedintoJude. She apologized,turningaround,and smiled at him. Since Jude didnot smile back, she proceededwithanstrangeglanceathim. "He's not mean; it's just his face," Klaus called out. Jude gavehima horrified look. "Could you not do that, maybe?""Would you not look asif you're going to killeverypersonin this room?" Klaus asked, taking a huge gulp of his beer and revelingin it. Jude gave him a half-hearted fake smile."Oh, so cute," Klaus said, stretching out to pinch Jude's cheek. Jude slapped his hand away. Yon called out a name and stepped away from the individual. Jude turned, watching him talk to a man who had passedby them. Jude didnotcatch his face."Drinkup. I'm getting you another one," Klaus said."You said one drink," Jude protested."Oh, my god, you're such a baby. Just drink the beer," Klaus muttered. Jude took another drink. He turned back to Yon, hoping he would keep his one-drink promise, and choked on it. Wow."Are you okay?" Klaus asked him. Jude turned to him and waved vaguely. He wasable to work his throat around the drink and coughed a fewtimes while Klaus whacked his back."I'm fine," Jude said, not at all feeling fine. Yon was still talking to the guy he'dyelledat, and he was just…wow. Jude had never beenquite so instantly attracted to someonehe'djust seen, not like this. The way he stood with his hands halfin the pockets of his jeans, to the smile he gave Yon, he just looked perfect. He was shorter than Jude. His dark brown hair messeduntidilyon his head, giving him that just-out-of-bed disheveledappearance. He licked his lips priortoerupting into a wide smile at Yon's statement. God, he also had a great smile. His dark eyebrows were thick over his eyes in the most endearingmanner, slanting at precisely the right angle. The stubble along his jawline was light but enough to conveytheimpressionof sharpness. Jude couldn't discern the color of his eyes from this far away, but he could see a beauty mark highon his cheekbone. "Hey, are you there?" Klaus asked with a laugh, and Jude turnedhis attention back to him.Jude noddeddistractedly. How long had he been staring at him?"What were you staring at?Whowere you staring at?" Klaus questioned, amusementevident in his voice.Jude panicked. He hadnottoldthemthispartabouthimself. It hadnot come up, and it wasnot like he could announcethat he was gay duringpractice and carry on as normal. Klaus caught a look at Yon and then at Jude."No one," Jude tried, but Klaus frowned. His eyes drifted back to Yon, and then his eyebrows rose. Jude started shaking his head."Holy fuck, Jud, I had no fucking idea," Klaus said with a grin."It's not—" Jude started to argue, his heart in his throat."It's not? You're literally drooling looking at that guy," Klaus said, leaningin a little and dropping his voice. Jude clamped his lips shut. "I wasn't—" he tried again.최신 챕터
Why Did You Leave Me When I Needed You Most? CHAPTER 19
He threw his head back, laughing. He pushed her back, and she sat on the couch again.“No, it’s not. Let’s watch TV, cuddle, and make out. Like we’re teenagers,” he said, holding his hand out to her. That sounded like a fantastic plan to her.“We are teenagers,” she pointed out, grabbing his hand and walking after him.“You’re a teenager. I’m twenty,” he said.She blinked. "Seriously?" she asked. Why hadn't she known this?"Yeah, I flunked out a year of high school and haven't been responsible when it comes to college. I'm turning twenty-one in January," he said, climbing on the bed."I was sure you were nineteen.".He smiled while shaking his head at her. She got in after him, and he curled on her side instantly, getting under her arm and pulling it over him. He kissed her neck and then her jaw. Even when he was tired, he was restless.“Nope. When’s your birthday?”“In October,” she said.He stopped before kissing her and hovered over her. “You’re kidding.”"Not me, I'd just had my b
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He kept dragging her face up, and she tried to offer him whatever it was that he wanted. His hands withdrew, going into her hair and holding him close to her. She stopped and laid her forehead against his. Her chest hurt so hard.He kissed the side of her mouth, then her cheek, then angled her head again to kiss her mouth. She couldn't believe this was happening. She had him.She licked her tongue across the rim of his lips, and he opened them wider to each kiss. His tongue made contact with hers, and she closed her eyes tightly, swallowing hard before leaning in harder. Enjoying the roof of his mouth and feeling his tongue against hers created a shock that ran through her. She had no point of comparison, but she knew a kiss could not be more beautiful than this. Nobody could be more perfect than him.His fingers clutched in her hair tight, and he picked up speed. The gentle thud of their lip-kissing echoed through the air, making her hungry for more. She let go of him and put her arm
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She woke up early the next morning and went shopping for cleaning supplies. She got all the trash out, mopped the floors, and did laundry before she heard the shower turn on. She had also shopped for groceries and cleaned out his fridge. She was making him a grilled cheese and was just about done when he came out. His face was shaved; she had never seen him like that. He looked younger and handsome, his jawline chiseled and skin clear. He took in the apartment and then her, smiling slightly in a manner that caused her heart to skip a beat. "How domestic of you," he joked.She smiled back, feeling a warmth spread through her chest.He was starting to sound like his old self. He had pulled on the sleeveless shirt over black sweats, his feet still bare as always. He sat down on the stool in front of her, and she placed the food before him."Do you need something to drink?" she asked as she got him a bottle of water.He stared at his fridge, a little surprised. She wondered if he wasn't
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“I think I’m going to cancel tonight,” Jude said, her voice tinged with uncertainty.“No,” Yon and Klaus replied in unison, their voices reflecting their concern."Yeah, I can't do it like this. It's not fair," Jude continued to talk about her date with a man she had been seeing. She had tried to move on from Malachi, and this was the first time she had managed to make it to the second date. They had gone out nicely three times so far, and it was going well. But seeing Malachi again had shattered her determination."But you'll set it up again?" Klaus asked hopefully."I realize it doesn't make sense, how hard this has been for me. I realize I must be over it by now. I don't like that I can't move beyond him. I wish I could. It's not fair for me to go out and pretend as if this did not change everything. Again," Jude tried to explain, with the weight of her emotions crushing her.It changed everything? Like, you want to be with him again?" Klaus spat out, his face indignant."No, not a
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She stepped out of the building, the coldness of the night air slapping her face.She had to remind herself to keep going, the steps getting heavier with every step.She could barely sleep that night, replaying everything in her head over and over. Malachi’s face kept flashing before her eyes—the haunted look, the way his eyes seemed to plead for something she couldn’t understand. It was like he was another person. The Malachi she knew hadn’t been there yesterday. The conversation with Yon, who had explained the two Malachis to her, now made so much sense, but it didn’t make her feel any better.The next day, he called her. Four times. She had finally answered, and when she did, he breathed a sigh of relief."Hey," he was breathing into the phone."Hey."There was quiet."Jud, I'm sorry about last night."She closed her eyes, not sure what to say, so she stayed quiet."I'm so sorry. I don't know what I was doing. I'm sorry," he went on.She stared up at the ceiling, her chest tighteni
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Jude Queens's eyes drifted from Jud's, moving down her face. He ran his tongue along his lip again. It was such a simple action, but it caught her breath. Now she was falling, releasing a gagged noise without meaning to.His eyes snapped to hers. The smile fell from his mouth, and his eyes widened with an expression she couldn't quite interpret. She didn't know what he saw in her face, but his fingers stilled, and his face cracked. He was witnessing a mask slip, it seemed. He was overwhelmed, and it made him look younger and more vulnerable. Why? What had she done?"Jud," he breathed, his head wagging almost unnoticeably."Do what?" she answered, her own voice precariously whole.She could change anything and offer it to him, anything he wanted. Anything to have him treat her like he had just done. She was with the urge to move in a bit closer to him, to fill the gap.He let out a small gasp of laughter and his eyes gazed away from her. His hand dropped from her hair. No. Losing conta
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