To say that I was shocked would be an understatement. I was not shocked. I was freaked out of my damn mind. And I was so freaked out that I did not even struggle when his lips landed on mine. I stayed stock still like a statue as his lips captured mine in a deep kiss.As soon as my head registered what had happened, I pushed at his chest with all the power in me to throw him off my body. Thankfully this time, my slightly stronger strength stayed with me and helped me.After that damn kiss, I wanted to throw up. Because I felt weird. Super weird.And it was not just an uncomfortable feeling or confusion or lack of desire. It was the pain that hit me so hard that it almost blinded me. Not only physical pain, but emotional as well as the feeling of betrayal.And I knew what it was. Why I was feeling like I had committed the biggest sin possible for a living being on earth. My mate bond with Damon was the cause of this feeling. I could not get close to any ma

Bella's POVI had barely spent my time learning anything at college. It was hard for me to do, considering how my two starting days of college had gone to crap.As soon as I had gotten home, my first instinct was to wash myself off with a thorough shower. And that was exactly what I did as soon as I got home. The memory of Jax's mouth on mine was still haunting me. It was now eleven p.m, I was laying in my bed, spread out, books completely covering the bed but my mind wandering far, far away to ponder about those green eyes. That is when a knock on my door interrupted me."Yeah?" I asked, wondering who it was.The door opened and Kaylie walked in, but not completely. She just leaned against the doorway while her eyes searched for something on my face."Wassup?" I inquired.She rarely came to my room except for when she needed something from me or if she wanted to strangle me for taking something of hers."Everything w

I stood there for a minute, trying to calm myself in a way that did not require smashing everything that came into my sight.But I did not think it was working.I stormed forward, and took a high jump to grab the windowsill of Bella's room. My hands kept my body afloat, dangling over the one story house. I did not want to make a sound.With nothing more than a whispering slither, I hitched my body up and entered her room through the window. I had expected her to be on alert. My scent should have made her aware of my arrival. She was a werewolf after all, her senses are far higher than a human, just like me.But what I saw was not what I had prepared for all along. There she was sleeping on the small bed, in her shorts and a loose t shirt, her legs tucked up to her tummy and hands beneath her head being used as a pillow.Vulnerable and innocent, that is how she slept.At first glance she looked like she had just dropped out of the sk

This is what I wanted to hear from her. This longing, this confession, this desperate need to get as close as possible to each other, I wanted it all. But things would not be the same once she got to know about what kind of monster I was.So before she could get a chance to break me by leaving, before she could rip out my heart out with her words and leave me alone with a broken bond of fate, I am going to rip her away from me."I do not love you." I said to her with seriousness, "I can not accept you as my mate."Bella winced at my words like a physical blow had hit her. And I hated myself for it. I hated to see the hurt that filled her eyes and I hated the pain that filled her heart. I hid the agony that was flowing through me with a neutral, cold expression and continued speaking. Although her small frame was shaking softly into my arms, she did not try to escape them. It was the only thing that gave me the strength to utter the next words aloud,

Bella's POV I could not believe what just happened. I was seriously trying so hard to understand the difference between anger, stubbornness and batshit crazy. When I did not have a mate, despite of my mind reminding me of my weaknesses over and over and over again, in a corner of my heart I had hope. A tiny ray of sunshine that whispered, don't worry. Your mate is going to be the most amazing thing that ever happens to you. It is going to be magical, beautiful, happy and erotic. Damon had broke my heart and literally pummeled it into the ground under his feet when he had refused to accept me as his mate. But after seeing the way he reacted to me, to my touch, to my existence, I wanted to give him a chance to think again, to try and piece together the puzzles in his