I feel my anger eat my own system, nanginginig ako habang kapit kapit ko ang steering wheel habang hindi pansin ang bilis ko ngayon I don't know how to calm myself while I am driving now. That is the worst thing that happen to me he have no right to said it to me Why people keep acting like they knew everything. Kung makapagsalita sila parang tama lahat ng lumalabas sa bibig nila, they don't think before they judge you Tangina lang "Fuck!" Gigil na gigil ako because every single words he say keep replaying in my mind. It's like a curse to me, he poisoned my mind by saying that, why I allow myself to hear that bullshits  "Tangina nyong lahat!" I shout at the top of my lungs and stop my car at the open space  Nagpupumadyak ako habang palabas ako sa kotse, nasa kanang kamay ko ang yosi ko at sa kaliwa ang vodka na binigay saakin ng lalaki na iyon

"Gago.." bulong ko ng mapansin ko na may pang apat na lalaki nanaman ang nalapit saakin habang nagsosolo ako sa sulok kung saan ako nag iinom It's far from everything, para akong tanga na nanakbo habang may mga bobong humahabol saakin para bigyan ako ng problema at poproblemahin "Sabing ayoko nga aba!" naiirita kong saad ng mapansin ko na parang tanga silang nagtutulakan kung sino bang unang lalapit saakin I date a lot of guy before, siguro umabot na ang balita sa media at nalaman ng madla that my relationship with edward is fallen apart now. Both of us is in fatal situation now  "Stop ruining my night. Come on stop bothering me and let me enjoy my solitude" reklamo ko sa kanila at nagumpisa na silang mag alisan Thanked God they listen to me, unlike edward, he doesn't know where to stop Hindi nya alam na mas makakasira saamin ang pagpilit nya na maayos k

"Are you ready?" problemadong problemado akong nakaharap sa salamin habang di maipinta ang muka ko, i try my best to look presentable but i still look like a bold star "No" sigaw ko habang pilit namang binubuksan ni Oakley ang pinto ng walk in closet ko It's been a month since i start my relationship with him, and he never fail to make me happy and satisfied, well sa office ko, yun lang ang huli naming kababalaghan at sa buong buwan ay wala Why? Kasi hindi namab kailangan ng sex sa relationship, all i need is love and companion "What's the problem baby, mom and dad is waiting" mas lalo akong kinabahan, haharapin ko ang royal na pamilya ni Oakley, i can't breathe every time i remember that i will meet them "Di ba pwedeng mag back out, look i don't look presentable and i really look like a pornstar Oakley" tumawa sya hanggang sa bumukas ang pinto at naka simpleng long sleeves at pa

"Anak kumain ka muna habang inaantay nadin ang papa mo" i look at my mom while Edward is beside me holding my hands like he won't never let me go My husband is so sweet, i really appreciate his effort Hindi ko alam bakit ang tahimik ng nanay ko at parang naiinip na hindi nakikita ang tatay ko Well, they love each other that's why "Ma, where is ate Zaraya, busy padin ba sya?" i ask saka ako sumubo ng sandwich "She's out of the town anak, pero bibisitahin kadin ng kapatid mo" tumango lang ako at tinignan si edward na may halos ipitin ako sa yakap "I miss you so damn much Elisha" he gently carress my hair and smile "I don't know what to say edward, hindi ko alam kung ano itong nararamdaman ko ngayon" he smile and kiss my head "It's happiness Elisha, you're happy because we will have another honeymoon trip after mong maka

Nanginginig ang kamay ko habang nakatitig ako sa kawalan Tangging dagat at hampas ng hangin ang nararamdaman ko, natapos ang usapan namin ni oakley ay para bang may kung ano sa kalooban ko na napakasakit, alam ko na hindi pa gaanong kumpleto ang alaala ko pero kahit ganon naniniwala ako sa lahat na sinabi ni edward saakin Ano bang meron at nangyari at hindi ko binigyan ng pagkakataon na mag kaayos kami ni edward, bakit ko nagawa ang bagay na iyon noon. "Mag kakasakit ka sa ginagawa mo elisha" i look at edward and my tears start falling. Kahit na umiiyak ako hindi nya kita, because its raining "I just want to answer every single questions that keeps bothering me, ang hirap ng ganito." He sit beside me and hold my hand, nilagay sa palad ko ang white gold ring na may naka engrave ng pangalan nya at taon na sa tingin ko ay araw kung kailan kami kinasal "I keep this all the time, kahi