This was it. Mom just announced a meeting with me, Neil and Felicia. Speaking of Felicia, she's the someone I never expected to be with in a family meeting since for me she's an outsider, but for the sake of peace, I would just let her because I was sure all she had to do in this meeting was to listen like a good child.
My heart was beating rapidly in its abnormal state. I felt like anytime it would explode inside my chest. Neil, in contrary, still looked properly maintained and could be even to smile despite of so many problems.
When we reached our promised room, we all sat and busied ourselves with some matter when Mom had not arrived yet, and when she had finally, all respected her presence by bowing down our head.
Calm down, I told my heart; because until now it was throbbing so wildly still. This could be the cause of my death if it wouldn't stop from beating rapidly. I breathed in and out. This moment was being announced unexpectedly earlier. I even though
"What are you doing?!"I continued what I was doing and didn't mind her questions and etc. Her stopping and grabbing my hand were no use because I was determined to finish what I preached. What was gotten into me to be like this? Oh yeah, because of that conversation I had with Neil earlier of him telling me to mind my own business regardless I was just trying to at least show my support to him was the reason why I was doing this -- compiling some of my clothes and some important document, maids in my front looking so confused upon seeing me like this.They also tried to stop me but still no use. I just wished to reside in another place and start to have a one-week or one-month vacation. My mind was all messed up and I might die if I continued living in this mansion and at the same time minding lots of problems and feelings how people around me blamed me for everything!"Are you even thinking? Where will go in a time lik
If you're expecting seeing him after I woke up, we were all wrong then, because the moment I opened my eyes, I realized that I slept in here alone. He must wait until I fall asleep last night and just went to another room. I could say I was entirely alone by just feeling the lonely ambience of the room. It was highly touched with modern design and its price should be expensive more than I thought it would be. Growling softly, I reached the pasted paper in my table and read its message.You are awake. Good morning. Don't search for me because I am somewhere far. Eat your breakfast. It's already prepared. Just go to the kitchen.I did what he told me because my stomach was fucking wanting lots of foods for wasting lots of my energy by searching for another hotel last night. I knew my face could show how haggard I was now and because of that I was thankful that Neil could not see me this way."Where are you?" Daniel asked me through phone. It was still early in the
"We just walked for minutes but I am already tired because of it," I mumbled and even felt his hands around mine. We were not in the shore anymore but I was still trying to distract him for him not to let go my hands.Call me desperate because I really was one, and I was proud for being one. We're meters away from the shore and we're now making ourselves comfortable with our paid cottage. Many were still enjoying the sand but I was already used to feel its softness against my skin so I just decided to take a break for awhile.Also, I was not just staring at the exquisiteness of the surrounding, for I was also busy observing our 'their' moves. All right, they were many of them, and counting them using my hands would be not enough. And if you're wondering why I was not afraid anymore, the answer was it's because I was not alone, Neil was beside me. This situation of ours was confusing but I trusted him enough. As always, he made me feel safe a
My plan for this day was to swim with Neil because the weather was so great. But I guessed I should think for a new activity that was good for one person only. Since early in the morning I did not see any a glimpse of Neil. I expected a note from him informing me his whereabouts but I found nothing but our empty table. Anyway, enough of worrying about him. I should do my plan for this day.From Mom:We are coming.I found her text unanswerable so I just hid my phone inside my drawer. I guessed she just sent her message to the wrong person because as far as I remembered, only me and Neil knew where we were now. Mom only knew that I was taking a vacation and she did not know a specific place."Did Neil left something? Or even a reminder?" I asked the guard who was seemingly had no plan of saying any words. He might being instructed to be a robot. "All right, tell your boss that I really like his attitude, to the point that I am starting to blame myself why I
So am I, we are just even, my love, I answered in my mind.He finally left me alone, and I had no choice but to face the closing door. At first, I was torn between staying in here or just going to another hotel for my mother not to know my location, then I chose the first one. I went to my baggage and chose for a short shorts and black-colored brassiere. My clothes were already packed nicely and so I had no trouble in finding my favorites one.Swimming.I wanted to swim now.Even it meant having a bonding with Felicia and Mom."This is great. The foods are already cooked. I planned to call you but since you are here already, let's start eating," Neil announced to all. I forgot to mention that I was facing two people who were also amazed seeing the foods.Mom and Felicia were literally facing each other, while I was in my left side putting some content in my p
It was somehow a great activity, I guessed. I thought Mom and Felicia would ruin my day but they did not. Well, I still could not trust them since the day had not ended yet and so they still had time to bother me.So, we finished the activity with our smiling faces. Me and Neil actually did have fun in enjoying the calmness of water, because we ended up talking about life, causing me to know his perspective, and I had just realized on how deep it was. He's not drunk yet he seemed like one because he's very exposed in telling me his voice.At the same time, my system was being poisoned by his eyes, making me to tell my side too, also causing him to hear and feel how painful it was.Mom and Felia totally enjoyed the water and that was probably the reason why they forgot to annoy us."I have committed a sin," I heard his statement again. That was what he said to me hours ago. And yet, it was already hou
His kisses went deeper and his nakes was all I could think off. Again, I had been used to touch and feel what's mine -- since we had made lots of love whenever I was disguising as Mindy -- but the sensation I felt still spectacular, as if I could be burn again -- no, crap that!-- I was always burning! I would be even feel surprise if my skin would create a smoke!"Are you sure with this?" he asked me again, and this time I laughed again, could not get the fact that he's still unsure despite it's obvious we both wanted to end this. "I am serious, Sydney. Do you want me to continue?""We have been doing this so why asking nowM? Besides, he did not ask for permissipn for those the times that we became like -+ sticking out bodies into each other's. "Go on, Neil, continue what you started."He laughed at my words and carried me in a bridal style. Wanting to feel his broad shoulders, I leaned my head into his chest, an I felt how his heart took leaps, and I did like t
After the conversation with mom, I never saw her and Feli for hours, and until now, I was still searching for her -- though take note that I had no plan of searching Feli.To cure my boredom, I turned our television on and watched my favorite series in Netflix. I was having my good time when the door opened, I thought at first that it would reveal Neil because he probably forgot something, but it was my Mom, who now looked problematic and judging by the look in her face, she was blaming me again. Surely, she had searched Feli but she just did not find her, and so I readied my ears for it's obvious she was gonna rap again and again."I told you to help me but you are just here doing nothing. You really have no conscience. She's your childhood friend yet you're not minding her absence now."I am right, I told myself using my mind, she would never let this moment to pass without scolding me. Anyway, she did say about childh