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hisheadinnegation. "I don't." Malachi smiled a fractionwider, the corner of his mouth lifting in a way that Jude's heart accelerated. Anotherstep and he stood in the V of Jude's open legs. Jude's chest closedin and a jolt ran through him at being so close to Malachi, the warmth of his body seeping into Jude's."Or if you like me." Fuck."Alright, I don't mind you." Jude's voice wasstrange. He swallowedconvulsively, attempting to regain controlof himself."Good," Malachi said,bobbinghishead. "I don't mind you either." Malachi was inchesfromJude, inchesmorethan this shouldqualifyasa hundred percent straight-guy move. Malachi wasabsolutelyfabulous at this distance, his anglessteep and riveting. Malachi took another drag and narrowed his eyes. It made him look terribly attractive. “You’re doing it again.” “Fuck, I’m sorry,” Jude said. Malachi’s laughter bubbled, the sound vibrating between them. “It’s fine, Jude.” His eyes drifted upwards, biting the side of his thumb, thinking. “Jude, Jude,” he repeated. “What?” Jude asked, baffled. “What do your friends call you? Jud, right? That’s what Yon calls you,” Malachi said."Yeah, that or by my last name, I guess," Jude told him, trying to focus on anything other than how close Malachi was."What's your last name?""You've heard the team call me by my last name," Jude remindedhim."No, I haven't. I've heard the guys on the team call you Jud and Queens, but that's like a volleyball thing," Malachi wavedhis hand off."No, that's it," Jude told him. Malachi gazed at him. "Your surnameis Queens. Your shit name is Jude Queens?" he questioned and cackledinsanely. The corners of Jude's mouthturnupward. "Yes, thatis my name," he told him, and Malachi kept on laughing. Jude couldn't help it. He joined him."You're unreal," Malachi said,relaxingback. "I'm not going to call you Queens, that's for fucking sure." He scrutinizedJude's face, wetted his lips, and cocked his head. "Judey," he breathedsoftly. Shit. That hit a note somewhere, and Jude's whole body warmedup at the intimacy of it."That suits you," Malachi said,hissmilespreadinggradually."How?" “I don’t know, Judey. It’s pretty adorable. You’re adorable,” Malachi said, shrugging. “Adorable?” Jude asked with a laugh. “You are,” Malachi told him, his tone sincere. “I don’t think anybody’s ever called me that before.” Malachi stood there, just looking at Jude with a slight smile, his eyes soft. “I can tell you’re sweet.” Jude realized his eyes were wide open. Noone had ever called that about him, muchless having onlyever spoken to him a handful of times. Malachi ran his tongue over his lips and movedcloser. "What about Judey? Nobody's ever called that to you?"Jude looked away. “My mom calls me that,” he said quietly, but Malachi heard it, because he erupted in laughter again. “Fuck’s sake,” Jude said, closing his eyes and rubbing one of his hands over his face. Malachi let Jude go and laughed. “See? I’m right, you’re adorable.” Malachi puthis hand into his pocketandextracted a lighter. He held the joint to his lips again and lit it. He seemed so relaxed. He inhaledoncemore and exhaled away from Jude. He washolding the joint between his thumb and forefinger."May I have a try?"Jude asked him. Malachi’s smile was catlike. Jude felt like he was falling into a trap, but he didn’t care. Malachi held it out to him, and Jude reached for it, his fingers brushing Malachi’s as he did. Jude looked at it and then at Malachi, expectant. “I can already tell I’m going to be a terrible influence on you.” Jude smiled.He threw his head back, laughing. He pushed her back, and she sat on the couch again.“No, it’s not. Let’s watch TV, cuddle, and make out. Like we’re teenagers,” he said, holding his hand out to her. That sounded like a fantastic plan to her.“We are teenagers,” she pointed out, grabbing his hand and walking after him.“You’re a teenager. I’m twenty,” he said.She blinked. "Seriously?" she asked. Why hadn't she known this?"Yeah, I flunked out a year of high school and haven't been responsible when it comes to college. I'm turning twenty-one in January," he said, climbing on the bed."I was sure you were nineteen.".He smiled while shaking his head at her. She got in after him, and he curled on her side instantly, getting under her arm and pulling it over him. He kissed her neck and then her jaw. Even when he was tired, he was restless.“Nope. When’s your birthday?”“In October,” she said.He stopped before kissing her and hovered over her. “You’re kidding.”"Not me, I'd just had my b
He kept dragging her face up, and she tried to offer him whatever it was that he wanted. His hands withdrew, going into her hair and holding him close to her. She stopped and laid her forehead against his. Her chest hurt so hard.He kissed the side of her mouth, then her cheek, then angled her head again to kiss her mouth. She couldn't believe this was happening. She had him.She licked her tongue across the rim of his lips, and he opened them wider to each kiss. His tongue made contact with hers, and she closed her eyes tightly, swallowing hard before leaning in harder. Enjoying the roof of his mouth and feeling his tongue against hers created a shock that ran through her. She had no point of comparison, but she knew a kiss could not be more beautiful than this. Nobody could be more perfect than him.His fingers clutched in her hair tight, and he picked up speed. The gentle thud of their lip-kissing echoed through the air, making her hungry for more. She let go of him and put her arm
She woke up early the next morning and went shopping for cleaning supplies. She got all the trash out, mopped the floors, and did laundry before she heard the shower turn on. She had also shopped for groceries and cleaned out his fridge. She was making him a grilled cheese and was just about done when he came out. His face was shaved; she had never seen him like that. He looked younger and handsome, his jawline chiseled and skin clear. He took in the apartment and then her, smiling slightly in a manner that caused her heart to skip a beat. "How domestic of you," he joked.She smiled back, feeling a warmth spread through her chest.He was starting to sound like his old self. He had pulled on the sleeveless shirt over black sweats, his feet still bare as always. He sat down on the stool in front of her, and she placed the food before him."Do you need something to drink?" she asked as she got him a bottle of water.He stared at his fridge, a little surprised. She wondered if he wasn't
“I think I’m going to cancel tonight,” Jude said, her voice tinged with uncertainty.“No,” Yon and Klaus replied in unison, their voices reflecting their concern."Yeah, I can't do it like this. It's not fair," Jude continued to talk about her date with a man she had been seeing. She had tried to move on from Malachi, and this was the first time she had managed to make it to the second date. They had gone out nicely three times so far, and it was going well. But seeing Malachi again had shattered her determination."But you'll set it up again?" Klaus asked hopefully."I realize it doesn't make sense, how hard this has been for me. I realize I must be over it by now. I don't like that I can't move beyond him. I wish I could. It's not fair for me to go out and pretend as if this did not change everything. Again," Jude tried to explain, with the weight of her emotions crushing her.It changed everything? Like, you want to be with him again?" Klaus spat out, his face indignant."No, not a
She stepped out of the building, the coldness of the night air slapping her face.She had to remind herself to keep going, the steps getting heavier with every step.She could barely sleep that night, replaying everything in her head over and over. Malachi’s face kept flashing before her eyes—the haunted look, the way his eyes seemed to plead for something she couldn’t understand. It was like he was another person. The Malachi she knew hadn’t been there yesterday. The conversation with Yon, who had explained the two Malachis to her, now made so much sense, but it didn’t make her feel any better.The next day, he called her. Four times. She had finally answered, and when she did, he breathed a sigh of relief."Hey," he was breathing into the phone."Hey."There was quiet."Jud, I'm sorry about last night."She closed her eyes, not sure what to say, so she stayed quiet."I'm so sorry. I don't know what I was doing. I'm sorry," he went on.She stared up at the ceiling, her chest tighteni
Jude Queens's eyes drifted from Jud's, moving down her face. He ran his tongue along his lip again. It was such a simple action, but it caught her breath. Now she was falling, releasing a gagged noise without meaning to.His eyes snapped to hers. The smile fell from his mouth, and his eyes widened with an expression she couldn't quite interpret. She didn't know what he saw in her face, but his fingers stilled, and his face cracked. He was witnessing a mask slip, it seemed. He was overwhelmed, and it made him look younger and more vulnerable. Why? What had she done?"Jud," he breathed, his head wagging almost unnoticeably."Do what?" she answered, her own voice precariously whole.She could change anything and offer it to him, anything he wanted. Anything to have him treat her like he had just done. She was with the urge to move in a bit closer to him, to fill the gap.He let out a small gasp of laughter and his eyes gazed away from her. His hand dropped from her hair. No. Losing conta