~47 ~

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I got into my car and drove in the speed of light towards the only place i have dreaded my whole life since my parent died.

Images from that night still hunted me in my sleep when I go to bed at night. That distinctive smell of disinfectant and ambulance siren blowing from a nearby distance has being stucked in my mind since that day I found myself sitting in the EU, waiting for the doctor to tell me something, just anything that proves that my mom had pulled back to life but the more I waited, the longer it took and the more obvious it became to me, it had all ended in tears just like it did with my dad's.

Tears could not bring them back no matter how hard I begged and cried my eyes out. They were really gone forever and I had to face the reality of their absence right from that very moment till this very day and I can tell you how fucked up that has been.

You cry yourself to sleep and wake up to yet another day and begin again. It's a void that