The water was burning but it relaxed me. My mascara was all over my face so I reclined my head which was so heavy from my thoughts. When Jack was at home I never did my makeup because he said that my mother was naturally beautiful. He didn't understand why other girls put something on their faces. When Jack was out Mascara was my best friend. I took red lipstick. Yoyo's present for me, I never used it it is so bright. Jack would say that red lips make girls vulgar. I covered my lips with that wonderful color.It was strange now to touch my short hair when all my life it was long. Jack loved my long hair he said that my mother had the same just a little bit darker. He said that she was pure, sweet, strong, smart, and stupid at the same. I don't know why he thought in that way but he was smiling when he talked about her, so I suppose her stupidy was cute for him. All my life I tried to be like her but I never was enough. I never felt too good, too talented too sensitive, or

Before 16 years.Jack's point of view:Her heart was beating loudly but I almost couldn't hear it from my anger. She couldn't breathe because of her panic attack, but I couldn't leave her. For fucks sake, she has Maggie. I want her pain I want to feed myself with her fear, slowly and patiently I will play with her last seconds of life. I didn't notice how Lilliana came from this women's house with a baby in her arms. I was so concentrated on my anger and didn't notice that she took her opportunity to go inside her room and take a child. A cat was left mewing on the floor. Not so far my leg.-"Jack please leaver her". I couldn't hear her pleading, the grudge was too strong. She threatened them and insulted my Lilliana. I don't want that fat pig would die I want that she would suffer. But Maggie began to cry and my sense came back to me. The grudge couldn't let me see that she was safe now in her mother's hands... The kid was still sleepy, with one hand she sc

The music was so loud that I had to cover my ears my head began to spin. Sus came near me and was putting her hand on my back in supporting me from my pain. I heard too many voices, too much music, too much screaming, even my vision began to blur. But soon everything came normal again. My hearing adapted slowly by all voices.-"Hey are you ok baby?" Sus asked me with worry voice, but still, it was too loud for my ears her voice gave pain to my head. -" Uh, y..es can you...umm just speak a little bit quieter?" I was breathing quickly and hard, my hands became sweaty and they were shaking so I made them into a fist and kept all my strength to keep myself quietly. I tried to keep them steady on a table, my lowered head looked at people; there weren't many of them by this empty table in a corner of the club, but still, some looked, at me strangely. I lowered my head and closed my eyes. Then I opened it, but so many lights made me feel dizzy and some smokes began to b

-"You took drugs?" He asked me carefully but his eyes never left my neck. It traveled from my neck to my face and was exploring it with his dark from lust eyes. The little wildish smile could easily be seen in the corner of his lips. I don't know why his gaze was so deep and he didn't speak for a moment but I liked the way he looked at me. His fingers lifted up my chin that he could look better into my eyes. His thumb touched my lips. And my breathing quickened from the way he touched, the way he breathed into my face.-"Yes is it bad?" I asked him innocently in a whisper like that would be our little naughty secret. My question was more flirting and I didn't expect his answer which would judge me or he would be disappointed with me. I knew he didn't care about my health, my well-being and it wasn't important that he didn't care, there weren't any emotions only lust between us. It was enough for me. It was more than I ever had. I needed to feel that somebody like him wants me

  Before 16 YearsJack's point of view:He was hiding in a dirty apartment with a cross at his hand if that would save him. Maybe he thought that I am a devil I wouldn't be surprised by his reaction.He hadn't anywhere to hide anymore it was easy to track him, his smell is now easily recognizable. The only thing that protects him is the brown doors. I can't cross them without a permit, without his invitation, but it is ok I can wait. He was hiding for almost a week and all week I didn't see Lilliana. I have many occasions to kill him and go to her but I didn't do that. I waited and waited and avoided killing him in knowing that would nobody stop me from going to her anymore. And he was my stupid pretext to keep myself away from her. But his living made every minute annoying for me too.  I couldn't be fully satisfied anymore, I killed three times more and fed myself more than usual but I still was angry more than ever, I drank blood like a madman. I wouldn'