It took Jax almost a full day before he finally got ahold of me. When he did text, it was just to say thank you. I was trying to be upbeat with my response and told him that the kids had a lot of fun and that I hoped that we could do it again sometime. I did not get a reply to that. I could feel the distance forming between Jax and I. It was a huge cavern and it hurt knowing that I had felt like this was going to happen from the start.
I decided to give Jax his space. I was done with chasing guys. I knew that I was not the best-looking woman in the world, but I was not ugly by far either. I also held many values that I felt would be appreciated by the right man. I was loyal, kind, smart, and I was a hard worker. I was not looking for a man to be my cash cow, because I did not mind working and helping pay bills. If a man was meant to be in my life, then it would happen eventually.
Right when I was thinking that my we
I watched Jax’s face with trepidation as he read the certified letter from the court. I had no idea why he was trying to help me with this problem. In all reality this was in no way his problem to take on, yet here he was reading through the papers in my dining room. I felt like a fool, but after the way he seen me in the bathroom I figured there was no use being embarrassed anymore.“The best thing for you to do is attend this court hearing. Plead that you and Donavon are already separated and take whatever evidence you have of when you two separated. Then argue that you should not be held responsible for his debt because you were not acting as a spouse at the time that the debt incurred.” Jax was all business as he talked about court. It was like a whole new side of him, and I was very interested in this brainy, sexy lawyer vibe he had going on.“Do you think that will work?” I was st
Life has a funny way of changing rapidly, and sometimes all you can do is hold on for the ride. Life, or fate decided to only give me three days before having to make a decision about whether or not to move in with Jax. Well actually fate decided that I needed to move in with Jax or be homeless with kids. I came home from work and discovered that the electric company was done making any kind of payment arrangements with me. They contacted my landlord directly so that they could turn the service back over into the owner’s name. This of course led to a ten-day eviction notice being posted to my front door.I felt utterly defeated as I sat on my front porch holding the notice from my landlord in my hand that had been taped to my front door. I had struggled so hard to juggle the bills, and yet I had managed to fail. There was no more juggling, I had lost the game completely. Evidently this was the year for all of my worst fears to come to
My life got increasingly more hectic as I prepared everyone for the move. Jax talked to his kids first, then I sat my children down and talked to them. My children were extremely unhappy about moving. They had moved enough while we were in the military, and now I was forcing them to move again. They tried to be understanding of everything, but their disappointment was written all over their faces. My eldest child took it the worse. Levi did not understand why Jax and his children could not move in with us. I was at a loss as to how to explain to the children what an eviction was, or why we were being evicted.On top of the stress of dealing with the children, I also needed to take a few days off work. It was incredibly stressful thinking about the fact that I only had ten days to completely pack up and move an entire house. Jax was being as helpful as he could be, but he had to work as well. I was on a serious time crunch. My depression was
I had managed to get the house done, barely, and it certainly was not up to my standards of cleanliness. All mine and the children’s belongings ended up in a storage shed, apart from my entertainment center, television, and some clothing. Jax promised that once we got a little more settled, we would get the rest of our house in order. It was definitely a tight squeeze for now, and I had to keep reminding myself that it was only for a year at most.My children have accepted the situation fully, and they were trying to make the most of it. The boys are still sleeping in the living room, and Olivia was sharing a room with Helen. I was constantly making mental notes of things that we will need to buy in order to make our living situation a little easier for everyone. The main item was that we were going to need two sets of bunk beds. One set for the boy’s room, and one for Olivia and Helen. That was the only way that we were going t
With Jax’s encouragement I applied for college, using my GI bill from the Army I could attend college for almost free. Jax told me to follow my dreams, he pointed out that if I could finish college than we would be in a better place financially in the future. It did not take much to convince me, I had always wanted to graduate from college, have a more stable career, and to make my children proud of me. It had seemed like a pipe dream until now. I never had the chance to go to school when I was with Donavon, because I was working too much to focus on my studies. Now that Jax was paying bills, and I was helping I did not have to work multiple jobs.The situation between Isabella and the rest of the house had not improved. If anything, she had amped up her resentment. I carried through with my thoughts, and every night I had turned in for bed I hid my wallet. I quickly learned that unless I had concrete undeniable proof of any of her wr
WarningThis chapter contains acts of physical and verbal violence that can be triggering to readers. This chapter also deals with some addiction issues, as well as some drug usage. Please note this is in no way shape or form meant to promote the usage of drugs. Drugs and alcohol are dangerous substances that alter brain chemicals and can lead to death. Please read with caution.Almost three months had passed since I had moved in with Jax. I still have not made any headway with Isabella if anything things had taken a turn for the worst. My middle son Shawn and Isabella are constantly butting heads. Shawn is a bit of a wild child, but for the most part well behaved. He has a hyperactive personality, and sometimes he has difficulty concentrating. Isabella tends to provoke him until he acts rashly. This newest
Although exhaustion had pulled me into sleep, I did not get a great night of sleep. The floor was hard, and cold, and my headache would spontaneously wake me up during the night. My arms were also starting to throb, as were my thighs. I sarcastically made snarky comments to myself about how I wish I were in better shape. My body felt like it had gone through ten rounds with a professional wrestler. As the clock got closer to six am, I finally drug myself up off the floor, intent on making some coffee.My brain still feels like it is in shock. I am still trying to process everything from last night, and now I need to figure out my next steps. Where do I go from here? How did I even end up here? I am trying to be as quiet as possible. I am not ready to face Jax this morning, and truthfully, I do not want to deal with the kids either.Fate is a truly cruel witch though, because as I am leaning over the counter, waiting
I grabbed a second cup of coffee and steeled my spine ready to start the long process of figuring out my next moves. Jax obviously was not bothered by his actions last night. The fact that he could come out of the bedroom, see me but ignore me, and go about his business was all the proof I needed that there was no apology coming from him. My heart hurt for the loss of the love that I thought was blooming between us, but now was not the time for emotions. Now was the time for me to push my emotions aside and work.I grabbed a notebook before settling in once again in the kitchen chair. I browsed through every available rental in the area. To my utter horror there were not many places available. Scanning through the listings it became apparent that three-bedroom homes were in short supply. Desperate times call for desperate measures, I started looking at two-bedroom homes.It would be very difficult for me and the kid