Alpha Kael のすべてのチャプター: チャプター 31 - チャプター 40

~Jada I didn’t get much sleep last night. Jess’s words clung to me, even during the trek to the next camping spot. At least by the end of it, my aching feet and sore back distract my mind enough. I’m not going to listen to what the rest of the Silent’s have to say. I’m sure they are just messing around with us, telling fake stories and luring us to believe something that isn’t true. If it’s some kind of initiation, I don’t like it. I’m not sure why they are out to get me in particular, since Ace isn’t getting any of their attention. He just lingers on the outside, head down. He passes by everyone’s radar. 

~Jada Axel paid me no mind the next morning.We packed up all our belongings and started our walk again. Axel didn’t come near me, and I didn’t come near him. He walked at the front of the group and I stuck to the back, trying to think of how to deal with this. Should I tell someone and get him removed from the Silent’s, or should I keep it to myself?It doesn’t seem right to tell Kael about it. He sacrificed everything for me. I might not agree with why he did it, and how he feels now about me, but I can’t have his entire career taken from me because of a crush. 

~Jada I didn’t get any sleep that night. Sitting up in bed, I rocked back and forth, wondering whether I was stuck in a dark, cruel dream or not. It doesn’t seem real, when I think about all the small details of it. Being mates with an Alpha doesn’t even seem in the realm of possibility. I’ve thought about how much I’ve hated him before throughout my teenage years, however, unlike the rest of the girls in school, I never considered being mates with him. Thoughts raced through my head about how Kael would react to this. I mean, if I told him how I found out, he wouldn’t be happy. But would he be happy if he found out we wer

~Jada It wasn’t as if I had much of a choice. It wasn’t as if I was going to tell Kael no. Not when he has been so kind to me, and not when I know he is my mate. Maybe on this trip I can find out how to tell him. First, I need to know how I’m going to deal with it, since being the Luna of the Discipline Pack doesn’t appeal to me so much. I’m not going to lie about being nervous about how Kael will react, either. He doesn’t seem like he wants a companion, despite how nice as he’s been to me. Maybe he will cast me out, or send me back to the prisons to hide me and my secret from the public. 

~Jada Kael’s reaction wasn’t how I expected it to be. It wasn’t admission, to be true, that I know we are mates and that I’m revealing it to him right now. It was a simple question that may have taken him off guard for a moment, considering the time I’m asking it, however, he doesn’t look as if he is coming to a realisation about what I’m insinuating. “Oh, well, if we were mates…I feel like it’s fairly evident,” Kael tells me, looking at me earnestly. I’m not sure what he means by that. Is that him telling me he would continue trying to find his mother for his entire life and not worry about me?