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Denial.
Once I had changed and left the sanctuary of the restroom, Alec had captured my hand and lead me from the house. He said he had a place I mind that humans often frequented and that I would enjoy the food. The food was the least of my worries, I was just content to come along and be among others. I feel I can better control myself in the presence of others, and the anxiety of them lurking alone should keep me grounded. My heart thumps with foreign excitement, and my head floods with guilt. I'm confused, enticed, and angry with myself. How would Remus feel about my betrayal? It has only been months since his death, and here I am thinking of another.
"Aislaine?" I tear my eyes from the pavement and look to Alec.
"Alec?"
"Are you alright? You keep spacing out on me. Heavy mind?"
"Yes."
"To which question?"
"Both..."
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