Chris and Crystal were very hospitable but it's hard to enjoy this when all you feel is pain, grief, anger and regret.They don't ask many questions, a gesture I am most grateful for.Chris dropped me off at the airport early today and now the plane is about to land in Seattle. The scene is different, homey. It feels good to be home.I try to bask in the joy of being home again but it's short lived, in a few seconds, the huge, air restricting pain is back in full force and I can only hope to get off the plane quickly to get some fresh air.Making my way out of the plane, I catch sight of a rather sober Stella and my heart drops. She's sad because I'm sad, this is so heart breaking because Stella is never sad.I make my way over to her and she gives me a tight, warm hug which only makes me break into tears."It's okay" she coos "he's far away from you now"Somehow, hearing the words out loud makes me cry even more. "I know" I sob.
Read more