Honesty

Kenny raised her brows high “Really?” She said in a bored tone and disbelief edge into it.

“A demon?” Then she rolled her eyes again.

When did I start calling her Kenny? It’s ridiculous, anyway you put her name it sounds male. How did she come to get the name.

As I thought though she doesn’t believe me. Why do I feel comfortable doing this, tell her this secret of mine. There’s only one thing .. well amongst other things that I can do to prove it.

Looking around once place was nearly empty besides one lone man in the farthest corner with his back to us. I keep my eyes on the man longer than necessary.

I take a deep breath and look to her.

I shift my eyes from milky white with brown irises to full on black with two slits one vertical and one horizontal interlocking each other forming a cross and blinked once tilting my head to the side then changed immediately back.

Kenny sat up straighter her eyes slightly wide from shock. Then it came, the eerie silence, the one that always followed me around.

In that moment nothing existed but me and Kenny for the simple fact that she kept her eyes on me.

Behind them I saw everything, fear, shock, confusion, .. yet nothing consumed her or rather she had complete control of her reactions.

I had no intention of breaking the silence this time. No this time it was going to be her.

After a few minutes or something like that. Time can be weird when it’s stretched out thin.

“What’s a demon?” She says face flat as if she asked me what I wanted for lunch. My pulse was at a steady pace but beating hard against my chest neck and abdomen.

Breathe, breathe. I repeated to myself. I tiled my head to show I was confused by her question. “Besides the stories about you guys being evil and stuff. What’s it’s like being a demon?” I understood her question completely but another question invaded my thoughts repeatedly without consent, who am I? who am I? who am I?.

“There are evil ones out there” I replied to her as I looked out the window. Ignoring the question. Might as well get it out now. “ And some of them are looking for me” I say slowly as I turn my head to look back at her. Relaying in my eyes that who ever gets close to me might be in danger as well. But she ignored the look and asked another question.

“Who are you as a demon?” I couldn’t comprehend what was happening at this point, wasn’t she scared? Didn’t she want to run or kill me? Extort me and condemn me. “ Aren’t you scared ?” She looked amused yet offended in a way.

“Please why would I be scared of a demon that says “whatever” repeatedly and is also scared of asking people out.” She laughed to herself .

”I wasn’t scared.”

I tried to defend but only ended up making her laugh harder. I sat back in my chair again as I sat up somewhere along the talk and just looked at her.

Was it really this easy? Could I have saved peter if I had told him who I was ? I close my eyes and lay my head back. “ What you did with your eyes. That was pretty cool.” She said almost in a small voice as if she was a bit scared to speak about it.

I looked up at her and smiled. Looking away to wipe it off I cleared my throat and commented back to her that it was a genetics trait and it comes in different colors and shapes depending on the stations and ranks of the underworld. She seemed pretty interested.

She asked me a lot of questions about my home and what it was like there down. I told her what I knew but it wasn’t much.

“Ken I’m closing up now” one of the other barista lets her know it’s time to go. It’s been three hours already ? We get up and I pay the bill before she could grab it.

We walk side by side for a while, I see my house coming up but I don’t feel like going in to that quiet. “Can I walk you home?” I ask Ken.

“Only if u promise to keep me safe” she smile.

And my chest does that tightening thing again, and I try my best to smile back and I end up making her laugh. “This is my best smile okay get used to it” I say while trying to hold back my laugh.

I haven’t smiled in a while but my determination pulls through. “ No one will mess with you as long as I’m around. “ The rest of the way to her house was quiet yet it was a comfortable one, she doesn’t live too far from me either.

I stop right at the edge of her house and she walks the rest of the way alone, I stand there waiting till she goes in. “See you later, Shine” she says my name with extra sarcasm and with a smile and I grimace.

”Chyne.” I correct her and she laughs as she goes in.

As I make my way back home I sense eyes on me and when I look around I see no one. For the first time in a while I felt as if though I was ready, for whatever came at me.

I felt this sensation come over me but I was yet to name it. I wouldn’t cower away or stand back and watch the people I care about get taken from me.

Something was coming and the decision to start my life over was making walls crumble. It didn’t matter if I did it or not, it is going to happen either way and I’ll make the first move.