Chapter 12 Cleo  I didn't know what the term;" You'll have the rest of your lives , and amazing make up sex to make up for the bad patch  you're going through" meant , until I got married to Angelo.  I've always Understood that he can only register things if they are in the physical . Emotionally he feels everything at once and needs time to process before he cries . He opens up completely when he trusts you and thinks he has to deal with everything alone . I'm beginning to see that he married me for security and not that he loves me completely . I have to be honest with myself and maybe I'm  reading things wrong and I'm over thinking ,but we need to find common ground. I don't want him regretting the decision he took to marry me if he doesn't know how to be in one . "Cleo? " "Angelo." "what happened to calling me Blue?" " Why

Chapter 14Cleo  There are many moments I treasure when I get to spend time with family; and a rare sight is , Angelo fast asleep with the kid's except for Ava who was quietly watching the movie that was playing . When I went to go pick her up and give her kiss she giggled and I walked out leaving Angelo to rest with the twins . I knew he had trouble sleeping. This past week alone he woke up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat thinking I was gone and never coming back . I love him I really do I just don't know how he, is going to managewhen I am away for work or if I have to go way to go see an important client out of the country . I couldn't resist taking a picture. Ava needed a nappy change and to get cleaned up. She had chocolate all over her clothes and all over her face , which was an indication that Angelo was fast asleep before she decided to have fun with the pudding . Angelo looked like a canvas the twins had fun

Chapter 16  Cleo  When Daniel called me to tell me that Angelo woke up in a state and that I should hurry up and get to the beach house as soon as possible I thought that he was joking . The tone in his voice was serious which meant that another nightmare. When he mentioned that he thought that Ava was the kid in the car seat of the accident that had happened when he was driving back from his cousin's hotel room with Jane was our baby girl.  If memory serves me correctly ; I think MJ was round about the same age as Ava when the accident happened . He is scared that the same thing might happen and that this time he has more to lose. When I walked in the bedroom Angelo was sitting on the edge of the bed in his white boxers that had bananas printed on them and he was whaling . When I went to go give him a hug ; he hugged me back and said ; he needed time away from me . A lot of things started running through

Chapter 18  Cleo  I don’t think that I have threshold for not being told what’s going on and being left in the dark. I am sometimes impulsive and the first thing I do when I feel like I am not being told what I need to know or stuff is being kept from me I bail. It is linked to a fear  That was instilled in me as kid and manifested into a flight response as an adult.  When I was told that Daniel had died ; I was in denial at first and I could not believe  what my ears heard and my heart struggled to understand. They kept the information from me  until I tried to call Daniel about a boy who  was giving  me trouble, and when I informed my mother  that I was going out she told me to sit down I knew that something was wrong because she looked sad and distressed . When she broke the news to me the day was just a sad. Bereavement is the worst feeling ever; you know you&r

Chapter 20Cleo As a parent you know when something is wrong with your child. What hurts the most and torturous is ;when your baby gets sick on your watch and no matter how much you try to play doctor , you can only do so much .  On the morning we took Ava to the hospital I was as scared and I had never felt so alone because ,when  they admitted her  I wasn't  kept up to date.   I  was kept in the dark and told to call her real mother. Fact was that I was Ava's real mother I tried to tell them that she was my child and they took MR Rossi instead of me into the waiting room. I told the doctor in charge that I was my daughter's mother ,and if they didn't believe me. I could told him what her blood type was and that she was allergic to penicillin. He looked at me with disdain .  Doctor Killian ignored me .I have been customer profiled before at a store because of my skin colour