unexpected guess

Sometimes I think I might actually be insane. In the sense that maybe everything around me isn’t really happening but something so powerful is making it seem as is. I find myself shaking my head to move my thoughts around and scramble them. Then my head feels clear for a while but after that while my thoughts are different yet the same, but more revealing more sensitive or like I said I might just be insane. And for the simple fact that either if i am a demon or human i am a being in being itself. I exist and everyone else around me is exactly just like me. Exactly, they have their own systems to coup yet there is an infinite number of ways those systems work heavily so for my mind to try to comprehend every single one and to try to understand them in every way possible is just simply .. insane.

I stay in bed a little longer before heading out. It’s been a few weeks since my first .. outing with Kenny.

I haven’t seen her much. I feel nervous every time I think of going. Though I like her much there is something.. hidden behind her calmness. Most humans are so fixed on the past they don’t realize how life is passing by them but Kenny I don’t know.

The few times I did meet up with her were enjoyable. She’s a breath of fresh air. Or maybe I’m just desperate for a friend and deprived of attention.

I decided to go see her today. I get ready with my baggy oversized jeans ,my longed sleeve shirt, and my sweater that’s just my size. As I’m on the walk I stop. Goose bumps rise all over my arms and neck and for a second I smelled lavender. I put my hoodie halfway on my head and looked around. Someone is watching me. Could it be the same thing that happened a few weeks ago when I dropped off Kenny? I make my way to the shop.

“hey shine “. The familiarity of her voice brought a small smile to my face. “hey Ken, come sit with me”

We sit in our usual sit by the window and we drank our coffee before we start talking. “ I thin- .. someone is watching me” I start “ this is the second time I’ve felt it so I won’t brush it off again, “ I took a deep breath trying to keep my level of calmness. Before I could keep on speaking Ken asked “when was the first?”

“The first?”

“When was the first time you felt as though you were being watched?”

Without skipping a beat I said “The first time I took you home.” She nodded her head and she looked out the window as if she were looking for .. something. “So what..” she continues “peop- ‘Demons’ are coming after me or something?” Though she air quoted the word Demon, her pulse started to quicken in her neck and her breathing became more controlled. “ I told you I’ll protect you”

“Why? You barely know me. I mean I made the decision to be your friend on my own”

“It’s because you are my friend, that I’ll protect you for I come with dangers” she looked at me with curiosity and confusion. “ .. what dangers ? Are you like a runaway or something?” She points at me and when I keep my face a mask of stone surprises flickers on her face and she smiles. smiles? Maybe Kenny isn’t so innocent.

“So what if I am?” I reply back easily. I’ve never been ashamed of escaping that hellhole.

Kenny lifts her hand in mock surrender.” Nothing to me, but why is Shine running away?” She’s so different than any other human I’ve met. “don’t you care that I told you I’m being watched? These demons are real evil and shred people apart without a second thought”

“Sounds like you know them well”

Without warning Peter’s screams assault my mind and I flinch internally. I looked out the window “ Just a bit.”

“I can handle myself” Ken said and I looked back at her amusement on my face. My expression made her laugh and I laughed with her. Then my mind went into terrifying sharp focus. The room went silent and Ken touched my arm “Chyne ? “ I looked up and everything zoomed back to the coffee shop, I look out the window but see no one. “He’s here.” I whisper more to myself but I know Ken heard it. My eye automatically shift to black slits and I searched but I saw nothing. Fuck I looked at Ken but she looked as if nothing was happening and I anchored my self. She’s right. Everything is okay. And I will protect her always. “Are you okay?” Ken ask but she seems more curious than concerned. “Yea I just felt weird for a second, I thought.. i don’t know what I thought.”

We order food and we talk about each other and what we find interesting or boring, the mood is steady and the feeling of earlier is gone. Though Kenny is driven by a hidden strength I admire. I grow affection to her as my friend and I am saddened by the thoughts of losing her. When she said she can handle herself I believed her completely. But regardless I will as well. We finish are food and get ready to leave. I swipe the bill faster than Kenny. She won’t be paying whenever we go out and she’ll have to deal with it.

As I’m closing the bill the door opens and a tall figure walks in. The hairs on my neck and arms rise and my focus is sharp. “Let’s go” Ken interrupts my thoughts. Walking out I look back to see him already looking back.