บททั้งหมดของ Rented Pleasure: บทที่ 31 - บทที่ 40

 Almost 8 years ago The nausea in the morning is killing me.Everything that falls to my stomach is flushed down the toilet.My tears have stopped coming out, I don't cry anymore.It seems that there is no god in heaven who watches over me, takes care of me and protects me. I am lonelier than a prisoner in a desert prison.I have cried every day since taking a pregnancy test a month ago. Ryan left his seed inside of me. It grows thanks to my damn eggs wanting to get pregnant. I hate myself every second for doing nothing, for doing nothing but crying as he penetrated and possessed me over and over again, until he was done and gone. He left me lying at the entrance of the building.Don't I have adrenaline in my body?I have considered all the options in the last two months. I've thought about what things I could have done to de

I look at my building from inside the car. I don't feel the blood rushing through my veins and my pulse is racing. I'm scared to death. I know it's stupid to come here alone without notifying the police or anyone."Without giving the information to Santiago so that he knows that I am here, so that he can be pending in case of ... die."I am not at all sure of my actions.My hands are cold and stiff.My soul aches to think of what that psychopath could have done to Sophie.I can't keep counting on Santiago or Cristopher, things are the way they are. And so they must stay.I'm alone. I have always been alone, and I will stay that way. I am destined for that.It's the same feeling I had when Joshua died. I'm alone. I can't count on anyone, since no one is or will be there for me. I've lost contact with Charlene and Maxwell for years. I quit my job at the bar and moved from the place where I lived for so many years with Joshua. I wanted a

  "What did you say, Thea?" "It gets closer."His closeness is painful to me, annoys me and irritates me greatly."I didn't say anything." Have you not heard that stupid things are always said in times of crisis?“Not really. It is like saying that drunkards say things because they are drunk and, even worse, just accept them. He gets up, grabs my arm, and drags me with him. What you say in a moment of crisis is because you really feel it, only that your emotions are under control and now you let them out ...“Shut up. I walk away from him and go back to Sophie's apartment. He always has something to refute, it's like he never loses.“I am listening to you.“Cool. I don't speak behind anyone's back."Gossiping isn't polite either.""Maybe I'm not as polite as you thought, Santiago." I'm still the same prostitute you fucked."Don't go around there." His tone makes me sad. Y

My mind freezes upon hearing those words and a migraine settles in my brain. I don't know what to answer or what the hell to do. Was he watching me? Like a fucking stalker? Like Ryan?Ryan ...What if all this time I've blamed the wrong person?It was always there right under my nose.Ryan doesn't exist, at least not in this part of my life."You're screwed, Thea!" He exclaims as he approaches me. Do you really think I'm the one behind all this shit? Do you think I'm the one who did that to Sophie?“Me…"You nothing." You didn't have to say it. Oh my God! Looks like your eyes are going to pop out of the damn accounts!“Santiago…"Do you think I'm capable of shit like that?" "Looks like he's gone mad." So fucked up do you think I am? I can have you when I damn well want to. I don't need to violate your apartment ... You invited me in! Didn't you think that?Shit, I screwed up everything.

I wake up exhausted after sleeping for more than ten hours straight. The light from the window hits me right in the eyes. I blink uncomfortably at the clarity of the chamber. I am not usually a grumpy person in the morning, I usually wake up with spirits and with more joy than I have in the rest of the day. I like mornings. The amount of sun that it brings, if I consider that the Manhattan climate is quite cold, that I can rarely feel the heat, it is very good. I have come to appreciate it when I feel it through the window. My vision begins to get used to the room I am in. Dawn alone knowing that Santiago is in the next room has been the hardest thing she has had to do in recent days. The desire I feel for him is becoming more unbearable with each passing second.I was so exhausted last night that I didn't even stop by for dinner. I apologized to Santiago and Mateo for the lack of consideration, as they invited me to their home. It is true that it was not a common invitation,