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CHAPTER 46
I still could not get what happened.
As far as I have known, Madame Lucia hates me. She does not like me for her son. She does not like the way I wear outfits, and she see me as a trash. But then, now was different. The way she looks at me, it has something to do with my euphoria.
I smiled in my inner me. I want to scream, I want to hug her, I want to tell nor show to her how happy I am. But maybe, she does not like me do such a thing. I think I am still a disgusting woman she first saw.
I could not tell it by just her eyes!
I know, eyes cannot lie, but I did not want to give myself false hope because I will just be the one who would be hurt.
I should know my place.
We went to the backyard of their mansion. I was a bit shy because Jinx did this for me. This is their house and funny how I celebrate my birthday here. It was theirs and it felt very awkward!
"Hey, calm down, please?" Jinx looked at me, worries written all over his face.
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