Nicole Tonight is the mission and to say that I'm a bit nervous would be an understatement. I'm literally freaking out with jumbled up thoughts in my head, making me holed up in my room since yesterday and today also. Not that anyone have a problem with my absence during the live chaos going on everywhere in the house, I'm just feeling a bit self conscious about what other members would think about what I'm doing instead of going through the plan with Shane and his inner gang members. Sofia had kept me updated about the plans for tonight and she did asked me a couple of times why I'm stuck in my room all day without going outside and doing my normal training routine. I didn't have it in me to discuss with what happened between me and her brother in his office cos I'

Nicole Luca dragged me upstairs to the private room by the hand while I fought off the urge to snatch my hand away from his death grip and elbow him on the face. Seriously is he really that desperate to have sex with me is that why he's rushing us upstairs? If that's the reason why then sorry to say, its never gonna happen tonight you disgusting old toad! We entered the hallway that has doors on every side, and while we walked past each of them, the sound of groans and moans filled the whole hallway making me scrunched up my nose in disgust but immediately smiled whenever Luca glanced at me. I saw the last room on the right and I instantly remembered that the whole plan tonight, is for me to take him to that room

Nicole I woke up the next morning around 6 am and decided it was a good time to get back to my usual early morning training routine. I quickly slipped on some black yoga pants and a grey tank top and put on my new Nike converse. I tied my hair up into its usual ponytail and then head straight to the shooting range. The lights were already on when I got to the range, making my work easier then shuffling around in the dark to look for the light switches around this place. The house was silent before I left it which means, that everyone is still asleep, except for the bodyguards guarding the main gates and around the house. I stopped by the first cubicle and grabbe

Nicole Last night, I've been thinking. Whatever Shane and I have started to developed between us was something that both of us were probably not expecting. Even for me, I didn't even know that it would lead this far and my feelings for him are growing day by day. So I've decided to talk to him about whats happening between us, first thing this morning, which is why I'm currently sitting on top of my bed running my fingers through my hair, feeling a bit nervous about going to him and try asking him about all this. Its probably not that necessary for me to make such a big deal about it but that's not how I take things lightly. I just wanted to know whats the meaning to those stolen kisses between us and whether it w

NicoleThe rest of the days flew by so quickly till it was a new week again. I've successfully avoided Shane as long as I could and I could proudly say that its working. He on the other hand, was a easy task after all, cos he barely asked for me anymore to tell me things that are important or bump into him along the way inside the house.After getting back from the gym, I flung my small face towel over my shoulder and went to the kitchen to grab a cold drink.What I didn't expect to see, was Shane and sienna and the others sitting at the dining table eating breakfast and laughing about something in particular.Sometimes, seeing them together like this made me feel a little left out cos I'm not really part of the inner