“If I've been on your mind, you hang on every word I say, lose yourself in time, at the mention of my name. Will I ever know how it feels to hold you close? And have you tell me whichever road I choose, you'll go?" -Adele |Five Years Ago| •E V E L Y N• My mind was so much like the ocean, watching for the incoming ship, calm on the surface with so many deep under currents, all of them with their own purpose. Being a 'watcher' was the perfect job for a daydreamer like me and if I must suffer cold feet and numb fingers through the winter months, it was a price worth paying. They thought I was a fool to wait like I do every chance I get: eyes set to the horizon, arms resting on the cold metal rail. But the way I saw it they were missing the greatest mysteries of life as they chase the mundane and trip over the details of existence. Waiting here gave me time to let my

Never Again 🌷 “Don't break me again I am delicate Please, don't break my heart Trust me I've been broken before…” -Ali Gatie, It's You ~•~ "It works like this, your daddy says you need to have soup, so here's the deal, every time you have a spoon of soup, you get a bonus card with a surprise in it which you can receive when you get better." I smiled, and his eyes shone in excitement while looking at his father for permission. "What kind of surprise?" Alexander asked, settling by my side on the bed while I rested his head against my body. "Well, surprises are meant to be hidden, right Xander?" I asked, while he nodded with a small smile on his face, melting my heart again and again. "Awesome, let me write the cards," I was about to stand up when Xavier placed his hand on mine, asking, "I'll get it, where is it?" I might be trying very hard to ignore the proximity between us, but the sparks which I felt wasn't letting go of the fact that I love him. Nodding, I said, "Take

Never Again 🌷 “I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.” -Marilyn Monroe ~•~ •E V E L Y N• As I neared the main door of Xavier's house, my heartbeat started beating rapidly. This was it. This was the end of Evelyn and Xavier. I couldn't take it anymore so I turned around and walked out of the door. Few steps further I heard Alexander's voice echo in my ear, "Where's Rose, Daddy?" My little munchkin asked, I could not let him see me in this position, the situation where I was unable to make out the meaning of anything, where I couldn't bear the pain of Xavier's allegations right now, how would I answer Alexander's innocent questions. A tear rolled down my cheek but I didn't bother to wipe it away. It was over. ----------- "May I know why you need Mr Forbes' address please?" Ethan's secretary asked from the other s

Never Again 🌷 “It is a curious thing, the death of a loved one. We all know that our time in this world is limited, and that eventually all of us will end up underneath some sheet, never to wake up. And yet it is always a surprise when it happens to someone we know. It is like walking up the stairs to your bedroom in the dark, and thinking there is one more stair than there is. Your foot falls down, through the air, and there is a sickly moment of dark surprise as you try and re-adjust the way you thought of things.” -Lemony Snicket ~•~ •X A V I E R• The funeral was sweet sorrow, for in those moments of raw pain, when it felt as if the loving self screams in silent anguish, there were the memories of the good times that came as blossoming spring meadow. I read somewhere that darkness always came as strong protective arms, holding us close until the promised dawn. But, would it ever dawn in my life? After five years of heartbreak, pain, anger, hurt and longing, I finally got th

Never Again 🌷 “Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because th