I locked myself in my room, days or weeks and I will open it if Kiki and my friends knock on this room and just look for me, I'm traumatized, really traumatized by that bitter incident. The cheerful me is now suddenly pensive sad, my friends may be surprised by the change in my attitude. And the trust and love for Hery was suddenly faded and destroyed. Resign, how can God give the best way. Sintia is completely destroyed, empty and injured.  On the other hand, Hery repeatedly apologized to me, but for some reason it wasn't love or love that remained, but one only feeling of disappointment, hatred and regret for knowing him all this time. I also thought I better stay away from Hery for the future and my dreams, to hell with his promise to marry me and propose to me soon. I don't want my life to be destroyed any deeper, my life is destroyed, my parents' hearts will definitely cry because of all this. If I continue my relationship with Hery tomorrow or t

"Roby, how serious is our relationship?""Seriously, Sin, God willing, to get married.""Rob, has Sintia something to say, how important is the meaning of Virgin to you?""Sin, why talk about that, it's all taboo Sin.""Yes, Sintia just wants to hear your opinion, what if Sintia is no longer a virgin?""Are you serious Sin?""Yes, I was traumatized by a rape case before.""That's right Sin, when and who offended you.""At the beginning of college, Rob. Who and when, let it all be Sintia's secret, for almost 5 years Sintia has been quiet, Rob.""Yes Sin, brother appreciate all that, I have known you for a long time Sin, you are kind, and you sincerely love you.""Brother, accept Sintia's shortcomings?""Yes, let the past become a past, especially when we are already getting married and engaged.""Thank you Roby." Today, I admit my shortcomings, and Roby seems to know and not make a big deal out of it all. Like I said, I felt like I was

Still trying not to believe all of this, the day goes on, yes they are applying too. With a happy face in the photos they shared via F*, I was carrying my bike very fast this afternoon. "Sin, let's go home?""I want to be alone first, brother."“Sin, are you okay? Did you promise to Sin? '"Yes, I want to go home." I saved my motorbike and bag immediately, I took my engagement photo album with Roby, I hugged, I cried, I screamed uncontrollably, O Allah, it hurts, I can't bear to see all this reality. My mom and dad came in and broke the door of my room, they tried to calm me down, hugged, kissed me, O Allah I want to DIE. It's really hard everything I've experienced, I want to die, but looking at my mother's face I feel sorry, who else do they have besides me. Tonight I'm sleeping in the purple dress that Roby gave me. The dress I wore for our engagement back then. That day was very happy, seen my mother, father, in-laws a

As I said before, my marriage can be said to be tricky. Many parents with all their desires for my wedding, many arguments between them that often disagree. Quite a short time to prepare all your needs. Until the invitation I was confused about how to give it to my friends, the time was really tight and I really didn't have much time because I had to work very hard every day. Mom and Aunt Jaja, those who can be said to be very helpless to prepare all my wedding. As for my stepfather, don't ask, he just made a mess, burning anger and differences with my parents and family. If I can scream, I want to get married alone, a simple marriage without all the complicated things like this, even to the point of being held in three wedding receptions. Today, Sunday, July 8, 2012, in the afternoon there is a wedding ceremony at my house, yes, according to the agreement of the family, the marriage contract will be carried out at my husband's family house, on

I finally moved to a simple house with Rahman, which I bought from what I had saved during my years of working at the bank. It is not expensive, I can say that I am quite lucky because it is an auction house from my office. We moved on Saturday at dawn, quite complete with the household items I brought. There are two beds, a guest sofa set, a refrigerator, a television, two motorbikes and my kitchen utensils. Yes, I was the type of collector since the first. You could say I'm the type of girl who is economical and calculating in spending money. He said he was stingy or not, he was not said to be wasteful. It has been my dream since I was young to have a home and contents in a private house. Dreaming of a harmonious household and a simple life free from shackles, especially my stepfather who can be said to be very talkative and controlling. Like I said, since I had my stepfather, life in my house was like a hell, hot, hot and far from calm. It's just that si